The world has gone horribly wrong and there are no protest songs. Where are the Neil Youngs, the Arlo Guthries, the Sex Pistols? We have Lady Gaga and boy bands singing banal, meaningless drivel. Where are the protests in the songs, where is the concern that the youth are about to be given a life of debt and less?
My guess is that they are playing in clubs and small venues and building their base. Whether you believe things are bad or do not, you should still know that many people are unhappy and many of the young ones are unhappy. How come we cannot hear their voices? If they can sleep out at Occupy events then certainly they are writing protest songs, why don't we hear them? It is because the media does not play them, they play Lady Gaga (who I actually believes has a good voice).
Look at the media you are presented with and understand that it is not reality, it is a show. Politics and media are shows that are put on to lead and entertain. The entertainment is meant to reinforce your biases and bigotry. What you are being shown is that it is all staged. That is what reality tv teaches you and you come to believe that everyone is a liar so that you will not hear the truth.
Do not give up, do not give up on looking for the truth. I am not going to say it is easy making sense of this world, I do what I can to explain things to others, do the same. We all know things are not right, the question is what is right. What should we be thinking about and doing?
Monday, April 9, 2012
What is Normal? Not these days.
When you read the news, watch television or go to the movies, when you are exposed to the mass media, it seems that the world has gone insane. I know many people have just shut down and stop paying attention, it seems that it is too much for them to take in and process. Obviously this is not true for my dear readers.
I think the biggest problem is that we have lost our moral compass. People are fearful of what they do not understand and who can understand anything going on in the world anymore. Over the weekend I attended an event at a University at night. While there I had to help someone up because they had passed out in the street. I saw a number of people openly groping each other in public and one of the people who was there with me had a young lady call down from a balcony and ask him if he wanted to have sex. We did not know any of these people.
Throughout the evening we heard screaming, carrying on, ambulances and general craziness. It was a world with no boundaries, privacy or restraint. This is not the old guy talking about the kids these days. It was the kids these days that first got me looking at globalization. It was the kids who are going to run this world that I was seeing, the ones who can afford to go to an expensive University. I also went to college and saw parties, what was different was that I was told it was this way every week.
In the past, people from the lower classes were wild and the people from the upper classes had to maintain more dignity. That isn't true anymore. The guy that passed out, he was with two women. One of the women was semi-comatose and the other seemed okay. I asked her if he was going to be okay and she said, "oh they are like this all the time, I have seen them much worse". Worse than passed out so bad that even shaking and talking will not wake him?
Rome fell for a reason, nobody cared and everyone just wanted to enjoy themselves. They had convinced themselves that the purpose of life was joy. When the barbarians came, there was nobody willing to fight back. The old saying is that Rome fell from within before it was taken from without (or something very much like that). The United States and the west are collapsing from within.
I saw my mother in law over the weekend. I did not see my ex-wife. My mother in law had always been a staunch Republican. She told me she had become a Tea Party member and had even lost a friend because of it. She said it didn't seem to matter who we voted for because nothing changed and that is not how it used to be. I was proud of her for seeing it. She even mentioned how the government spies on us (a relative of hers that really does know had told her how it was done).
Where are we going? When will people work together again? The bible talks about Israel. At certain times in it's history the people turned from the Lord and did what was right in their own eyes with no concern over how others looked on it. Those were the times when Israel was taken into captivity by other nations. The west is the same today. Today people don't just do what they want, they post it on Facebook and are happy to let you know even when they are committing a crime.
We had the big party with the housing bubble and then it burst and we have the hangover as we have to pay for the party, as the economies all go sour. Kodak has declared bankruptcy and is about to give out over $8 million in bonuses. Huh? Not long ago Arnold Schwarzenegger pardoned a convicted murderer because it was the son of a political friend and Schwarzenegger said that is what you do for friends. There is no shame and nothing that moves us other than personal reward, happiness if you will.
I will say something good about my ex-wife. When her sister left her husband for another man, she tried to tell her it was a bad idea. I have heard that she has had second thoughts about her own actions with regards to me. We all make mistakes and that is just life, the question is whether or not we learn from them or glory in them. The people that are supposed to be our leaders no longer care nor worry about their mistakes, nothing has changed even after the bubbles have burst and the economies have failed. Those who can benefit from the failures are happy to, nobody does good.
