So Who is this God Fellow?

Being autistic has it's advantages. One of the advantages is that you tend to read people by their actions rather than looks or appearances, we frequently don't understand that look you give us. We live in a universe that was created, the big bang was the method; but, it was still created. Science has no explanation for that. Someday this universe will end, they have no answer for that either. It will end because it will no longer be necessary.

We are sentient beings, self aware, we are all that we can prove exists. You cannot prove, as some scientists claim, that matter exists. Quantum physics, sub-atomic physics, proves that nothing should exist, not time, not matter and not even space. What conclusion do you draw from this? What does it tell us about the nature of who created this universe?

There is a movement to tell you that we are all one consciousness and that if we understand that we can become one again. The big bang theory and the fact that we are separate awareness implies that this is not the answer God is seeking. Variation is the result on an intention to create individual diversity, in thought and emotion. Creation is a tough deal, it means friction and challenge. A rock knows no challenge and never grows. Growth is the only answer to eternal boredom, which would you choose?

If inertia is the greatest force in the universe then how could you ever have a big bang? Science contradicts itself because God and the universe laugh at our attempts to control reality and sentience. The media and government attempt to twist our beliefs, to make the lies come true; but, lies always end up exposing themselves. We are seeing a fundamental unraveling of the lies, they have gone on too long. The lies about the economy, our freedom, our being transitory and unimportant. They are all coming apart and people are nervous and confused.

Everybody knows things are not right in the world anymore. Everybody sees it. Don't think it is just in the United States, it is not, it is worldwide. There is a gentleman named David Icke, he came out about 20 years ago saying that aliens keep us down and that we are infinite oneness and love. 20 years ago he was laughed at, today he sells untold books, is on the radio and television and travels the world speaking in large auditoriums. They come because he also has accurately predicted many crisis well in advance. Why is he so popular? Because people know things are not right and cannot put the pieces together themselves.

If quantum physics is correct and this is a fractal universe. Hmmm, I have some new readers and they may not have read all of the articles about quantum physics. A fractal universe means that basically nothing we observe exists on the level we observe it, it is a representation of a sub-atomic reality. A projection, that is why sub-atomic and atomic levels react differently. Now I will give my explanation for the God thing.

What if we were one consciousness and all alone. That is what the bible says. What if that being found a way to split the consciousness through thought. You see it says in the beginning was the word and the word was God. Self awareness. When asked his name God said his name was "I Am". Self awareness. People never really talk much about that part of the bible.

If you were all that existed it would be exciting at first, you could do anything you wanted; but, there would be nobody to interact with. Consciousness is not like creating a rock. If you created a series of robots, it would not be the same. If you created a series of beings that had to follow your directions, it would not be the same. If you created a set of beings with their morals implanted, it would not be the same. No, for true relationship, you need beings that can truly be themselves, free will.

To create beings with self awareness and freewill might just require giving up some of your own self awareness. Nothing from nothing leaves nothing. Consider the trinity, the father, son and holy ghost. Described as three beings, separate, yet one. The trinity freaks out so many people and it really shouldn't. Three aspects of the same being. I mean really how many faces do you wear in the world. Different personalities for different situations.

Consider the possibility that instead, God gave of his totality so that we could all have our individuality. Consider it for a moment. The man that wrote "The Exorcist" believed that we were the result of God becoming schizophrenic. He believed the purpose of life was to go back to being one. I disagree, if we decided to give this splitting a try, then we have all eternity to change our minds. But therein lies the rub, the further we become different, the harder to pull them all back.

I do not wish oneness with everyone. Heck, some people I don't even want to know. I want to be me, even if some people don't like me. We can learn to not deal with people we don't like or to do so civilly if forced to deal with them. I do not like my ex-wife, as a person I do not like her. Having said that, I still helped her when she no one else to turn to. I assure you she would not and has not done the same for me. People are always surprised by the people I will help and most that are helped are not grateful for more than a second. Few if any loans I have made have ever been paid back and I still loan money.

Consider the universe kindergarten for new sentient beings. A time to learn to be separate and together. A time to learn relationships. A time to learn about attraction and rejection. Hasn't that been your experience? If we were all one once, we are not anymore and guess what, some of us are not coming back. There will never again be a oneness, it is not a goal to be sought. The New Testament says so. Jesus poured himself because it was not a thing to be sought.

I do not know how many of my readers are atheists, its okay, skip the posts that are a problem; but, please know that I write about my thoughts and I am a Christian. I do not tell others to believe, I do not knock on people's doors and attempt to convert, I only say what I think. I don't care what other people believe, decide for yourselves; but, don't attempt to restrict my beliefs or my right to say them. Fortunately, having a small and inconsequential blog allows me this freedom. I have no advertisements and do not seek anyone's money.

