She was right

A friend of mine had read this blog and noted that it appeared my libido was kicking in and then I had a dream where I rejected such a thing. She was right, it is kicking in again and I don't want it to.

Four of us went to a bar/restaurant today to chat. The very attractive bartender that had appeared to flirt with me, yeah, she came all the way over from the other side and gave me a big smile, wave and chatted me up. It was apparent to all that she liked me. Ouch, she is very, very pretty and not too young, about 40; but, could pass for much younger.

I think since I moved and don't have the nightmarish commute, I have let my guard down, I have allowed myself to re-engage and move on. Four years is a long time and some intimate female companionship would certainly be appreciated; but, I am not ready. It would be insincere on my part and I would feel horrible afterwards, http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gifI would feel I had used another and I just can't do that.

I would not respect myself if I acted like Swarzenegger, that is not me nor is it who I wish to be. That doesn't mean I don't have the same urges or drives, I do and they haven't been met in quite awhile. They will continue to not be met till I am ready and with a person who will be my partner for life.

Today there was an article about a new reality show, it is going to be called "Bedroom Community" and is about swingers. Couples that have sex with other couples or with random people in groups. I know someone who is involved in such activities; but, he is single.

I don't watch television so it doesn't impact me directly, I do however find it disgusting and another reason why our culture is dying. I am not talking about the activity, I am talking about putting it on television as acceptable, promoting it to young adults. People's sex life is none of my business and I am not the morality police, I do however think we are teaching children that we don't have to manage our urges.

It would be nice if we taught children that they can grow up into adults and manage their emotions and urges. That would be a good thing and we can. Dear friendly readers, there is something I hope, I hope when I find that special lady that she appreciates that I have waited for her and only her. I met some very amazing women any of which a man would be very happy and proud to be with. Never had a bad date, never dated a woman that didn't deserve my respect. They were all fantastic. The lady that gets me, she is going to have to be even more amazing, she is going to have to be my soul mate, my partner in crime and ready to go wherever the world takes US, we will be in sinc for our priorities. Be well.