When my mother in law told me that she was a member of the Tea Party, I told her that the Tea Party and the Occupy movement should join up with the areas that they do agree on. She looked puzzled for a second and asked me about them. I told her of my experience in Los Angeles with them. Congress has the lowest level of trust in the history of the country; but, we cannot agree on who to put in office to replace them. The left and right dislike their own parties and have tried to start new movements; but, they have not reconciled on what they do agree on.
Just some thoughts from a crazy old man.
I think the biggest problem is that we have lost our moral compass. People are fearful of what they do not understand and who can understand anything going on in the world anymore. Over the weekend I attended an event at a University at night. While there I had to help someone up because they had passed out in the street. I saw a number of people openly groping each other in public and one of the people who was there with me had a young lady call down from a balcony and ask him if he wanted to have sex. We did not know any of these people.
Throughout the evening we heard screaming, carrying on, ambulances and general craziness. It was a world with no boundaries, privacy or restraint. This is not the old guy talking about the kids these days. It was the kids these days that first got me looking at globalization. It was the kids who are going to run this world that I was seeing, the ones who can afford to go to an expensive University. I also went to college and saw parties, what was different was that I was told it was this way every week.
In the past, people from the lower classes were wild and the people from the upper classes had to maintain more dignity. That isn't true anymore. The guy that passed out, he was with two women. One of the women was semi-comatose and the other seemed okay. I asked her if he was going to be okay and she said, "oh they are like this all the time, I have seen them much worse". Worse than passed out so bad that even shaking and talking will not wake him?
Rome fell for a reason, nobody cared and everyone just wanted to enjoy themselves. They had convinced themselves that the purpose of life was joy. When the barbarians came, there was nobody willing to fight back. The old saying is that Rome fell from within before it was taken from without (or something very much like that). The United States and the west are collapsing from within.
I saw my mother in law over the weekend. I did not see my ex-wife. My mother in law had always been a staunch Republican. She told me she had become a Tea Party member and had even lost a friend because of it. She said it didn't seem to matter who we voted for because nothing changed and that is not how it used to be. I was proud of her for seeing it. She even mentioned how the government spies on us (a relative of hers that really does know had told her how it was done).
Where are we going? When will people work together again? The bible talks about Israel. At certain times in it's history the people turned from the Lord and did what was right in their own eyes with no concern over how others looked on it. Those were the times when Israel was taken into captivity by other nations. The west is the same today. Today people don't just do what they want, they post it on Facebook and are happy to let you know even when they are committing a crime.
We had the big party with the housing bubble and then it burst and we have the hangover as we have to pay for the party, as the economies all go sour. Kodak has declared bankruptcy and is about to give out over $8 million in bonuses. Huh? Not long ago Arnold Schwarzenegger pardoned a convicted murderer because it was the son of a political friend and Schwarzenegger said that is what you do for friends. There is no shame and nothing that moves us other than personal reward, happiness if you will.
I will say something good about my ex-wife. When her sister left her husband for another man, she tried to tell her it was a bad idea. I have heard that she has had second thoughts about her own actions with regards to me. We all make mistakes and that is just life, the question is whether or not we learn from them or glory in them. The people that are supposed to be our leaders no longer care nor worry about their mistakes, nothing has changed even after the bubbles have burst and the economies have failed. Those who can benefit from the failures are happy to, nobody does good.
When my mother in law told me that she was a member of the Tea Party, I told her that the Tea Party and the Occupy movement should join up with the areas that they do agree on. She looked puzzled for a second and asked me about them. I told her of my experience in Los Angeles with them. Congress has the lowest level of trust in the history of the country; but, we cannot agree on who to put in office to replace them. The left and right dislike their own parties and have tried to start new movements; but, they have not reconciled on what they do agree on.
Just some thoughts from a crazy old man.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Digital Money Again
I had previously posted on how Sweden wanted to go all electronic for their currency. Well, the Canadians do also.
itbusiness.ca - Royal Canadian Mint reveals MintChip, issues $50,000 developer challenge
When I talk about the end of paper currency, older people usually think I am nuts and younger people think it is a great idea. Not only are we going to see an end to cash, we are going to see an end to checks. Here is a nice article from England.
The Telegraph - Is a cashless society on the cards?
About a quarter of a way down the article there is a link to another article discussing how by 2018. Let me make it clear in the future you will not have cash or checks and you will do all your transactions electronically where they can be used against you and be used to profile you. Your digital fingerprint will be a history of every purchase and transaction you ever make.
