Distracted

Well, it is soon. Today I was assigned a person at the loan processing company to work with me to have a Deed in Lieu situation. Basically I sign the deed over to the loan company and walk away.

When I was younger I wanted to get married, have kids, pay off my house by the time I retired and spend my retirement traveling with my wife. Missed it by that much. LOL.

Now I don't want to own anything that I can't carry in my car. I have already raised a family. I feel no need to raise another.

I think the only thing I still want is to retire from this job. All of this sort of put me in an odd mood. I am not depressed or even unhappy, I think that more than anything else I am just pondering the light at the end of the tunnel. It is one of those what next moments. I thought I knew what I wanted to do; but, I am not sure.

It is probably good that I stopped dating for awhile. Dating was fun and the ladies were all a joy to get to know and spend time with; but, I have no idea what I want the rest of my life to be. I still haven't decided.

How does one decide what they want from life? It was easy when I was young. I am not that entranced by the toys of this world. I think the better question may be whether or not I know what type of relationship I want to be in if any. Just distracted. Be well.