Tuesday, November 2, 2010
A Small Request
Okay, this blog is read by about 20 people a day including foreign countries. I would deeply appreciate it if everyone who has read this blog posts one comment to this request. Be well.
Sick again
Yeah, barely made it through yesterday. Dinner was half a bowl of cream of chicken soup. Feeling better today, slept a ton. Today is election day, talk about being sick.
Jon Stewart and his stupid attempt to ridicule people who think this country is going socialist is a good example of the arrogance that surrounds us. I am not into tea parties. I don't care for the republican party or the democratic party. Both are lies.
Our government has changed and our opinion was not asked. The TARP bill was passed without our representatives even reading it. Same was true for the Patriot Act and the Stimulus Bill and the Healthcare bill. Mr. Stewart seems to think these things don't matter.
Our politicians are not doing their jobs. Then again, who is? Most people feel the world is too complicated for them to understand and they want things simplified. That is why Obama could run on the silly phrase, "Change". People side with images and gut reactions. This is a problem.
Mr. Stewart and his friend Mr. Colbert think we all need to take things less seriously. I disagree, we need to investigate and understand what is happening. The discussion regarding changes to the healthcare law was short and nothing was agreed upon; but, the law was passed anyways. It doesn't matter if you are for or against these bills, what matters is that we have an active national discussion.
If we wish to have a responsive government, we must insist upon knowing what is being voted on. We must be informed, we must investigate. The "tea party" movement was hijacked before it began. It was a way to let people vent.
I would like to remind people about the "town hall" meetings. They were a joke. The meetings were held with congressmen who did not want to attend. So why did they go, there is law requiring them to. Who made them go? How? Why were they called "town hall" meetings, who decided that?
We have become a socialist nation (good, bad or indifferent) in violation of the Constitution and without a true national debate. There was no Constitutional Conference. The Constitution was just ignored. For those who care, by the way, I am sucking down all the water I can. I will even try and eat something solid tonight.
We should be asking the question, why is the government system failing. We should be looking at the system and not just the lame personalities. We need to eliminate term limits, we need to vote for people who are neither cowards nor idiots.
Mr. Stewart said that these were not end times, just hard times. I disagree. At a minimum we have seen the end of being a Constitutional democracy. We are seeing the end of capitalism, we are seeing the end of privacy. We are seeing the end of home ownership, we are seeing the end of the middle class, these things apparently escaped Mr. Stewart's attention. His answer seems to not be so upset by it.
If every illegal alien left the country, it wouldn't effect the laws that have been put in place. You would not have more privacy or undo the healthcare bill. Our economy will not untangle from globalism, it's just not going to happen. Because we have been divided over our biases, we cannot come to agreement on what needs to be changed.
Jon Stewart and his stupid attempt to ridicule people who think this country is going socialist is a good example of the arrogance that surrounds us. I am not into tea parties. I don't care for the republican party or the democratic party. Both are lies.
Our government has changed and our opinion was not asked. The TARP bill was passed without our representatives even reading it. Same was true for the Patriot Act and the Stimulus Bill and the Healthcare bill. Mr. Stewart seems to think these things don't matter.
Our politicians are not doing their jobs. Then again, who is? Most people feel the world is too complicated for them to understand and they want things simplified. That is why Obama could run on the silly phrase, "Change". People side with images and gut reactions. This is a problem.
Mr. Stewart and his friend Mr. Colbert think we all need to take things less seriously. I disagree, we need to investigate and understand what is happening. The discussion regarding changes to the healthcare law was short and nothing was agreed upon; but, the law was passed anyways. It doesn't matter if you are for or against these bills, what matters is that we have an active national discussion.
If we wish to have a responsive government, we must insist upon knowing what is being voted on. We must be informed, we must investigate. The "tea party" movement was hijacked before it began. It was a way to let people vent.
I would like to remind people about the "town hall" meetings. They were a joke. The meetings were held with congressmen who did not want to attend. So why did they go, there is law requiring them to. Who made them go? How? Why were they called "town hall" meetings, who decided that?