Currently people who would be called "globalists" want to institute personal carbon taxes. CICERO (The Center for International Climate and Environmental Research) has published this article - Personal carbon “credit cards” – coming soon to your wallet?
So what are we looking at in the future. Electronic currency, personal carbon taxes, a tax on all international transactions going to the United Nations to fight global warming. Read the links and tell me that I am making this all up. Look at what people believe and then ask how much influence they have over the decisions. I have none or at least practically none. I wrote two posts in one day. Enjoy.
itbusiness.ca - Royal Canadian Mint reveals MintChip, issues $50,000 developer challenge
When I talk about the end of paper currency, older people usually think I am nuts and younger people think it is a great idea. Not only are we going to see an end to cash, we are going to see an end to checks. Here is a nice article from England.
The Telegraph - Is a cashless society on the cards?
About a quarter of a way down the article there is a link to another article discussing how by 2018. Let me make it clear in the future you will not have cash or checks and you will do all your transactions electronically where they can be used against you and be used to profile you. Your digital fingerprint will be a history of every purchase and transaction you ever make.
Currently people who would be called "globalists" want to institute personal carbon taxes. CICERO (The Center for International Climate and Environmental Research) has published this article - Personal carbon “credit cards” – coming soon to your wallet?
So what are we looking at in the future. Electronic currency, personal carbon taxes, a tax on all international transactions going to the United Nations to fight global warming. Read the links and tell me that I am making this all up. Look at what people believe and then ask how much influence they have over the decisions. I have none or at least practically none. I wrote two posts in one day. Enjoy.
Google Glasses and the End of Anonymity
Firstly, I apologize for the delay in new posts. I have been moody and had some things on my mind.
Now I want to discuss the new Google glasses. Have you heard about these? You put them on and have a little display that is basically your personal assistant and access to the internet. Oh it also works as a phone and video recorder. Here is an article about them which includes a video showing how they will work. If nothing else, watch the video.
Wired - Google Gets Transparent With Glass, Its Augmented Reality Project
So, what did you think of the glasses. The first thing that I want to point out was that the glasses mapped out where the music section was in the store. How did it know? Google maps of the inside of buildings? Interesting isn't it? The next thing you may have noticed is that the wearer asked if his friend had arrived at the store yet and because his friend has his phones gps on, he knew he was only a couple hundred feet away. Now lets look at something else and you will begin to understand what the glasses can really do.
PC World - Why Facebook's Facial Recognition is Creepy
Facebook has implemented facial recognition technology that allows it to surf the web and identify pictures of you from anywhere. Lets consider what might happen if we combined the two technologies. Walking down the street, you see a pretty girl and have you glasses find pictures of her on the internet and attempt to identify her or see if you have any common friends in your social network. She notices you also and does the same except she discovers that you are a registered sex offender. Yep, when you were in high school at 18, you slept with your girlfriend of 17 and the parents had you prosecuted. It would just say that your a sex offender 20 years later. How do I know, because I met someone who was in that situation. Perhaps your still good with all of this; but, lets continue down this path.
She blows you off and you continue walking. You next see an old friend and have the glasses scan the internet for more current information on him. While you are doing that, the search engine reports and records you photo of him and someone who has been waiting to serve him legal papers gets a notification of where he is because you saw him. Is this getting scary yet? Lets consider this even deeper, you see someone, the image is sent back to the internet, it matches someone who the police are interested in and they get live streaming video of what you are seeing and what the person is doing. You have become an informant and didn't even know it.
We are looking at a coming world where everyone is self reporting and reporting on everyone else. When you post someone's picture on the internet without their approval, you are violating their privacy. You are also giving away their personal information because you are giving away their biometric identity. When you use the glasses you are making a recording of everything you have done during the day. Try and think about these things as new technologies emerge.
Now I want to discuss the new Google glasses. Have you heard about these? You put them on and have a little display that is basically your personal assistant and access to the internet. Oh it also works as a phone and video recorder. Here is an article about them which includes a video showing how they will work. If nothing else, watch the video.
Wired - Google Gets Transparent With Glass, Its Augmented Reality Project
So, what did you think of the glasses. The first thing that I want to point out was that the glasses mapped out where the music section was in the store. How did it know? Google maps of the inside of buildings? Interesting isn't it? The next thing you may have noticed is that the wearer asked if his friend had arrived at the store yet and because his friend has his phones gps on, he knew he was only a couple hundred feet away. Now lets look at something else and you will begin to understand what the glasses can really do.
