Bored, Bothered and I don't know what

Like most of us I had the day off today, I laid in bed most of it. I read the news and it was boring. I would not say that I am melancholy, not sure what I am, just sort of apathetic perhaps. I tend to get this way when I finish long term projects, I sort of lose interest in things until I find my next goal and I don't have one right now.

I look at the world around me and the nonsense that passes for news. In the past few weeks there has been a rash of high level bankers quitting their positions and that barely makes the news. Venus is slowing down it's spin and that barely makes the news, though nobody knows why it is slowing. The sun seems to be acting strange with it's magnetic poll wobbling and that barely makes the news. Six trillion dollars in fake bonds result in eight arrests by Italian police and that barely makes the news.

When World War II ended there was a lot of enthusiasm for the future. It seemed like every year we were finding new cures for disease and new ways to improve our lives, we created a massive middle class and people actually cared about their neighbors. Things were not perfect, prejudice was promoted or ignored; but, that is now a mere fragment compared to what it used to be like.

I read an article today about how Gloria Allred had won a court case allowing people to publicly trash their ex-lovers. You know, my ex may have cheated on me; but, I would never post her name or personally identifiable information, it just seems wrong to me. Hey, people that know me and her already knew and people that don't know us personally don't need to know who we are. I promise you this, my real name is not Pimpernel.

Sometimes I get this feeling that I just want to get in my car, drive down to Baja California and take a job as a busboy at some restaurant in Cabo San Lucas. Do you ever feel that way, you know, just get up and leave, try something new. Now, don't go feeling too bad for me, I am generally very content; but, being human I get down sometimes also. There is nothing horrible going on, I will eat tonight and if I feel like talking to someone I just have to call out; but, that is the thing, I don't feel like talking to anyone.

In the Netherlands a scientist has found a way to grow beef from bovine stem cells. Some people think this is great because it could drastically reduce how many cows we need to raise; but, I find it sort of disgusting and disrespectful to the cows. There is a line in the bible that says in the end times the eating of meat will be outlawed. Maybe I am just tired of the selfishness and stupidity. Genetically modified bread and circus, how very Roman of us.

I am not sure that anything matters to me at present. I have no plans for my life, I would say I am just going from day to day, trying to help others; but, not fully engaged anymore in anything. I remember a few years ago when I should have died, thinking that I had pretty much accomplished what I set out to do. Now, I sort of feel like I am just spinning my wheels and waiting. Problem is that I don't know what I am waiting for.

I would have to say that the highlight of my week was dinner with a friend, seeing a relative and giving my sermon on Sunday. I am doing a series on one of the books in the bible and I enjoying going through it again. Perhaps this is merely the calm before the storm. Perhaps, I am just lonely. Perhaps it is just a Monday off.

I wish online poker were legal, it would give me something to do. I will file my taxes soon and should get a return, maybe I can use it to take a trip; but, where and will I come back if I go far? What would happen if I just got up and left and never came back? No, somebody would track me down. I am a prisoner to alimony.

On a lighter and totally unrelated note, on March 8th there is a good chance that the FBI will shut down a number of servers that make up part of the internet. It should not take long and is needed because some servers had been infected with a computer virus. On that same day, Greece will be involved in a series of debt swaps. I wonder if the computers being down will effect the debt swaps or at least keep some people from being involved in them.

This is most certainly a rambling post, see, nothing has me engaged, just random thoughts. Most people seem to fill their lives with urges and wants for meaningless things. Perhaps that is a way to spend your time; but, I just can't go down that road. By the way, as I have been writing this, I have also been posting on a forum and it engaged my mind for the moment. Peace.