On Monday a missile, a rocket took off from California. CBS posted a video of the rocket taking off. The United States Government says it is not one of ours; but, NORAD said it was nothing to be worried about though they claimed not to know what it was. Huh?
A fricking rocket took off from the California coast and NORAD says they don't know what it is; but, they are sure it is not a problem. Does anybody believe that? Consider this, the Chinese and the Russians know it was, they have satellites too. The only people who don't know what we sent up is our own citizens. Is this a good thing?
Area 51 is real, I know people that have worked there. You can go there, well almost. The Russians, English, French, Chinese and others have satellites, they know it is there. Our government refuses to admit it exists TO US. Isn't that odd? Why can't we know what our enemies know? Just a question.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Two Items
Firstly, someone has posted a comment and I have not approved. Nothing wrong with the comment; but, I don't use people's real names including my own. I do not wish anyone to know who my ex is, some of the readers do; but, they also know what happened.
Second item. I read a post on someone else's blog. The person had just lost their dog and was upset with their ex-wife who wouldn't give them the dog's records nor showed any sympathy. I regret to say that these things happen. I recommended that the person not look to their ex-wife for emotional support.
We lose people in different ways. Some die and some leave. Once divorced, we have to get used to the new routine, it can take awhile. There are times when something happens and my reaction is to call one of my parents; but, they are gone.
I saw a woman today, she looked like my ex-wife. I couldn't be sure if it was her. It is a strange feeling, to not be sure. In the end it didn't really matter, I just didn't care that much. If it had been her I would not have anything to say, there is nothing left to say. That part of my life, that relationship is over.
It takes awhile to stop old habits but it happens. I would be stunned if my ex-wife looked to me for emotional support. I wouldn't know how to provide it to her anymore. The best I could wish her is that she could find someone who could provide it to her. She wasn't there for me and I have nothing left to give her. That is what happens when you divorce.
Funny thing, my ex-wife honestly believed that someday we could be friends. Friends don't cheat on each other. She thought someday we could sit around, have coffee together and discuss whatever. I have nothing to say to her now and probably never will. Moving on means sharing our experiences with people who do care and are involved in the outcome. It mean sound cold, to not talk to an ex partner about an animal that the two of you shared; but, it's just the way it is.
Second item. I read a post on someone else's blog. The person had just lost their dog and was upset with their ex-wife who wouldn't give them the dog's records nor showed any sympathy. I regret to say that these things happen. I recommended that the person not look to their ex-wife for emotional support.
We lose people in different ways. Some die and some leave. Once divorced, we have to get used to the new routine, it can take awhile. There are times when something happens and my reaction is to call one of my parents; but, they are gone.
I saw a woman today, she looked like my ex-wife. I couldn't be sure if it was her. It is a strange feeling, to not be sure. In the end it didn't really matter, I just didn't care that much. If it had been her I would not have anything to say, there is nothing left to say. That part of my life, that relationship is over.
It takes awhile to stop old habits but it happens. I would be stunned if my ex-wife looked to me for emotional support. I wouldn't know how to provide it to her anymore. The best I could wish her is that she could find someone who could provide it to her. She wasn't there for me and I have nothing left to give her. That is what happens when you divorce.
Funny thing, my ex-wife honestly believed that someday we could be friends. Friends don't cheat on each other. She thought someday we could sit around, have coffee together and discuss whatever. I have nothing to say to her now and probably never will. Moving on means sharing our experiences with people who do care and are involved in the outcome. It mean sound cold, to not talk to an ex partner about an animal that the two of you shared; but, it's just the way it is.
Monday, November 8, 2010
A Thought About Hell
Please consider this as a possibility. Imagine an eternity of solitary confinement, imagine that to be hell. Sounds pretty gruesome. Imagine being alone forever. Imagine only having your own thoughts. Got it.
Okay, now we are going to play a game. How bad is this earth? Is it worse than hell? See, that may be the trick. The big bang. Anything is better than eternal solitary confinement. No matter how bad your life has been, has it been better than eternal solitary confinement, I bet it has. I never want to hear someone ask me why God does bad things to "good" people. Why don't we only have bad things happen to us? Science would be good with that.