PC World - Why Facebook's Facial Recognition is Creepy
Facebook has implemented facial recognition technology that allows it to surf the web and identify pictures of you from anywhere. Lets consider what might happen if we combined the two technologies. Walking down the street, you see a pretty girl and have you glasses find pictures of her on the internet and attempt to identify her or see if you have any common friends in your social network. She notices you also and does the same except she discovers that you are a registered sex offender. Yep, when you were in high school at 18, you slept with your girlfriend of 17 and the parents had you prosecuted. It would just say that your a sex offender 20 years later. How do I know, because I met someone who was in that situation. Perhaps your still good with all of this; but, lets continue down this path.
She blows you off and you continue walking. You next see an old friend and have the glasses scan the internet for more current information on him. While you are doing that, the search engine reports and records you photo of him and someone who has been waiting to serve him legal papers gets a notification of where he is because you saw him. Is this getting scary yet? Lets consider this even deeper, you see someone, the image is sent back to the internet, it matches someone who the police are interested in and they get live streaming video of what you are seeing and what the person is doing. You have become an informant and didn't even know it.
We are looking at a coming world where everyone is self reporting and reporting on everyone else. When you post someone's picture on the internet without their approval, you are violating their privacy. You are also giving away their personal information because you are giving away their biometric identity. When you use the glasses you are making a recording of everything you have done during the day. Try and think about these things as new technologies emerge.
Monday, April 2, 2012
Nigel Farage and Inconsitancies
There is a politician in the United Kingdom named Nigel Farage, I posted a link to one of his speeches before. Mr. Farage is one of the very few politicians in the European Union that actively disagrees with it's very existence. I generally enjoy his speeches where he promotes democracy; but, I found he is inconsistent.
YouTube - UKIP Nigel Farage - A message to the Australian Monarchist League, April 2011
Mr. Farage is sort of the English version of Ron Paul. The lone person calling out the banking fraud, counter-productive bailouts and the loss of democracy. Yet, he is a isolationist and believes in austerity measures that are unsustainable. We are provided with no politician who is willing to consider all sides, all or nothing thinking, not moral thinking, cost benefit all or nothing thinking.
Most people who come to this site will not watch the video; but, if you watched the link I posted to another of his speeches then you will see that he still believes having a queen is better than politicians. He is in fact a Monarchist. He worships the queen of England and that is not very democratic.
In the case of Mr. Farage and Mr. Paul, in both cases we only ever hear what we want. They both claim to be for freedom and democracy. Mr. Paul supports the legalization of drugs. I do not consider that a radical idea; however, most Republicans do and he is a Republican. Mr. Paul is also against abortion which is popular with Republicans but loses him Democratic and Independent voters.
Mr. Paul and Mr. Farage are the only ones speaking out for freedom; but, each has things for everyone to hate that they take passionately. If 90% of the people agree with you on one issue and disagree with you on half of your other issues, you never win the big one. The question is, why would you vote for anyone who had voted for the Patriot act? Why would you vote for anyone who voted for the Healthcare bill, the TARP and Stimulus bills? I want you to remember that all of these bill were passed with massive support from both parties.
YouTube - UKIP Nigel Farage - A message to the Australian Monarchist League, April 2011
Mr. Farage is sort of the English version of Ron Paul. The lone person calling out the banking fraud, counter-productive bailouts and the loss of democracy. Yet, he is a isolationist and believes in austerity measures that are unsustainable. We are provided with no politician who is willing to consider all sides, all or nothing thinking, not moral thinking, cost benefit all or nothing thinking.
Most people who come to this site will not watch the video; but, if you watched the link I posted to another of his speeches then you will see that he still believes having a queen is better than politicians. He is in fact a Monarchist. He worships the queen of England and that is not very democratic.
In the case of Mr. Farage and Mr. Paul, in both cases we only ever hear what we want. They both claim to be for freedom and democracy. Mr. Paul supports the legalization of drugs. I do not consider that a radical idea; however, most Republicans do and he is a Republican. Mr. Paul is also against abortion which is popular with Republicans but loses him Democratic and Independent voters.
