Tuesday, November 30, 2010

S 510

If you still are under the delusion that the United States is a free country read the legislation that was just passed called S 510. The bill basically kills small and organic farmers.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

South Korea

We have a couple of readers from South Korea and I want to take this opportunity to wish them well during these times. My father fought in the Korean War and was decorated. Our prayers and thoughts are with South Korea at this time.

I personally do not expect a nuclear war over Korea. I believe Kim Jung's successor is attempting to prove that he is not afraid of America or South Korea as they transition leadership. Still, I am sure that it is very unnerving.

War is never inevitable, it can always be avoided if leaders want to. Sometimes leaders want war and others die. Let us hope that war is avoided.

Health Care? Maybe not.

An article discussing how congress is discussing eliminating the tax cut for employers who provide medical insurance to employees. You will be on Obamacare. Come on, didn't every reasonable person know that once government health care was provided then private health care would not be.

What a scam. The Dumbocrats vote for government provided health care. People are upset and vote for Ripoffpublicans and they eliminate privately provided health care and everyone is forced to use the government plan unless they are very rich.

As the world continues to spiral into insanity, the rich have some other things they are buying. Have you heard about "Freedom Ship"? It is a new boat being built that will stay at sea and therefore not be under any government. It will hold 100,000 people, all wealthy.

There has also been a rise in the sale of fallout shelters, high scale ones. LOL. In Russia they are building 5,000 just in Moscow. At the same time, in the United States, Homeland Security is moving supplies from central locations to regional locations.

My recommendation, chill out. Keep up on the news just for the sake of amusement. Be well.

Hello Sunday, Goodbye home.

I was sitting at my computer when someone knocked on the door. It was a man who wanted to hand me papers. I took the papers and called my loan processor and got the name of the person on the phone. I then gave the name to the person at my door.

It seems like I am starting in the middle of a story; but, not really. For the past year I have been unable to pay my mortgage. I was unable to because my wages were garnished in the divorce.

My old loan was processed by Citibank. In October I was notified that it was being sent to IBM Business Solutions. I knew something was going on. I had worked with Citi and listed my house for a short sale. In all that time no offers were made. I had mailed over 50 pages of paper to Citi.

The mortgage companies do not want to foreclose, they would rather renegotiate loans but they were not sure which ones to renegotiate. Nothing to renegotiate with me because of the divorce.

Please dear readers know that I am in no way upset by all of this. I am trying to let you know that now is the time where people will be forced to choose. The options are foreclosure or modified loan. We anticipated that something would happen this month, that is why the loan was transferred.

For a year Citibank didn't call, send much paper or in any way seem to want to foreclose. I found it odd. I have heard of people not paying their mortgage for a year and a half. IBM, I believe, was given the loans to be foreclosed on and they got mine.

December is going to be a tough month for a lot of people. Unemployment checks stop for two million people and the real foreclosures have begun. It is sort of freeing for me. I had wanted to sell the house before the divorce when the market was good.

I never imagined I would be relieved to be in foreclosure. I never imagined I would get divorced. Lots of things I never imagined. I am ready to move on. Be well and have a great day.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Death of small government

The City of Maywood is constructively gone. It is the beginning of a trend, a trend away from small cities. This article explains it fairly well.

In Ireland one hundred thousand people are protesting their governments "austerity" measures. Ireland is trading it's sovereignty for bailout money. I am Irish. Ireland had been the poorest European country for as long as anyone could remember. During the last 30 years it finally had some wealth and now it will return to being the poorest and lose it sovereignty.

We are seeing this consolidation in cities and nations. What do you think of it?

Friday, November 26, 2010

Wall Street Walloped by Insider Trading

Here is an article on the insider trading going on at Wall Street. Yet, here is an article from CNBC PROMOTING insider trading. What?

What you are seeing is people who have profited from the insider, old boy network (it includes women) trying to hold on. These people have no shame, none. Public and private pensions own the majority of traded stocks. Those pensions are controlled by the government. They are used to achieve political ends and those involved and well paid in order to keep their mouths shut.

The article says that the investigation was begun a year ago, hey, that's when Elliot Broidy began turning state evidence. Hmmmm. Just a thought.

News to follow

Lots of things going on at once. Firstly, the euro is in danger of collapsing. On the heals of this Russia and China announced they were going off the dollar. Now Russia is seeking to gain entry into the European Union. Never thought I would see that happen. Oh yeah and the US and EU are talking about building a missile shield over Europe. How do these things fit together?

In the game of international politics who is playing who and to what end is never completely clear. What is clear is that Russia is attempting to play both sides by setting agreements with China and the EU.

The United States is the last true superpower. Well we were. We are losing that. China will not replace us in that manner because they don't have the ability to extend themselves worldwide militarily and neither does Russia. Their fear is that we will use our military power to take over countries and control the material wealth, the minerals and oil. Like we did in Iraq and Afghanistan.