For those who do read this pitiful little blog, in the next few weeks I am to attend a meeting with Google and will be representing a company that wants to be bought by Google. I am just helping a friend. Perhaps I should tell them to read my blog, I have spoken about the Google-government connection many times. LOL.

If you wish to understand God, look at the universe around you, look inside yourself and at others, look at the dynamics of life, it is about relationship. If you do not believe in God then you assume that everything is random, is it? I don't see randomness in the universe or in life. If you prefer to believe that everything follows a firm set of rules then all you need to do is explain your self-awareness, does that follow a set of material guidelines, I think not.

For those who do not believe in God, how can you believe in Love? If you believe the universe is material, how can you explain love? Try as you might, you cannot even explain sentience. Love is completely unexplainable. You can discuss why we love; but, explain what it is. Is it just a chemical reaction, I don't think so. Explain how it feels to see a baby for the first time or when a soldier jumps on a grenade to save his friends.

What then is God? What is our purpose? Where do we go from here? What does it matter, what matters is that we have an eternity of infinite variation and change and growth rather than one of eternal boredom. Be well. I hoped you enjoyed this rather obscure examination. I really didn't feel like talking about the BP Well, the mosque at ground zero or some actresses new hairdo. My alternate post was going to be about ladies legs and thighs, do you think I chose well? Good Night.

Post 250

This is and is not post 250. For those who have been reading for awhile they will know that I have completely taken down the first two iterations of this blog and changed the content. Internet ramblings that are no longer to be heard. I don't even know exactly how long I have been on this site.

By and large I have enjoyed writing. I enjoy looking at the events of the day and putting them out there for discussion. I think if someone reads this iteration they will notice a few themes. Firstly, your privacy is under attack and everything you do is going to be monitored in the future. I do not call this a conspiracy, why bother, the reality of it is too clear to everyone now. The second theme has been about corruption, it took out our economy, our pensions and our youth's future. The third theme is really about relationship, not just personal; but, the nature it. How we treat one another and how it is often similar to how our government treats us.

I think I have exhausted the themes for the moment. Anyone who follows this blog knows what to watch for in the news by now. Oh, and yes a Chinese Astronomer is saying that he expects aliens to arrive within the next two years. Did you catch the articles on it? It was reported by numerous sources. Our sense of what is reality is being attacked, that is a form of conditioning, it is used when you wish to instill a new belief set.

I have talked about birthright citizenship and how it is being used to lead people to conclude that citizenship is a right that must be earned. Well kiddies, now it begins, here is the op-ed from the frickin New York Times. If you read enough news sources you will begin to see how orchestrated this all is and how people follow like sheep. If people born here have to earn citizenship, what rights do they have prior? Remember the a-hole that wrote the op-ed is a Professor of Law at Yale. He is also a scumbag who knows what the consequences of such a position are; but, he does not tell the rest.

Anyways, I am sitting here wondering what to do next. I think I will talk about God.

War

Please watch this video. It is horrifying; but, has a purpose. I read all the time from people who say "Kill them all" on websites. Anything happens that they don't like and they want to send our children to kill someone else's children. They should know what the reality of war is.

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A Sad Call

Today has been interesting. I will skip most of what has gone on. I cannot remember, I just received a call from one of my most wonderful loved ones. She is a lady who lives in Portland and has a heart of gold. The good kind, strong and still sweet. She told me that someone we both know is terminal.

The lady who is terminal never smoked, a health freak. She got lung cancer and it spread throughout her body. I remember why she didn't smoke, someone she loved died from it and did smoke. I smoke and my doctors are always frustrated because my lungs are fine.

The lady who is dying and I had a odd relationship. We only ever met online, she is smart and tricky. I enjoy both. She took umbrage with me, not hard to understand. LOL. I can be quite annoying. She also was very helpful to many people and thought about her position. I cried when I heard she was dying in such a way. We all live the human experience and die; sometimes it is a hard death.

At one time, we had discussed getting together, just to meet. I am thinking I may need to go to the Southeast and do so before she dies. Not to discuss any problems we had, to discuss how she helped others. I may instead write her, she may not wish to meet me or be around anyone other than family. People should be given their choices, especially when they are leaving.

I used to ask a question. The question was, "If you knew you only had 24 hours left before you died, what would you do?" I was a gearhead, I raced cars. Gearheads always give the same answer. Get a very fast car, drive it to it's limits and go head first into a wall. Hey, that is the answer for gearheads. Over the years my answer has changed.

Today, if I knew I only had 24 hours to live, I would spend it in quiet conversation with loved ones saying goodbye. Death holds absolutely no fear for me, I welcome it when it's time comes. Pain, on the other hand, is still an annoyance. The pain of cancer is great. The lady who is dying did some manipulative things with me, I cannot wish her the type of ill that cancer brings because I believe she did me wrong, many have. She is a brilliant soul that made her own way and took her own consequences, courage is always admirable.