We have become a socialist nation (good, bad or indifferent) in violation of the Constitution and without a true national debate. There was no Constitutional Conference. The Constitution was just ignored. For those who care, by the way, I am sucking down all the water I can. I will even try and eat something solid tonight.
We should be asking the question, why is the government system failing. We should be looking at the system and not just the lame personalities. We need to eliminate term limits, we need to vote for people who are neither cowards nor idiots.
Mr. Stewart said that these were not end times, just hard times. I disagree. At a minimum we have seen the end of being a Constitutional democracy. We are seeing the end of capitalism, we are seeing the end of privacy. We are seeing the end of home ownership, we are seeing the end of the middle class, these things apparently escaped Mr. Stewart's attention. His answer seems to not be so upset by it.
If every illegal alien left the country, it wouldn't effect the laws that have been put in place. You would not have more privacy or undo the healthcare bill. Our economy will not untangle from globalism, it's just not going to happen. Because we have been divided over our biases, we cannot come to agreement on what needs to be changed.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
How did I get here?
It is five in the morning and I woke up for no reason. I decided to have a glass of wine and go back to bed, thought I might write a little. I saw my therapist Friday. I have come a long way.
Four years ago my wife, at the time, decided to sleep with her hiking buddy. My mind wonders how I got here. In court she was vicious, she asked for everything she could get, the court gave less. How does someone cheat on you and then attack you? How do they justify such a thing?
Valerie Bertinelli was on television a while back and she spoke about how she cheated on her husband, Eddie Van Halen. She said that she did it once and swore she would never do it again, ten years later she did. How do you do that, how do you sleep with someone when you are married, I don't get it, I couldn't do it. I don't know how to be unfaithful.
How do you come to grips with the fact that the person you married, that you thought you loved and thought loved you, cheated on you? The problem I have is a love problem, how do you unlove someone? My life is not fxxxing Facebook, I don't just unfriend someone.
What to do with 27 years of memories. And who the heck is reading this blog in the Ukraine? Sorry, I am not awake yet. I am writing half asleep. How dark is the heart that cheats on it's spouse? How can we be so cruel?
My life moves on for the better; but, what of that which has been left behind? What of the family and life that we led? Where does selfishness come from, I don't understand it. I am a simpleton.
How do I accept the fact that I am glad that she was so evil and that I can leave free of any guilt? I would have preferred that she was not evil; but she was. Dear readers, do I make any sense. Can you understand my confusion? I wonder how she could do such a thing to me. I saved her life, gave her a life and she cheated on me. Still, I must find the good in her.
The wine is kicking in. Little left to say, just questioning how I got here. I never had freedom from responsibility, it feels nice. It feels nice to know that I am no longer on the clock. There are no clocks.
It is halloween. Yippie Kay Yay. I do not know what my readers think of me. I am just a guy who has been hurt, I am just a guy trying to work through this life in a way that is honorable. Is it wrong to want to do the right thing? I screw up and keep trying.
We arrived at the hotel. I was miserable. I spent the next six months apathetic to my life. I did not understand apathy. I didn't know the word. I have been apathetic twice in my life. Once when I lost the love of my life and the second time when I lost my wife. I got over it both times. The first one I understand, the second one I do not. How do you cheat on your spouse? Be well.
Four years ago my wife, at the time, decided to sleep with her hiking buddy. My mind wonders how I got here. In court she was vicious, she asked for everything she could get, the court gave less. How does someone cheat on you and then attack you? How do they justify such a thing?
Valerie Bertinelli was on television a while back and she spoke about how she cheated on her husband, Eddie Van Halen. She said that she did it once and swore she would never do it again, ten years later she did. How do you do that, how do you sleep with someone when you are married, I don't get it, I couldn't do it. I don't know how to be unfaithful.
How do you come to grips with the fact that the person you married, that you thought you loved and thought loved you, cheated on you? The problem I have is a love problem, how do you unlove someone? My life is not fxxxing Facebook, I don't just unfriend someone.
