Well it took two tries; but, the rest of my stuff that is not coming with me just left for Nevada. I wonder if I will see it again. I didn't even bother looking through it, I can only take with me what I can take. If it all burns down I won't care.
Time to move on; but, it keeps getting delayed. Oh well, these things happen. Disassembling a life is more severe; but, quicker than creating one. It will soon be time for me to lock the doors and shut off the lights as I will be the last one out the door.
If you look around at the world you see too many people grasping to keep what they had of a failed system. For the past two decades everybody wanted to be the boss, everybody felt entitled to that which they did not earn. Easy money and rewards for corruption, that is going to be some hard drugs to get off of. Never had it so I don't even care. I prefer a simple apartment and honest earnings.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Quiet Evening
We had an impromptu party at my house last night. We sort of celebrated the move to Burbank. Everybody is tired. Night night.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Stil Naughty
I am spanking someone on one the boards. I synthesized things I had written here regarding the nature of existence. What odds do you give me.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Naughty Pimpernel
I am being naughty, I am writing on the boards and I actually have something to say. I usually dedicate more time to my blog than other people's forums but today I am doing the opposite.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Some Beings Just Don't Get It
The hardest thing to truly explain is the purpose of this blog. I try on occasion; but, I fail. I will try again. The next posts will be on individual concepts and or words. Lets have fun.
Today's thought is Possibilities. It is about what we are possible of. Don't pre-judge. We are capable of so much more than we do. We are amazing in our possibilities and so often we trade our morals, abilities, decency, truth, sexuality, humanity, gratitude, shame, honor and other things for trinkets, bobbles, toys. When we don't trade; but, instead push ourselves to our limits then we are a very dangerous opponent.
I am going to give links to human possibilities. Then I ask a very simple question, are you even attempting to reach possibilities. If you are; but, only because of the rewards you get half a star. If you are because you want to know who you are and what you are capable of then you get a free trip. Not too many people ever get the trip. Still, some do, that means we are capable of as much for cookies as we can with none except proving what we are capable of. We are human and we can kick some major rear.
Have you tried this.
How bout this.
Now this needs to be read all the way to the end.
We exert too little effort to do the right thing, to be what we can be. We chase cookies and risk the game. Patience is a virtue for a reason. Virtue only occurs when we accept the challenge to be more, to be what we can be. I am not talking about a lottery mentality, I am not talking about risk for reward. I am talking about risk where there is no reward except the knowledge that you have proven yourself to you.
I don't care if the game is rigged, if we give it our all then we have already won. This is true if we are not playing for a cookie; but, instead because we want to see what we are capable of. Guess what, we are capable of some crazy stuff. God made us right to be us. It says that the Devil accuses us day and night, do think he accuses us of sin because he is sinless? I don't think so. He accuses us because we don't explore our potential. I believe we have more potential than any other beings ever created, we are the stuff.
There is or is not a God. If there is a God I believe he said we will reign over angels. The bible says that Satan accuses us day and night, it also says that he was the most beautiful of angels, it also says that he is retarded (he offered Jesus the world, so he didn't know him when he met him). I have asked before what he accuses us of. He accuses us of being less than we can be. Consider Job, he said Job only loved God because he prospered and then God allowed Satan to take everything away from Job and make his life unpleasant. Job still loved God.
Now for the Christians I must give a dig. Loving God with all you heart does NOT match the commandment of Jesus. He said to love God with all you heart and you neighbor as yourself. Half will not get you there, half is a cowards death. Do you really wish to meet God and tell him that you love him with all your heart but that you did not forgive others or accept them. That is the weakest of all faiths. Failure to sin is still sin if you do not love others as you love yourself and if you love in such a way then you forgive.
Life is not about accepting results, it is about forgiving attempts that fail. Humanity is not an epic fail, it is an epic success because of all we have attempted.
Today's thought is Possibilities. It is about what we are possible of. Don't pre-judge. We are capable of so much more than we do. We are amazing in our possibilities and so often we trade our morals, abilities, decency, truth, sexuality, humanity, gratitude, shame, honor and other things for trinkets, bobbles, toys. When we don't trade; but, instead push ourselves to our limits then we are a very dangerous opponent.