How can we hate a terrorist who is willing to give their own life because of what they believe and then honor our own soldiers who give their lives. Neither chose the war. It can never be about being right, it has to always be about making things better or we always lose.

Dying from cancer is a miserable experience. I wish it on nobody. My ex's father is dying from diabetes, or so I have been told. I don't wish him that pain. If the ex was dying, I would not wish such pain. It is okay to be angry over the pain others have caused us, it is not okay to wish them ill. The young lady who is dying and I have no issues, I don't. I wish her comfort, I pray for her comfort. I don't have to, I choose to because life is just a series of mistakes and lessons to be learned.

Purity is Bad

You have to love the title. Purity, we are generally taught that we should seek purity, I disagree. Purity is the lowest form of existence. Let us consider what the word means, it means something is simple. All truly useful things are impure.

Gold, in it's purist form is useless. Gold in it's purist form is weak and is not a very good metal. Steal on the other hand is very useful. The things that are the most useful in this world are combinations of different materials. A potato tastes good; but, put it in a stew and it tastes even better.

Pure emotions are also bad. Pure anger or pure love are unthinking. For emotions to be managed so that we meet the higher calling of working together we must have combinations of emotions. Purity is not the absence of filth, it is the absence of everything other than oneself. Purity is boring. We can combine things and make new and exciting things, better things. We make mistakes along the way and that is the surprise we call life.

I like hamburgers; but, come on, add some bacon and some cheese, some tomato and a pickle. That is a better burger. Lets not forget some Worcestershire sauce and garlic in the meat and some ketchup. Most of our problems come from purity, a lack of depth. When we become single minded we screw up everything because others cease to matter.

There are some that claim to seek purity of race, they have done some pretty rotten things. The Nazis loved racial purity and were so set on it that they proceeded to kill those who were not the same as them. Narcissists like purity, they want everyone to be just like them. Many of us can only accept others having the same shortcomings as us, they are not entitled to have their own.

I don't have a big problem with people who are gay, it is just that I could never be, I like the difference that a woman's body has from mine. I know what a male body is and how it feels, being a man it is hard not to know. I like the fact that a woman smells and feels and looks different then me, it is always a nice surprise and I can never know it fully.

Purity is boring. Variations are risky; but, oh what possibilities await. The royal families used to only marry each other, this led to inbreeding and caused hemophilia in many of the men. Those of mixed races tend to be the healthiest, they get the best of both worlds often.

How we grow is by learning to be impure, managing our mix of emotions and choosing how we will deal with them. A great chef must likewise learn to mix ingredients well, the proper mixtures are infinite and delicious. An eternity of purity would be hell.

I have spoken before about outliers, those ingredients that don't seem to make sense, they don't really fit in with anything. Outliers are catalysts for new combinations. When it is time to try something different, you need something different.

I seem to recall that hydrogen is the purest element. Hydrogen is colorless, odorless, nonmetallic and tasteless. It is pure. Pretty boring and fairly useless, in fact if present it can mess up the making of metals.

If we love difference, we love others. If we love sameness, we love ourselves. Pure and good do not mean the same thing. Good means a positive influence, pure means single. Good means to overcome evil, if the world were pure there would be nothing to overcome and therefore no good, no evil, just boredom.

Lies from experts

The linked article is from the Christian Science Monitor, it asks if birthright citizenship is in the Constitution. Professor John Eastman is intentionally misrepresented. Examine closely, he is not quoted he is paraphrased. The statement from him comes out that illegals are not subject to the jurisdiction of the United States and therefore neither are their children who are born here. If he is a professor of law he would know that was incorrect. We drafted all kinds of people who were the children of illegals. I believe he was answering what the rules would be if we eliminated birthright citizenship.

If you read the article you will find that "defenders of the 14th Amendment" say the exact same thing that I wrote about prior. Why is it the "defenders" are not named? This whole game is not about illegals, it is about making citizenship a privilege that you must earn. The intent is to change the language so that naturalized is the issue and naturalized will mean that you have earned the privilege that is earned by having done military or other government service.

They have been trying to sell us on this idea for decades. They teach servicemen and women that those who do not do military service are less deserving. It is garbage. People in the military should be taught that they are protecting our right to choose. I believe that government service should be the highest calling, I don't want it to be mandatory to have rights, like the right to vote. Mandatory government service is slavery. I also do not believe in the draft, it is morally wrong. By the way, I come from a family where most were in the military, most joined.

On a side note, I ate nachos tonight. My stomach was not ready for it and I paid. I guess I should have stuck to soup; but, it sure was nice to have a hearty meal. Be well.