Mr. Paul and Mr. Farage are the only ones speaking out for freedom; but, each has things for everyone to hate that they take passionately. If 90% of the people agree with you on one issue and disagree with you on half of your other issues, you never win the big one. The question is, why would you vote for anyone who had voted for the Patriot act? Why would you vote for anyone who voted for the Healthcare bill, the TARP and Stimulus bills? I want you to remember that all of these bill were passed with massive support from both parties.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Insomnia
I don't know why but I literally did not sleep at all last night, I just lay in bed until it was time to go to work. I went to work and came home in a sort of fog. My plan for the night is to eat and go to bed early. I tried reading the news and found little of interest. The news had a lot of chatter about a shooting in Florida and the Health Care Bill going before the Supreme Court.
Not being really all here I thought I might provide some links to some people who are far from mainstream, yet, have very large followings. It is important to know what the alternative news is even if we disagree, it is an indication of how little faith people have in the traditional news. I do wish to make it clear that by including these links, I am in no way supporting these people's beliefs.
YouTube - 2012 Event Horizon - David Wilcock. Mr. Wilcock has indicated that he is a reincarnated Edger Casey, he also claims to channel other beings. Mr. Wilcock also believes that in 2012 we will experience a spiritual awakening. He also says that there will not be a second coming of Christ, that we are Christ. This man is no Christian.
YouTube - David Icke - The Global Spiritual Awakening. Now you may know about David Icke, he believes that the people running this world are inhabited by alien spirits. Having said that, he has also presented some good information on how the monetary funds are manipulated. Just like Mr. Wilcock, Mr. Icke believes we are godlike and will have a spiritual awakening.
YouTube - Benjamin Fulford - February 20, 2012. Mr. Fulford believes that the west is run by the Vatican and Zionists. He also is a transhumanist. What is interesting is that Mr. Fulford is the great grandson of a famous Canadian politician and was the asian Bureau chief for Forbes magazine.
So why do I bring these people up, well, I see a lot of chatter out there that takes these people very seriously. All of these people have been publicized and promoted by others in who believe that the powers that be have a massive conspiracy. I want to dig a little into what else they tend to believe.
What I want to try and do is attempt to give them some context. The world has always been run by an oligarchy, that is the only iron rule of politics. We used to call them kings and queens, now we call them bankers and businessmen. The quality of how they rule the world depends on the people and times. As times change, the people who have the most to lose tend to get nervous and that is what we are seeing now.
There are many, especially younger people, who have come to believe that religion was a trick created by kings and is the cause of all the worlds evils and is a tool for controlling people. They either become atheists or take on a new age type religion where none mean anything and all have validity.
For about the past six years I have been focusing on alternative media. I have posted on alternative sites under a different user name and have had a chance to engage in discussions on all of these matters. You would be surprised by how strongly people believe these things. The situation is not helped by the fact that many people in power believe in the occult; but, many working and middle class people believe in the occult.
The most common trends I have seen is a hatred of bankers, a hatred of Israel, a hatred of Christianity and a belief that either aliens are going to be disclosed, there is going to be a massive spiritual awakening or the world is going to end. Subsets of these are the belief that those who run the world want to kill off billions of us and make us totally controlled slaves. As bad as those things would be, the one that bothers me is not alternative, it is the belief in Transhumanism.
Transhumanism, as I have previously discussed, is the belief that we can medically or technologically change humans to be more advanced. The problem is, there is a lot of people who are in favor of this. I believe Mr. Fulford has been supportive of Transhumanism; I know both Bill Gates and Stephen Hawking are in favor of it.
I want to backtrack a little bit. Are there people who wish to see population reduction, well yeah, Planned Parenthood and others promote it. But that doesn't mean they want to kill people. Does the government want more control over the citizens, well yeah, there is nothing new about that. Government by definition thinks it's job is to regulate others and to a degree it is; but, as little as is necessary is what we should all aim for.
What I think concerns me the most about what I read is that it seems to be increasing in popularity as our world's corruption frantically attempts to steal the last dollar before a new system is put in place. How do we ever work together again when nobody seems to trust anyone else? 20 years ago Mr. Icke could not fill a small room, he recently gave a speech at Wembley Stadium in England.
As much as I regret it, there is not going to be a return to Christian values in this country. Whatever changes come will come from a group of very upset and confused people. What becomes our new national values, what can we agree on and how do we get there? It is one thing to upset the world, it is another to come to agreement and no amount of monitoring can prevent change. Less than 20% of the nation believes we are headed in the right direction or that things are getting better and less than that have faith in congress, these are not good signs in a democracy.