What to do with 27 years of memories. And who the heck is reading this blog in the Ukraine? Sorry, I am not awake yet. I am writing half asleep. How dark is the heart that cheats on it's spouse? How can we be so cruel?
My life moves on for the better; but, what of that which has been left behind? What of the family and life that we led? Where does selfishness come from, I don't understand it. I am a simpleton.
How do I accept the fact that I am glad that she was so evil and that I can leave free of any guilt? I would have preferred that she was not evil; but she was. Dear readers, do I make any sense. Can you understand my confusion? I wonder how she could do such a thing to me. I saved her life, gave her a life and she cheated on me. Still, I must find the good in her.
The wine is kicking in. Little left to say, just questioning how I got here. I never had freedom from responsibility, it feels nice. It feels nice to know that I am no longer on the clock. There are no clocks.
It is halloween. Yippie Kay Yay. I do not know what my readers think of me. I am just a guy who has been hurt, I am just a guy trying to work through this life in a way that is honorable. Is it wrong to want to do the right thing? I screw up and keep trying.
We arrived at the hotel. I was miserable. I spent the next six months apathetic to my life. I did not understand apathy. I didn't know the word. I have been apathetic twice in my life. Once when I lost the love of my life and the second time when I lost my wife. I got over it both times. The first one I understand, the second one I do not. How do you cheat on your spouse? Be well.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Randy Quaid and Tila Tequila
I don't know what to say about this. It is Saturday and I have time to write so I may just ramble and go with it. I was reading articles this morning and came across one that was just too weird.
Randy Quaid says that some underground organization in Hollywood killed Heath Ledger and is trying to get him.
Now we have Tila Tequila talking about "The Others" in Hollywood and how they are into child sex and brainwashing us all. I will say this for Miss Tequila, she can actually write. I mean she put together good paragraphs and had a good command of the language. I didn't expect it. I guess that shows my bias.
Lets not forget Dan Akroyd and his UFOs.
Or, Charlie Sheen and his 9/11 conspiracy beiefs.
Dave Chappelle on the Masons and such.
What the heck is going on in Hollywood? JayZ flashing the illuminati sign all the time and Lady Gaga doing the all seeing eye in every video she makes. Then consider Madonna and her Kaballah following. Kaballah is just witchcraft.
We have Stephen Hawking talking about meeting aliens and Hillary Clinton talking to Eleanor Roosevelt's ghost in the White House. Wrestler Jesse Ventura was voted Governor of Minnesota, Arnold was voted governor of California. What bizarro world do we live in?
What happens to people when they become famous? How much stuff do they have to hear? Lady Gaga sang about the Fame Monster. It must be. Remember when Martin Laurence was in the middle of Ventura Blvd. waving a gun? Is there a single female singing diva that hasn't completely lost her mind? Brittany, Lindsey, One-eye, the list goes on and on. Why would anyone want to be famous?
Personally, I am irritated when people I do not know, know of me. I am not famous just known within certain circles. Every now and then I meet people who have heard about me, often they have an opinion of who and what I am. I do not know them so it seems sort of unfair. Why should they have an opinion, positive or negative, about someone they have not met and don't know? In my case they have often read things that I wrote, so there is some understanding of what I am; but, I have none of them. It seems unfair.
Imagine being a star, having everyone know who you are and having an opinion about you. I think that would suck. Now, heaven forbid, you be a star and have an opinion on something that is not politically correct, everyone comments on you. Wait a second, aren't celebrities allowed to what they want also? It used to be that the studios completely controlled the stars and what was published. Today the "studio system" is gone and celebrities have to fend for themselves.
Tom Cruise is a scientologist. What those people believe is absolutely wacko. L. Ron Hubbard was a satanist and charlatan. Having said that, isn't Mr. Cruise allowed to believe what he wishes? Does he have to be an atheist, protestant or Catholic? Sammy Davis Jr was a satanist for a couple of years.
Bob Dylan said that he had sold his soul to the Devil, is that how famous people feel, as if they have sold themselves out for fame? That they must fake who they are in order to stay famous? Or at least wealthy. What about Mel Gibson, if he hates Jews, should he not be able to make films?