I am going to give links to human possibilities. Then I ask a very simple question, are you even attempting to reach possibilities. If you are; but, only because of the rewards you get half a star. If you are because you want to know who you are and what you are capable of then you get a free trip. Not too many people ever get the trip. Still, some do, that means we are capable of as much for cookies as we can with none except proving what we are capable of. We are human and we can kick some major rear.
Have you tried this.
How bout this.
Now this needs to be read all the way to the end.
We exert too little effort to do the right thing, to be what we can be. We chase cookies and risk the game. Patience is a virtue for a reason. Virtue only occurs when we accept the challenge to be more, to be what we can be. I am not talking about a lottery mentality, I am not talking about risk for reward. I am talking about risk where there is no reward except the knowledge that you have proven yourself to you.
I don't care if the game is rigged, if we give it our all then we have already won. This is true if we are not playing for a cookie; but, instead because we want to see what we are capable of. Guess what, we are capable of some crazy stuff. God made us right to be us. It says that the Devil accuses us day and night, do think he accuses us of sin because he is sinless? I don't think so. He accuses us because we don't explore our potential. I believe we have more potential than any other beings ever created, we are the stuff.
There is or is not a God. If there is a God I believe he said we will reign over angels. The bible says that Satan accuses us day and night, it also says that he was the most beautiful of angels, it also says that he is retarded (he offered Jesus the world, so he didn't know him when he met him). I have asked before what he accuses us of. He accuses us of being less than we can be. Consider Job, he said Job only loved God because he prospered and then God allowed Satan to take everything away from Job and make his life unpleasant. Job still loved God.
Now for the Christians I must give a dig. Loving God with all you heart does NOT match the commandment of Jesus. He said to love God with all you heart and you neighbor as yourself. Half will not get you there, half is a cowards death. Do you really wish to meet God and tell him that you love him with all your heart but that you did not forgive others or accept them. That is the weakest of all faiths. Failure to sin is still sin if you do not love others as you love yourself and if you love in such a way then you forgive.
Life is not about accepting results, it is about forgiving attempts that fail. Humanity is not an epic fail, it is an epic success because of all we have attempted.
My New Apartment
One of my readers and his family have a small apartment building in Burbank, six units. I am moving into one of the one bedroom units. I went there today after work to get keys, look at the size again and determine what I would bring.
The person with the keys wasn't going to be there for a couple of hours so I walked down the street and investigated the stores and restaurants in the area. Everybody I spoke to told me how much they liked the town. Everyone I met was friendly and sort of low key, relaxed.
After getting the keys I drove home, 70 miles away. As I made the drive I actually felt light. I felt as if a weight were being removed from my body. I haven't felt that way since I was 12 and even then it was for but a moment. My life has been one of service to others and I am glad for that; but, too many just took and them came back for seconds and some of them had no gratitude. Don't get me wrong, the ones that were grateful more than made up for it. The funny thing is which ones were grateful and which weren't.
Anyways, as I drove home I felt light and I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, I could see a better life. I am going from a 2700 sq ft home to a one bedroom apartment, I have lost all my money and barely keep any that I make and I am just thrilled. I felt free and I liked that feeling.
I am not a big fan of possessions. I never cared much for money as I have seen it do more harm than good to people who chase it and those who get it. I have never seen money make someone a better person. This is not to say that I have not met good people who used money in good ways; they were already decent people when they got the money and they could handle it. They are easy to spot, they would give up all their money and not be bothered.
So far every experience I have had in Burbank has been a positive one. I forgot something funny that happened. There is a building a couple of blocks from my apartment, when I saw it today I laughed. I dated a woman about two years ago and I dropped her off at the building. I didn't know where I was when I dropped her off, it was the only time I had been there.
I think things are going to get better. I think that is called hope. I always sort of felt that life just sort of sucked. My life experience has not been very positive. I cannot say I have been a pleasure seeker. I have accomplished all I set out to and that feels good. I made more money than I ever wanted, fortunately the ex managed to spend it so I was not bothered by it.
Entering this new stage of life I am actually a little excited. I feel anticipation rather than dread, that is a change. I want to take inventory of myself. I am in good health (regardless of what the doctors think, I feel great), I still have pretty good analytical abilities (nice to know the ex knows she was wrong, everything I said came true), I have some great friends and family who love me dearly and I kept my morals, I lived my life, my way.
Few years back I thought I was going to die and I was good with that. I remember sitting and thinking that I had done what I had set out to do. Now I have a new job. Now I will set out to do something new. What a target rich environment. I sense a new purpose is on the horizon.