The world is repositioning itself. New alliances are being forged for the future competition of economies. There are calls in England to break away from the EU and in Ireland. Imagine this scenario. Group one is England, Ireland, Canada, the United States, Mexico, Greenland and Iceland. Group two is the EU and Russia. Group three is China, Iran and India. These three groups would then be competing for influence over Africa and South America.

Nothing has been decided yet, that is clear. On top of this consider the fact that a failed Euro or failed dollar will constructively stop international trade. In order to have international trade there must be agreement on a trading device, a currency.

In Ireland, England and Greece new "austerity" measures are being implemented that will make the majority of their people live under third world conditions. It is coming here next. Actually it is here. Unemployment benefits are ending for millions of people and the foreclosure tsunami has just begun.

So how are Americans dealing with these issues, by ignoring them and going shopping. It's Black Friday and time to shop. Yeah.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Not Good

Okay, I read this a day a go and did not post on it. I was waiting for conformation. The Chinese and Russians have gone off the dollar standard. This is not a good thing for the United States.

This is another game changer and people need to understand that. The dollar has been the international currency for decades, it is what has kept our country wealthy. It represents trust. We are not trusted to pay our debts anymore. If other countries don't accept our currency, our promise to pay them back, then we cannot trade with them. No more buying Chinese or Russian products. Europe has the biggest problem as they buy natural gas from Russia. It can get cold in Europe.

Currency is nothing more than an IOU. It is a promise of labor and materials. It is not real, it is a promise. The moment nobody trusts your promise, your currency is worthless. That is what has occurred. We don't keep our promises and people stop trusting us.

The Chinese and Russians apparently believe we are going into hyperinflation and that will mean that all of the dollars they are holding will cease having value, they think we will cheat them, we would if we could. Our nations wealth and security was very much built on our stability. People believed America would be stable and that made our currency trustworthy. They don't trust us now.

This is in no way the end, this is the beginning of the end. The end will take a couple of years. Salvation will occur; but, that is only a bigger end. The world is beginning to say that they do not need us. We don't pay back or provide anything. What do we manufacture? Not much. We build weapons, so do others. We control the internet, they don't need it.

This is going to force a standard, be it gold or other. It is very possible that we will nationalize the Federal Reserve to correct this. People will be thrilled if we nationalize the Federal Reserve because it will wipe out our debt to ourselves. It will not however fix anything.

The world as we knew it has changed. For starts, USA is no longer number one. Our GDP is now surpassed by China and our currency is no longer trusted because we have nothing to sell. We will need to accept less in order to compete internationally.

We screwed the Chinese and Russians out of trillions of dollars by selling them worthless derivatives that we defaulted on. We sold them trillions of dollars of our housing debt that we are not paying off. They quit the dollar.

We will watch the world turn upside down and not even understand it. We will have less and not know why. It is simple, we cannot be trusted and nobody will trust us.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

NO WORK

Hi all. I have nothing to talk about except that I am off this week. Wait, one more thing. What do you think about this Korea thing? Kinda bad. North Korea fired missiles at South Korea. Timing is what should concern everyone.

Some people have suggested that the missile that was fired off of the California coast was from a Chinese submarine, like the one that popped up near some US ships. I was Navy ROTC and was learning to be on a sub hunter. We were taught about doing things like that. In either case North Korea's move will require a response.

If we go to war with China, even a non-nuclear one, things will not be good for anyone. I do not believe such a thing will occur. Still, we do not like to see war of any kind.

One more thing to discuss. Thanksgiving. It is not really a religious holiday, yet it is the most sincere. We thank our maker for providing for us. Sometimes we forget to do that and the holiday reminds us. I am thankful for much, I may not have much but I am thankful for much. I am thankful for having daughters who know who they are. I am thankful for my siblings and relatives. I am very thankful for my friends who have stood by me, encouraged me, made me smile and supported me when I needed support. I am thankful for great food, hey, I like food.

I may be losing my house; but, that just makes my life easier. I am not into possessions. I prefer to have little, less to take care of. I am thankful to God for giving me the chance to help others. I am thankful that he gave me my mind and my body, both have served me well. I am thankful for rest and music and comedy and trees and mountains and the desert (the desert is a wonderful place, so much quiet and so much life that can only be seen if you still your heart).

I am thankful for my little blog and my readers. I am. I like knowing someone reads my insanity, that it has any value. This blog was started for a couple of reasons and the reasons continually change. People need to express themselves and this has been a fun outlet. I have written in other places and have always managed to find people who actually enjoy my writing, it is an honor.