I have to say something else, the three people I supplied links to have had literally millions and millions of hits on YouTube. Last year more guns were sold in the United States than ever before and one arms manufacturer has stopped taking orders because he cannot fill the ones he has. Maybe what we need to do is step back and see what basic moral principals we believe in because the self-centered cost benefit analysis hasn't done it. Maybe we need to take baby steps and make honesty, integrity and concern for others our most basic principals. Maybe along with that we agree that people should not be regulated anymore than is necessary for the society to advance. Just some thoughts from someone who hasn't slept in a day and is about to try and do so now. Peace.
Not being really all here I thought I might provide some links to some people who are far from mainstream, yet, have very large followings. It is important to know what the alternative news is even if we disagree, it is an indication of how little faith people have in the traditional news. I do wish to make it clear that by including these links, I am in no way supporting these people's beliefs.
YouTube - 2012 Event Horizon - David Wilcock. Mr. Wilcock has indicated that he is a reincarnated Edger Casey, he also claims to channel other beings. Mr. Wilcock also believes that in 2012 we will experience a spiritual awakening. He also says that there will not be a second coming of Christ, that we are Christ. This man is no Christian.
YouTube - David Icke - The Global Spiritual Awakening. Now you may know about David Icke, he believes that the people running this world are inhabited by alien spirits. Having said that, he has also presented some good information on how the monetary funds are manipulated. Just like Mr. Wilcock, Mr. Icke believes we are godlike and will have a spiritual awakening.
YouTube - Benjamin Fulford - February 20, 2012. Mr. Fulford believes that the west is run by the Vatican and Zionists. He also is a transhumanist. What is interesting is that Mr. Fulford is the great grandson of a famous Canadian politician and was the asian Bureau chief for Forbes magazine.
So why do I bring these people up, well, I see a lot of chatter out there that takes these people very seriously. All of these people have been publicized and promoted by others in who believe that the powers that be have a massive conspiracy. I want to dig a little into what else they tend to believe.
What I want to try and do is attempt to give them some context. The world has always been run by an oligarchy, that is the only iron rule of politics. We used to call them kings and queens, now we call them bankers and businessmen. The quality of how they rule the world depends on the people and times. As times change, the people who have the most to lose tend to get nervous and that is what we are seeing now.
There are many, especially younger people, who have come to believe that religion was a trick created by kings and is the cause of all the worlds evils and is a tool for controlling people. They either become atheists or take on a new age type religion where none mean anything and all have validity.
For about the past six years I have been focusing on alternative media. I have posted on alternative sites under a different user name and have had a chance to engage in discussions on all of these matters. You would be surprised by how strongly people believe these things. The situation is not helped by the fact that many people in power believe in the occult; but, many working and middle class people believe in the occult.
The most common trends I have seen is a hatred of bankers, a hatred of Israel, a hatred of Christianity and a belief that either aliens are going to be disclosed, there is going to be a massive spiritual awakening or the world is going to end. Subsets of these are the belief that those who run the world want to kill off billions of us and make us totally controlled slaves. As bad as those things would be, the one that bothers me is not alternative, it is the belief in Transhumanism.
Transhumanism, as I have previously discussed, is the belief that we can medically or technologically change humans to be more advanced. The problem is, there is a lot of people who are in favor of this. I believe Mr. Fulford has been supportive of Transhumanism; I know both Bill Gates and Stephen Hawking are in favor of it.
I want to backtrack a little bit. Are there people who wish to see population reduction, well yeah, Planned Parenthood and others promote it. But that doesn't mean they want to kill people. Does the government want more control over the citizens, well yeah, there is nothing new about that. Government by definition thinks it's job is to regulate others and to a degree it is; but, as little as is necessary is what we should all aim for.
What I think concerns me the most about what I read is that it seems to be increasing in popularity as our world's corruption frantically attempts to steal the last dollar before a new system is put in place. How do we ever work together again when nobody seems to trust anyone else? 20 years ago Mr. Icke could not fill a small room, he recently gave a speech at Wembley Stadium in England.
As much as I regret it, there is not going to be a return to Christian values in this country. Whatever changes come will come from a group of very upset and confused people. What becomes our new national values, what can we agree on and how do we get there? It is one thing to upset the world, it is another to come to agreement and no amount of monitoring can prevent change. Less than 20% of the nation believes we are headed in the right direction or that things are getting better and less than that have faith in congress, these are not good signs in a democracy.