Perhaps I will assist the City of Burbank, I can cut their costs by millions with little effort. I know my industry very well. This could be fun, I may have a new chew toy. Hmmmmm. I actually paused for about ten minutes here, my little mind at work, nothing good ever comes of that.
Hmmmmm. I should look at their budget, calculate how much I can save them and then show them how. In case your wondering, I don't want any money from them. Got enough to get by. But, this may give me something fun to do and very civic minded. Doing what I love for the place I live in, now that would be unique. See, this move is going to do me good. THIS COULD BE FUN.
Interruptions. Be well.
The person with the keys wasn't going to be there for a couple of hours so I walked down the street and investigated the stores and restaurants in the area. Everybody I spoke to told me how much they liked the town. Everyone I met was friendly and sort of low key, relaxed.
After getting the keys I drove home, 70 miles away. As I made the drive I actually felt light. I felt as if a weight were being removed from my body. I haven't felt that way since I was 12 and even then it was for but a moment. My life has been one of service to others and I am glad for that; but, too many just took and them came back for seconds and some of them had no gratitude. Don't get me wrong, the ones that were grateful more than made up for it. The funny thing is which ones were grateful and which weren't.
Anyways, as I drove home I felt light and I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, I could see a better life. I am going from a 2700 sq ft home to a one bedroom apartment, I have lost all my money and barely keep any that I make and I am just thrilled. I felt free and I liked that feeling.
I am not a big fan of possessions. I never cared much for money as I have seen it do more harm than good to people who chase it and those who get it. I have never seen money make someone a better person. This is not to say that I have not met good people who used money in good ways; they were already decent people when they got the money and they could handle it. They are easy to spot, they would give up all their money and not be bothered.
So far every experience I have had in Burbank has been a positive one. I forgot something funny that happened. There is a building a couple of blocks from my apartment, when I saw it today I laughed. I dated a woman about two years ago and I dropped her off at the building. I didn't know where I was when I dropped her off, it was the only time I had been there.
I think things are going to get better. I think that is called hope. I always sort of felt that life just sort of sucked. My life experience has not been very positive. I cannot say I have been a pleasure seeker. I have accomplished all I set out to and that feels good. I made more money than I ever wanted, fortunately the ex managed to spend it so I was not bothered by it.
Entering this new stage of life I am actually a little excited. I feel anticipation rather than dread, that is a change. I want to take inventory of myself. I am in good health (regardless of what the doctors think, I feel great), I still have pretty good analytical abilities (nice to know the ex knows she was wrong, everything I said came true), I have some great friends and family who love me dearly and I kept my morals, I lived my life, my way.
Few years back I thought I was going to die and I was good with that. I remember sitting and thinking that I had done what I had set out to do. Now I have a new job. Now I will set out to do something new. What a target rich environment. I sense a new purpose is on the horizon.
Perhaps I will assist the City of Burbank, I can cut their costs by millions with little effort. I know my industry very well. This could be fun, I may have a new chew toy. Hmmmmm. I actually paused for about ten minutes here, my little mind at work, nothing good ever comes of that.
Hmmmmm. I should look at their budget, calculate how much I can save them and then show them how. In case your wondering, I don't want any money from them. Got enough to get by. But, this may give me something fun to do and very civic minded. Doing what I love for the place I live in, now that would be unique. See, this move is going to do me good. THIS COULD BE FUN.
Interruptions. Be well.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Strange Days
I am sitting in my room listening to the sound of most of my stuff being packed inside a moving van. My cousin definitely had my back, he has done a great job at taking care of everything including me. Me he told to just do whatever in my room so I played poker.
Anyways, my dog and I like a fairly quiet environment. I am very much not into drama. We seem to like one or two quiet people around us and gentle play. Commotion, as occurs in a move, during my down time is not enjoyable. My cousin knows this about me and has been kind enough to keep me as removed as possible from it.
My thoughts are scattered. There was something I wanted to write. Oh yeah.
Any regular reader knows that I read lots of news sources. I pick up trends, things that I see in both alternate and mainstream news. One trend that I think we have all seen is the talk about 2012 (I don't think the world is gonna end). Another trend I have seen is the increase in talk about a coming "awakening". Supposedly in the near future we will all awaken to our true nature and have a greater understanding of the spiritual. Another trend is the argument by quantum physicists that there must be parallel universes for the physical universe to exist.