I don't like Jane Fonda as a person, I hated what she did during the Vietnam War. I don't much like war; but, I know that the people who fight them are the true victims. She hated the soldiers, she is an elitist twat. Not every soldier is a hero; but, every soldier had to deal with bad stuff. Not every service man is a soldier, most never see action. Everyone who ever had to sit on a battlefield had to deal with some bad stuff and should be understood as having to do such.
Every celebrity has to deal with fame. Every celebrity loses the freedom of movement that we have. Snookie (I know what it is now) is probably different than what we see in the papers and television, still, she chose to be a celebrity and be on a television show. Fame and fortune are cells, They are poison and there is a price to be paid, public scrutiny by people who don't know you. Should it be that way, maybe not, maybe yes, I don't know.
Randy Quaid says that some underground organization in Hollywood killed Heath Ledger and is trying to get him.
Now we have Tila Tequila talking about "The Others" in Hollywood and how they are into child sex and brainwashing us all. I will say this for Miss Tequila, she can actually write. I mean she put together good paragraphs and had a good command of the language. I didn't expect it. I guess that shows my bias.
Lets not forget Dan Akroyd and his UFOs.
Or, Charlie Sheen and his 9/11 conspiracy beiefs.
Dave Chappelle on the Masons and such.
What the heck is going on in Hollywood? JayZ flashing the illuminati sign all the time and Lady Gaga doing the all seeing eye in every video she makes. Then consider Madonna and her Kaballah following. Kaballah is just witchcraft.
We have Stephen Hawking talking about meeting aliens and Hillary Clinton talking to Eleanor Roosevelt's ghost in the White House. Wrestler Jesse Ventura was voted Governor of Minnesota, Arnold was voted governor of California. What bizarro world do we live in?
What happens to people when they become famous? How much stuff do they have to hear? Lady Gaga sang about the Fame Monster. It must be. Remember when Martin Laurence was in the middle of Ventura Blvd. waving a gun? Is there a single female singing diva that hasn't completely lost her mind? Brittany, Lindsey, One-eye, the list goes on and on. Why would anyone want to be famous?
Personally, I am irritated when people I do not know, know of me. I am not famous just known within certain circles. Every now and then I meet people who have heard about me, often they have an opinion of who and what I am. I do not know them so it seems sort of unfair. Why should they have an opinion, positive or negative, about someone they have not met and don't know? In my case they have often read things that I wrote, so there is some understanding of what I am; but, I have none of them. It seems unfair.
Imagine being a star, having everyone know who you are and having an opinion about you. I think that would suck. Now, heaven forbid, you be a star and have an opinion on something that is not politically correct, everyone comments on you. Wait a second, aren't celebrities allowed to what they want also? It used to be that the studios completely controlled the stars and what was published. Today the "studio system" is gone and celebrities have to fend for themselves.
Tom Cruise is a scientologist. What those people believe is absolutely wacko. L. Ron Hubbard was a satanist and charlatan. Having said that, isn't Mr. Cruise allowed to believe what he wishes? Does he have to be an atheist, protestant or Catholic? Sammy Davis Jr was a satanist for a couple of years.
Bob Dylan said that he had sold his soul to the Devil, is that how famous people feel, as if they have sold themselves out for fame? That they must fake who they are in order to stay famous? Or at least wealthy. What about Mel Gibson, if he hates Jews, should he not be able to make films?
I don't like Jane Fonda as a person, I hated what she did during the Vietnam War. I don't much like war; but, I know that the people who fight them are the true victims. She hated the soldiers, she is an elitist twat. Not every soldier is a hero; but, every soldier had to deal with bad stuff. Not every service man is a soldier, most never see action. Everyone who ever had to sit on a battlefield had to deal with some bad stuff and should be understood as having to do such.
Every celebrity has to deal with fame. Every celebrity loses the freedom of movement that we have. Snookie (I know what it is now) is probably different than what we see in the papers and television, still, she chose to be a celebrity and be on a television show. Fame and fortune are cells, They are poison and there is a price to be paid, public scrutiny by people who don't know you. Should it be that way, maybe not, maybe yes, I don't know.