I have to say something else, the three people I supplied links to have had literally millions and millions of hits on YouTube. Last year more guns were sold in the United States than ever before and one arms manufacturer has stopped taking orders because he cannot fill the ones he has. Maybe what we need to do is step back and see what basic moral principals we believe in because the self-centered cost benefit analysis hasn't done it. Maybe we need to take baby steps and make honesty, integrity and concern for others our most basic principals. Maybe along with that we agree that people should not be regulated anymore than is necessary for the society to advance. Just some thoughts from someone who hasn't slept in a day and is about to try and do so now. Peace.
Monday, March 26, 2012
When is a Divorce Final? Never
I spent the weekend with one of my kids (grown adults). As I was going through my divorce they didn't really say much about it. They certainly didn't want to talk about the other man and I understand that. I couldn't see how the divorce effected my kids because there wasn't really a way for them to discuss it with me. I told my kid that it was okay to tell my ex-wife that I don't hate her, I am not even angry anymore, I have had almost five years to put it behind me. Still, it doesn't end for the kids, we are no longer mom and dad together, we are now mom and dad apart, a broken family and there is nothing I can do to put the pieces together again anymore than I could prevent what did happen, you cannot control others.
As time passes I meet a new life alone and that is okay for me. I am still discovering Pimpernel. The truth is I am more concerned about my kids than about my ex or I. In my heart I believe my ex regrets how things went down and I wish her luck in her new life. Heck, when she had some legal problem I even helped her and that was when I was really angry with her. She is still their mother and I would help her again.
A divorce is never final, that is something my ex should have known and didn't. Her parents had divorced and their family never got over it. You don't get over divorce, you cope with the consequences and try and salvage what you can. After a divorce, my experience is that you have to find your new "normal". I still haven't found mine. Well, I haven't decided what I want to be when I grow up, lets put it that way.
I have done some amazing things in my life; but, like everyone else, I too am far from perfect. Problem is, sometimes our kids don't see us that way. Once a family has been ripped apart, it takes time to heal the pieces because everyone is harmed. Healing starts with recognition of the pain and then forgiveness, after that everyone in a family finds their new normal and their new way of dealing with and appreciating each other because y0u never stop being family.
Before I dated I asked my children's opinion, I did that for a reason. I didn't ask their opinion when I stopped dating. If I choose to date again, anyone I date will be required to meet my children. You never stop being family. My ex did something that I didn't understand at the time. She was still living in the house and openly seeing the other man, at Christmas she bought a book for one of my kids, it was about a man who attempted to live the bible laws exactly for one year. When my kid opened the present my ex said what the book was about and how the man had met an adulterer and through pebbles at her. We all cringed when she said it; but, I think I get it now. She was trying to say that nobody is perfect and we all sin. In a way, she was admitting what she did and asking for forgiveness.
When I lost the last of my elders, my ex wanted to attend the funeral and was not allowed to. I had been told that she would not be allowed to attend, I was told that if I asked she might be allowed but that there was no guarantee. My position was that if she asked to attend then I would ask that she be allowed to, she never asked. My kids didn't know the whole story; but, they knew she wasn't allowed to attend and assumed it was at my request, it was not. I look back now and see why they were so upset, they saw it as not healing; but, more separation. The problem again is that a divorce effects everyone, even relatives and friends.
I feel bad that my attempt at having a family did not turn out the way I would have wished, I feel bad that I am not perfect and neither was my wife. Heck, my kids were not perfect either. I participated in a family for 25 years and couldn't control the outcome. Life doesn't work that way. I couldn't think about healing the family when I was a mess, when I was still torn. I had to heal me and that took some time, you cannot have your heart ripped out and just get up and get over it. Someone said that for each five years together, it takes a year to heal. It has been just about five years and I am healed, they never said how long it took for everyone else to heal and I don't think kids ever do.
If I ever get the chance (and she would tell the truth) I would talk to my ex and ask her to tell me what went through her mind and if she considered how her actions would effect everyone else. I think I know what she would say, heck, she was cheating on me. She probably did think that divorce was best even for me. Seeing as how she was cheating on me, she may have been right about what was best for me.
If I could have my house back and could reconcile with my ex, I still couldn't put the family back together. It has nothing to do with the adultery per se, it has everything to do with trust. I could never trust my ex-wife again. If I tried to reconcile my attorney and accountant and friends and family would all try to stop me. So, what is best for my family, that is what I have left.