I have posted enough links in the past on quantum physics. If one wishes merely search for Stephen Hawkins. Then read the wikipedia article on him. Nuff said.
I was on "Above Top Secret" and had a reason to bring up quantum physics and religion in response to another persons post. It got me thinking. The physicists are saying that alternate universes exist. Isn't that what the bible says? I mean aren't heaven and hell alternate universes? They never bother saying what these universes are like, so, can't they be heaven and hell?
Now lets play with this chew toy for a bit. What if the coming "awakening" was to the fact that there is indeed a spirit realm. Hmmm. What if people could interact with spirits in this world, what effect would that have on people. Some, like the Chinese, would be fine with it (interacting with their ancestors). Some would say that it proves the eastern mystery religions and the occult. Christians and Jews would not like it because they are told to not interact with spirits. Muslims would not like it either, their evil spirits are called Jinn (like Genie) and are malevolent.
There was a movie, it was a cable movie, I think it was based on something that H.P. Lovecraft wrote. The movie takes place in the 30s or 40s and witchcraft is real. In the story a private detective is trying to solve a crime and everybody uses witchcraft and talks to demons. It makes the case a little harder to solve. People in the movie start using the magic in order to get what they want. I think he had it right.
If you could talk to spirits and get the winning lotto numbers, would you? I think most people would. I am pretty sure that my readers know that I would not. The movie was "Cast a Deadly Spell", I had to look it up. I have provided a link to the movies trailer.
My cousin has just informed me that the packing is done for the night and that they gave him the wrong size trailer for my car. I own a 1956 Nash Metropolitan. I was working on the car as a ground up restoration when my father got sick and have not worked on it since. He is taking it to store it for me till I am ready to do whatever with it. I had the engine rebuilt and balanced, the transmission rebuilt and the body was completely redone to original (even the original paint).
Back to what we were talking about. I have to point out that I have had more interruptions than I can count, including one that stopped in the middle of this sentence. What if the last trick the Devil did was to prove that he was real? What if he told you he was the Anti-Christ. With so many people hating God how many would be good with that? And then he let you use demons to gain what you desire, I bet some people would like that.
I like to play with "Revelations" because I cannot understand most of the imagery and I don't trust other people's interpretations. Instead, I take the parts we can understand and try to look at them in different ways. Imagine, like the movie "Legion" that Satan came to town and told you that "Revelations" was correct and that God was about to kick everybody's butt that wasn't a "true Christian". What would people do who didn't believe in Christ do?
The set up is perfect. Way too many "christians" tell people that they cannot be saved unless they know the name Jesus and who he is. On top of that are the people who really don't like God because life is not easy. Hey, the bible does not say that we will not know the anti-christ when he comes. It says he will perform miracles. What if everybody knew it was of Satan? That would be a good reason for the prophesied persecution of Christians.
By the way, to know Christ is not about knowing his name. People who lived before Christ were saved and went to heaven. That is what the bible says. To know Christ is simple, it is to know what he taught and then live by it. Love God with all your heart and your neighbor as yourself. When asked he said, if you love me, you will do my will. His will was that we be in service to one another. Pretty simple stuff and we do fail often; but, we succeed too.
Please remember I am very distracted. My dog just completely flaked out, he is exhausted from barking at noises all day. He is not a bad doggie, he was abused, that is why he likes my calm way. He has a friend who just wants to relax and be nice to each other. He loves that, maybe more than he loves me; but, I don't think so. It is why he loves me and he loves me more. He went from a place of frantic and painful activity to a place of peace and quiet. He appreciates the change. He appreciates that someone cares.
That makes me think of something. The bible says that Satan is the ruler of this world, so what should we expect from this world, club Med? The "end times" are the end times for Satan's rule over this earth. That is what the bible says. People ask why God lets bad things happen, I think the answer is so that you can understand your choices. You got to know Satan before you can know God in order to make an informed decision.
Anyways, my dog and I like a fairly quiet environment. I am very much not into drama. We seem to like one or two quiet people around us and gentle play. Commotion, as occurs in a move, during my down time is not enjoyable. My cousin knows this about me and has been kind enough to keep me as removed as possible from it.
My thoughts are scattered. There was something I wanted to write. Oh yeah.