Okay, now we are going to play a game. How bad is this earth? Is it worse than hell? See, that may be the trick. The big bang. Anything is better than eternal solitary confinement. No matter how bad your life has been, has it been better than eternal solitary confinement, I bet it has. I never want to hear someone ask me why God does bad things to "good" people. Why don't we only have bad things happen to us? Science would be good with that.
Monday
Not my fun day. In the news I recommend you read about how a company is asking to sell pills with microchips in them. The chips will send real time data about your health to your cell phone and it will send it to the company. No thanks.
In other news follow the attacks on the Federal Reserve now that people finally understand it is not part of the government. Also keep an eye on the G20 meeting in Korea, they are going to discuss the future of the Dollar as the world reserve currency. Be well. You have your assignments, we expect a full report in the morning.
In other news follow the attacks on the Federal Reserve now that people finally understand it is not part of the government. Also keep an eye on the G20 meeting in Korea, they are going to discuss the future of the Dollar as the world reserve currency. Be well. You have your assignments, we expect a full report in the morning.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Happy Sunday
Hope everyone is having a nice day. I am using today as a day of rest. Very soon I will be storing some of my stuff while I wait to leave my house for good. As I look towards disposing of my thing, too many to take, I don't look forward to going through all of the stuff. Many memories will be jarred.
Friday, November 5, 2010
Electronic Democracy
Go back and see that I have written about direct democracy and coalition governments. This article talks about "direct democracy" in Russia. In England people are talking about taking back their government; but, they have gone to proportional representation and will not be able to gain consensus. In the United States we have "kicked out the Democrats" who were making us socialist; but, we are looking at four years of gridlock and nothing will change.
In other government news, George W. Bush admits to ordering waterboarding. The ex-president admitted to ordering torture. Peoples response was to say it was a good thing. We have become like our enemies. Our ex president admitted to violating the constitution and international treaties.
Oh, lets not forget the people who lied about the presidents ordering waterboarding. Your government lied to you, the people you voted for lied to you. Is that okay? What about the military officers and the CIA who knew, is it okay that they lied to. Friends, that is conduct unbecoming and officer and a gentleman. That is a violation of the military code of justice. They can and should be court marshaled.
Now if you want to read something really crazy, here is an article about a legislator in Parliament who says that a secretive organization wants to give 5 billion pounds to help England out. It starts about 2/3rds of the page down. I read about it on a couple of news sources. I don't know what I think about it. It is Guy Fawkes day. Look it up. The Lord also admitted to having laundered billions for terrorists. It's a joke. It is just a very odd joke. It didn't make a headline on the London Times. I am assuming that each year on Guy Fawkes day someone in their Parliament makes an outrageous statement or something along those lines.
What about the volcano in Indonesia that they say could be the biggest explosion of a volcano in ten thousand years. That is not a good thing. When Krakatoa blew it sent a shockwave three times around the world. This would be louder. If it blows as they fear, kids that is a game changer. It will be colder on earth, fast. I don't even want to think about the tidal wave that it would send up. Katrina and the Haiti disasters will quickly be forgotten. This is a possible earth changing event. The national debt and your personal debt will matter little. Growing food will matter. People need to watch this one.
We had a spike in readership yesterday, 20 views in a day. Today someone read about Pastor Carol Daniels. The post on her is one of my most read. Comments are always welcome, even on old stuff. It is good to know that people are searching about her on the internet. The case needs to be solved.
I don't know how my readers feel about me leaving little parts of a story at the end of some of my posts. Just a literary thing I wanted to try.
I have something I want to say; but, I can't get it. A feeling. I feel like I should talk about tomorrow; but, I can't remember why. Oh well. It is November of 2010. Heck, I remember watching "2001 a Space Odyssey" in 1969 and thinking that I would never see the day. Now it is 2010 (the date of the sequel). I am living in my own science fiction. It was science fiction when I saw the movie.