Friday, October 29, 2010
An Odd Feeling
Since the divorce my house has been headed for foreclosure. I am okay with that. It now appears that it will happen within the next two months. I feel sort of strange knowing this. I mean I knew it was coming and it has to, it is just the finality of it.
In a way, it is the final door to close on my old life. When my ex-wife decided to have her little affair I do not believe she had a clue as to where it would lead for all of us. She did not believe her unilateral decision would result in her life changing completely and did not care that it would change the lives of the family as much as it did and continues to.
I am ready to move, I am ready to stop the four hour a day commute. I am ready to start my new life, one where I actually think about myself. When the house is gone, my new life starts. It will surprise many that they do not come along. I will be creating a new life for my self, I must. I do not grieve the loss of the old life, I have done that already. People made their choices and can now live with them.
I have developed many relationships with people where I live over the last 19 years. Those relationships will come to an end for many. I will have to create new relationships wherever I move to. I am beginning to say goodbye.
What will the future hold for me, I don't know exactly. Starting over but no internal direction. Mistral Wind.
I got on the plane and took my seat. We sat in first class. The plane took off and I left my life behind, my friends, my world. The plane was in the air and it was not to take me back. I put on the headset and listened to Billy Joel sing "Movin Out". He was headed in the opposite direction, I was headed to Boston. It was a long flight with much to think about.
When we landed in Boston my uncle picked us up and drove us to a hotel. Two months in a hotel room. Two months eating at the same restaurant. Two months of nothing but time to think about what was lost.
In a way, it is the final door to close on my old life. When my ex-wife decided to have her little affair I do not believe she had a clue as to where it would lead for all of us. She did not believe her unilateral decision would result in her life changing completely and did not care that it would change the lives of the family as much as it did and continues to.
I am ready to move, I am ready to stop the four hour a day commute. I am ready to start my new life, one where I actually think about myself. When the house is gone, my new life starts. It will surprise many that they do not come along. I will be creating a new life for my self, I must. I do not grieve the loss of the old life, I have done that already. People made their choices and can now live with them.
I have developed many relationships with people where I live over the last 19 years. Those relationships will come to an end for many. I will have to create new relationships wherever I move to. I am beginning to say goodbye.
What will the future hold for me, I don't know exactly. Starting over but no internal direction. Mistral Wind.
I got on the plane and took my seat. We sat in first class. The plane took off and I left my life behind, my friends, my world. The plane was in the air and it was not to take me back. I put on the headset and listened to Billy Joel sing "Movin Out". He was headed in the opposite direction, I was headed to Boston. It was a long flight with much to think about.
When we landed in Boston my uncle picked us up and drove us to a hotel. Two months in a hotel room. Two months eating at the same restaurant. Two months of nothing but time to think about what was lost.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Vernon and another I told you so
This old feeble analyst got another one right. Today the Los Angeles Times announced that the City of Los Angeles is preparing to anex the City of Vernon. Go ahead, go back and read this blog, I said it would be Vernon.
My ex-wife and one of my daughters were under the impression that somehow they have gotten brighter and that I have gotten dumber. I don't think so. They believe that because I have called them on what they have done in secret that I am out of touch with the truth. I don't think so. You can believe your own lies; but, my seeing it does not make me wrong.
Throughout the United States small cities are being called on their thievery. The next big thing will be the elimination of Community Redevelopment Agencies, they are all crooked. CRAs are a way for politicians to pay off their friends, in exchange their friends pay them off.
My ex-wife and one of my daughters were under the impression that somehow they have gotten brighter and that I have gotten dumber. I don't think so. They believe that because I have called them on what they have done in secret that I am out of touch with the truth. I don't think so. You can believe your own lies; but, my seeing it does not make me wrong.
Throughout the United States small cities are being called on their thievery. The next big thing will be the elimination of Community Redevelopment Agencies, they are all crooked. CRAs are a way for politicians to pay off their friends, in exchange their friends pay them off.
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