Pray for my success, pray for my family to heal more. I love my children and my ex-wife loves our children. Pray that as time moves on we all come to grips with what has happened and remember that the most important relationship is the one we hold with each other, even when we do each other wrong.
I wonder sometimes, if I found someone that loved me more than my ex-wife did, if I found someone that made me happier than my ex-wife did, would that make it even harder on my children? You know, what would it be like to know that your father was happier with someone other than your mother? How would it feel if it only took a year or two? I am guessing not that great.
YouTube - Eagles - The Heart of the Matter
Hope you all have a nice week. Peace.
As time passes I meet a new life alone and that is okay for me. I am still discovering Pimpernel. The truth is I am more concerned about my kids than about my ex or I. In my heart I believe my ex regrets how things went down and I wish her luck in her new life. Heck, when she had some legal problem I even helped her and that was when I was really angry with her. She is still their mother and I would help her again.
A divorce is never final, that is something my ex should have known and didn't. Her parents had divorced and their family never got over it. You don't get over divorce, you cope with the consequences and try and salvage what you can. After a divorce, my experience is that you have to find your new "normal". I still haven't found mine. Well, I haven't decided what I want to be when I grow up, lets put it that way.
I have done some amazing things in my life; but, like everyone else, I too am far from perfect. Problem is, sometimes our kids don't see us that way. Once a family has been ripped apart, it takes time to heal the pieces because everyone is harmed. Healing starts with recognition of the pain and then forgiveness, after that everyone in a family finds their new normal and their new way of dealing with and appreciating each other because y0u never stop being family.
Before I dated I asked my children's opinion, I did that for a reason. I didn't ask their opinion when I stopped dating. If I choose to date again, anyone I date will be required to meet my children. You never stop being family. My ex did something that I didn't understand at the time. She was still living in the house and openly seeing the other man, at Christmas she bought a book for one of my kids, it was about a man who attempted to live the bible laws exactly for one year. When my kid opened the present my ex said what the book was about and how the man had met an adulterer and through pebbles at her. We all cringed when she said it; but, I think I get it now. She was trying to say that nobody is perfect and we all sin. In a way, she was admitting what she did and asking for forgiveness.
When I lost the last of my elders, my ex wanted to attend the funeral and was not allowed to. I had been told that she would not be allowed to attend, I was told that if I asked she might be allowed but that there was no guarantee. My position was that if she asked to attend then I would ask that she be allowed to, she never asked. My kids didn't know the whole story; but, they knew she wasn't allowed to attend and assumed it was at my request, it was not. I look back now and see why they were so upset, they saw it as not healing; but, more separation. The problem again is that a divorce effects everyone, even relatives and friends.
I feel bad that my attempt at having a family did not turn out the way I would have wished, I feel bad that I am not perfect and neither was my wife. Heck, my kids were not perfect either. I participated in a family for 25 years and couldn't control the outcome. Life doesn't work that way. I couldn't think about healing the family when I was a mess, when I was still torn. I had to heal me and that took some time, you cannot have your heart ripped out and just get up and get over it. Someone said that for each five years together, it takes a year to heal. It has been just about five years and I am healed, they never said how long it took for everyone else to heal and I don't think kids ever do.
If I ever get the chance (and she would tell the truth) I would talk to my ex and ask her to tell me what went through her mind and if she considered how her actions would effect everyone else. I think I know what she would say, heck, she was cheating on me. She probably did think that divorce was best even for me. Seeing as how she was cheating on me, she may have been right about what was best for me.
If I could have my house back and could reconcile with my ex, I still couldn't put the family back together. It has nothing to do with the adultery per se, it has everything to do with trust. I could never trust my ex-wife again. If I tried to reconcile my attorney and accountant and friends and family would all try to stop me. So, what is best for my family, that is what I have left.
Pray for my success, pray for my family to heal more. I love my children and my ex-wife loves our children. Pray that as time moves on we all come to grips with what has happened and remember that the most important relationship is the one we hold with each other, even when we do each other wrong.
I wonder sometimes, if I found someone that loved me more than my ex-wife did, if I found someone that made me happier than my ex-wife did, would that make it even harder on my children? You know, what would it be like to know that your father was happier with someone other than your mother? How would it feel if it only took a year or two? I am guessing not that great.
YouTube - Eagles - The Heart of the Matter
Hope you all have a nice week. Peace.
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