The oldest person in the world died, I think she was 116. She was 20 when World War I was going on. She saw people use planes for the first time and then saw us land a man on the moon. She was living in science fiction land. How do you handle that, seeing those changes? How much science fiction could you handle seeing and living? Be well.
In other government news, George W. Bush admits to ordering waterboarding. The ex-president admitted to ordering torture. Peoples response was to say it was a good thing. We have become like our enemies. Our ex president admitted to violating the constitution and international treaties.
Oh, lets not forget the people who lied about the presidents ordering waterboarding. Your government lied to you, the people you voted for lied to you. Is that okay? What about the military officers and the CIA who knew, is it okay that they lied to. Friends, that is conduct unbecoming and officer and a gentleman. That is a violation of the military code of justice. They can and should be court marshaled.
Now if you want to read something really crazy, here is an article about a legislator in Parliament who says that a secretive organization wants to give 5 billion pounds to help England out. It starts about 2/3rds of the page down. I read about it on a couple of news sources. I don't know what I think about it. It is Guy Fawkes day. Look it up. The Lord also admitted to having laundered billions for terrorists. It's a joke. It is just a very odd joke. It didn't make a headline on the London Times. I am assuming that each year on Guy Fawkes day someone in their Parliament makes an outrageous statement or something along those lines.
What about the volcano in Indonesia that they say could be the biggest explosion of a volcano in ten thousand years. That is not a good thing. When Krakatoa blew it sent a shockwave three times around the world. This would be louder. If it blows as they fear, kids that is a game changer. It will be colder on earth, fast. I don't even want to think about the tidal wave that it would send up. Katrina and the Haiti disasters will quickly be forgotten. This is a possible earth changing event. The national debt and your personal debt will matter little. Growing food will matter. People need to watch this one.
We had a spike in readership yesterday, 20 views in a day. Today someone read about Pastor Carol Daniels. The post on her is one of my most read. Comments are always welcome, even on old stuff. It is good to know that people are searching about her on the internet. The case needs to be solved.
I don't know how my readers feel about me leaving little parts of a story at the end of some of my posts. Just a literary thing I wanted to try.
I have something I want to say; but, I can't get it. A feeling. I feel like I should talk about tomorrow; but, I can't remember why. Oh well. It is November of 2010. Heck, I remember watching "2001 a Space Odyssey" in 1969 and thinking that I would never see the day. Now it is 2010 (the date of the sequel). I am living in my own science fiction. It was science fiction when I saw the movie.
The oldest person in the world died, I think she was 116. She was 20 when World War I was going on. She saw people use planes for the first time and then saw us land a man on the moon. She was living in science fiction land. How do you handle that, seeing those changes? How much science fiction could you handle seeing and living? Be well.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
A little saddened
I had to finally face my finances. I collected a year of bills and started going through them in preparation for my foreclosure. The court, in it's infinite wisdom, left me with $300,000 in debt and my ex, about $2,000. A far cry from four years ago when I had no debt, over $100,000 in the bank and $250,000 in equity on my house.
I was going through my expenses trying to figure out how I will afford any apartment. Dear readers please understand I will do just fine, I know how to budget and require little, that is not the point or what is on my mind. I worked for 38 years, 23 for the same employer. I rose very high and make six figures; but, I only keep 2 of every 5 dollars I make.
Funny thing is, I can't say I care that much. On one level I see the unfairness, on another, I feel free. I worked my way up from $4 an hour to $70. Not bad. Now I have something to work towards again. I will complete my foreclosure, consolidate my debt, pay it down and move on. I waited three years to look at my financial future because there was no point while the divorce proceeded. I didn't know how much I would pay in attorney fees or alimony so I couldn't plan. Now I can and I am a decent planner.
For those who stood by me and watched me lose everything, thanks for being there. For those who took and did not stand by me, have a great life. There is nothing left to take and clearly many did not appreciate what they did take. They miss out on the joy of gratitude.
