Single Again

I got a call from my attorney. She is great. She told me the paperwork was finalized and accepted by the court, I am officially single. Look out ladies. LOL. Apparently, it was finalized on April 15th.

It has taken three years. It has been a long, annoying experience and it is done. All she gets now is money.

I have dated a bit; but, did not get serious because I was not divorced officially. I enjoyed dating, being out to dinner with wonderful ladies. I enjoyed knowing that there were so many wonderful women out there. I think my heart had to have hope again. It does.

There are people who after having their spouse cheat on them never trust the opposite sex again. I chose not to go down that road. I choose to trust and to love again and now I am free to. I left my marriage with clean hands. I had even offerred to reconcile because I believe in marriage.

Tonight I am going to open a bottle of champagne. Not to celebrate divorce, I grived my divorce for three years. I am celebrating a new beginning. For the first time in 27 years I am no longer in a relationship. I am single. I am at peace.

I do not feel a need to get in a new relationship. I do not feel pressured to be with someone. I look forward to being with that special someone, it will happen when it happens. I am neither avoiding it nor pushing it.

My house is being sold, my aunt is dying, I am divorced. Lots of endings. With these endings comes a new adventure. I do not know where it will take me. All my life I knew what I wanted to do and have done it. Now, I have no plans. I don't need any. What a strange feeling it is.

I wish to thank my family and friends for having helped through my trials. I don't know what I would have done without all the love and support I have been given. I thank my friends in Oregon and Washington for giving me hope that I could be social.

I think this is a time for rest for me. A time for putting things away. I have forgiven the ex and even her "friend". I have forgiven them in my heart. A time for putting things away. What is behind me, is behind me. What is in front of me is yet to be determined.

I am ready to begin a new chapter. I enter it with clean hands. Not everyone can do that. I never cheated on my wife, I never abused her and gave all I had. I have no regrets for anything. Did the best I could, the outcomes are what they are. All we can do is our best.