Any regular reader knows that I read lots of news sources. I pick up trends, things that I see in both alternate and mainstream news. One trend that I think we have all seen is the talk about 2012 (I don't think the world is gonna end). Another trend I have seen is the increase in talk about a coming "awakening". Supposedly in the near future we will all awaken to our true nature and have a greater understanding of the spiritual. Another trend is the argument by quantum physicists that there must be parallel universes for the physical universe to exist.
I have posted enough links in the past on quantum physics. If one wishes merely search for Stephen Hawkins. Then read the wikipedia article on him. Nuff said.
I was on "Above Top Secret" and had a reason to bring up quantum physics and religion in response to another persons post. It got me thinking. The physicists are saying that alternate universes exist. Isn't that what the bible says? I mean aren't heaven and hell alternate universes? They never bother saying what these universes are like, so, can't they be heaven and hell?
Now lets play with this chew toy for a bit. What if the coming "awakening" was to the fact that there is indeed a spirit realm. Hmmm. What if people could interact with spirits in this world, what effect would that have on people. Some, like the Chinese, would be fine with it (interacting with their ancestors). Some would say that it proves the eastern mystery religions and the occult. Christians and Jews would not like it because they are told to not interact with spirits. Muslims would not like it either, their evil spirits are called Jinn (like Genie) and are malevolent.
There was a movie, it was a cable movie, I think it was based on something that H.P. Lovecraft wrote. The movie takes place in the 30s or 40s and witchcraft is real. In the story a private detective is trying to solve a crime and everybody uses witchcraft and talks to demons. It makes the case a little harder to solve. People in the movie start using the magic in order to get what they want. I think he had it right.
If you could talk to spirits and get the winning lotto numbers, would you? I think most people would. I am pretty sure that my readers know that I would not. The movie was "Cast a Deadly Spell", I had to look it up. I have provided a link to the movies trailer.
My cousin has just informed me that the packing is done for the night and that they gave him the wrong size trailer for my car. I own a 1956 Nash Metropolitan. I was working on the car as a ground up restoration when my father got sick and have not worked on it since. He is taking it to store it for me till I am ready to do whatever with it. I had the engine rebuilt and balanced, the transmission rebuilt and the body was completely redone to original (even the original paint).
Back to what we were talking about. I have to point out that I have had more interruptions than I can count, including one that stopped in the middle of this sentence. What if the last trick the Devil did was to prove that he was real? What if he told you he was the Anti-Christ. With so many people hating God how many would be good with that? And then he let you use demons to gain what you desire, I bet some people would like that.
I like to play with "Revelations" because I cannot understand most of the imagery and I don't trust other people's interpretations. Instead, I take the parts we can understand and try to look at them in different ways. Imagine, like the movie "Legion" that Satan came to town and told you that "Revelations" was correct and that God was about to kick everybody's butt that wasn't a "true Christian". What would people do who didn't believe in Christ do?
The set up is perfect. Way too many "christians" tell people that they cannot be saved unless they know the name Jesus and who he is. On top of that are the people who really don't like God because life is not easy. Hey, the bible does not say that we will not know the anti-christ when he comes. It says he will perform miracles. What if everybody knew it was of Satan? That would be a good reason for the prophesied persecution of Christians.
By the way, to know Christ is not about knowing his name. People who lived before Christ were saved and went to heaven. That is what the bible says. To know Christ is simple, it is to know what he taught and then live by it. Love God with all your heart and your neighbor as yourself. When asked he said, if you love me, you will do my will. His will was that we be in service to one another. Pretty simple stuff and we do fail often; but, we succeed too.
Please remember I am very distracted. My dog just completely flaked out, he is exhausted from barking at noises all day. He is not a bad doggie, he was abused, that is why he likes my calm way. He has a friend who just wants to relax and be nice to each other. He loves that, maybe more than he loves me; but, I don't think so. It is why he loves me and he loves me more. He went from a place of frantic and painful activity to a place of peace and quiet. He appreciates the change. He appreciates that someone cares.
That makes me think of something. The bible says that Satan is the ruler of this world, so what should we expect from this world, club Med? The "end times" are the end times for Satan's rule over this earth. That is what the bible says. People ask why God lets bad things happen, I think the answer is so that you can understand your choices. You got to know Satan before you can know God in order to make an informed decision.
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