To those who know me best, of course I have a plan, always did, just had to wait until the dust settled to get busy. I awake from my dream and am ready to get busy. Only one delay and that will not last long, three months at most. With excess baggage removed from my life and I can be a very effective individual. I just need a target and I can see clearer what I want. Didn't know what I wanted for the past few years, I was too busy dealing with the mess.
If my salary is reduced any further there will be no point in my working as I will not be able to afford to get to work. Everybody will lose except me. That is the world we have created. The guilty are rewarded and the innocent punished for the crimes of others. Rewarding people for adultery or for bankrupting companies or for corruption in government is wrong; but, apparently it is lawful. What message does this send our children. Accepting these things as okay still sends the wrong message.
I need no pity and I need no money. I am quite satisfied with my days now. My days are filled with nice conversation, cooking and work. I laugh a lot now, I laugh daily and many people enjoy laughing with me. I have an inner peace that I have not known since I was single. I have my dog, he is laying at my feet and seems quite satisfied to do so.
We made a wrong turn when we stopped considering guilt and responsibility. We made a wrong turn when we began focusing on how much one acquires rather than what one contributes, we started sending the wrong message. It was unsustainable. Life is not about things or experiences, it is about how we impact one another.
On a side note. I had spent all day and night with my best friend enjoying Disneyland. The morning was coming and we sat on the curb, exhausted, waiting for the bus to come and get us. I looked up between two buses and saw. I hoped I was not noticed. After it passed I sort of limped. I reconciled myself to what my life was and where I now lived. Saddened, I wished her well in my mind.
I was going through my expenses trying to figure out how I will afford any apartment. Dear readers please understand I will do just fine, I know how to budget and require little, that is not the point or what is on my mind. I worked for 38 years, 23 for the same employer. I rose very high and make six figures; but, I only keep 2 of every 5 dollars I make.
Funny thing is, I can't say I care that much. On one level I see the unfairness, on another, I feel free. I worked my way up from $4 an hour to $70. Not bad. Now I have something to work towards again. I will complete my foreclosure, consolidate my debt, pay it down and move on. I waited three years to look at my financial future because there was no point while the divorce proceeded. I didn't know how much I would pay in attorney fees or alimony so I couldn't plan. Now I can and I am a decent planner.
For those who stood by me and watched me lose everything, thanks for being there. For those who took and did not stand by me, have a great life. There is nothing left to take and clearly many did not appreciate what they did take. They miss out on the joy of gratitude.
To those who know me best, of course I have a plan, always did, just had to wait until the dust settled to get busy. I awake from my dream and am ready to get busy. Only one delay and that will not last long, three months at most. With excess baggage removed from my life and I can be a very effective individual. I just need a target and I can see clearer what I want. Didn't know what I wanted for the past few years, I was too busy dealing with the mess.
If my salary is reduced any further there will be no point in my working as I will not be able to afford to get to work. Everybody will lose except me. That is the world we have created. The guilty are rewarded and the innocent punished for the crimes of others. Rewarding people for adultery or for bankrupting companies or for corruption in government is wrong; but, apparently it is lawful. What message does this send our children. Accepting these things as okay still sends the wrong message.
I need no pity and I need no money. I am quite satisfied with my days now. My days are filled with nice conversation, cooking and work. I laugh a lot now, I laugh daily and many people enjoy laughing with me. I have an inner peace that I have not known since I was single. I have my dog, he is laying at my feet and seems quite satisfied to do so.
We made a wrong turn when we stopped considering guilt and responsibility. We made a wrong turn when we began focusing on how much one acquires rather than what one contributes, we started sending the wrong message. It was unsustainable. Life is not about things or experiences, it is about how we impact one another.
On a side note. I had spent all day and night with my best friend enjoying Disneyland. The morning was coming and we sat on the curb, exhausted, waiting for the bus to come and get us. I looked up between two buses and saw. I hoped I was not noticed. After it passed I sort of limped. I reconciled myself to what my life was and where I now lived. Saddened, I wished her well in my mind.
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