Because I want to make people aware of things they might not otherwise read, I spend a couple of hours a day reading. I read a lot. I figure most of my readers are well read and follow the news so I try to find things they might not have seen or present perspectives that might not be as common. Another way to look at things, not necessarily right, just different.

If I read an article such as the recent one discussing how the Vatican doesn't have enough exorcists and needs to recruit them because there is a rise in the number of possessions, I find that interesting. You don't have to be Catholic to find that interesting. It deserves to be considered regardless of from which perspective, heck, atheists would find it interesting.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Bait and Switch

A lot has been said about the new "security measures" being employed at airports by the TSA. Like a magician, the politicians are hiding the real purpose. Lets discuss the set up.

Firstly, we had an underwear bomber. Now this guy was a graduate student and the son of one of the wealthiest people in Nigeria. He covered himself in a blanket and attempted to ignite the device sitting in his chair. How come he didn't do it in the bathroom of the plane? If he had they would not have been able to stop him. Isn't that just common sense?

Anyways, days after the attempted explosion airports began installing the scanners. How did the manufacturer know they would be utilized and purchased. Oh, remember this, many of the people who worked for Homeland Security at the top were also lobbyists for the company that made them.

Lets jump forward a bit. As the discussion of the body scanners develops it turns out that so many problems have occurred that people are outraged. It was discovered that although we were told the images were not going to be kept, they were and about a 100 showed up on the internet. How did that happen? Who posted them? Better yet, how come Homeland Security isn't tracking down who posted them?

Now lets say you don't want a body scan, the TSA will then use an aggressive pat down even on children and babies. We have had TSA agents fondling the breasts and crotches of children, the elderly and the disabled. Sounds like they really don't want you to "opt out" of the scan.

We have been warned by the media that people are making too big a deal of this (I will not link to the articles). The head of the TSA is saying that opting out is basically unAmerican.

A alternate is now being discussed whereby people who were pre-screened and gave up biometric information would get a regular old security screening. So what are the real issues?

Are we actually safer because we take off our shoes? Are we actually safer if we let people oogle our naked bodies? Israel security says nope. Then why do it? Apparently for money, the money the lobbyists spent and received. But that is not the real reason either, to give up our privacy and accept what we are told.

With all of this hassle and the complaints, more people are expected to fly this year. Not me. The real question is what we will individually do and not do. It is a question of personal choice and privacy. What will you trade it for? It does not matter to me whether it be full body scan, aggressive pat down or biometrics. I opt out of all of them.

What happens when this "furor" is over, one of them will be accepted and none are needed. People are wondering what the least offensive method is, why should it be offensive at all? Travel is not a privilege, it is a right. Having said that, travel by plane is not. Travel by public transportation is a privilege. I do not like that the privilege has such a high price; but, that is what it is. Driving is also a privilege. Walking is a right.

Now kiddies, what will happen next. You will need to have a full body scan to drive to Mexico or Canada. You will need it to walk to Mexico or Canada. Everyone is calling for tougher border security to keep out illegals and we will be the ones who have the scans. Wanna bet?

Where will you draw the line? As a Christian I believe that eventually we will be asked to take a mark. It will be invisible to the naked eye; but, it will be taken willingly. We will take it in exchange for having the type of life we used to. Many will take it willingly and say they were "forced" to. The bible says we will take the mark so that we can buy and sell. No thanks.

This question is really for Christians, believers. If you do not believe the bible then question is just silly. How can a believer take a mark when it is the only thing clear in the Book of Revelations. Yet they will, they will for comfort. Comfort and happiness are overrated. Doing the right thing is underrated.

If you are a "Christian" would you take the mark if it was invisible or would convince yourself that you don't know it is a mark, or would you lie to yourself? This is very much a Christian question. Now I will tell the Christians something. It says that in that day many will say "Jesus, Jesus" and he will tell them to go away, that he never knew them.

We are too often taught that if we believe Jesus is our saviour, then we are saved. I tell you that is not what the bible says. Jesus said that if we loved him then we would do his will. His will is simple, love God with all your heart and your neighbor as yourself. If you believe it will change how you act. It also says that even the demons know who Jesus is and know he is lord. They are no saved either.

The TSA is wrong for viewing naked children, it is a crime. To take your child to the airport knowing that their nakedness is even more wrong because parents have a duty to their children. Perhaps you can begin to see my point. Why would anyone expose their children to such a thing, what travel plans can outweigh their duty to protect their children? The TSA is wrong, allowing your children to be exposed is worse.

If I still had young children I would ask, before beginning the security check, what my child would have to do. If I were told that the agent was going to touch my child's privates I would not fly. How can a parent willingly allow their child to undergo such a thing?

There are many who will disagree with me. That is fine. Who do you think will be applying for the jobs to pat down your children? Pedophiles work where children are, that is their logic. TSA agents don't have top secret clearances, they are paid piddly amounts. Who wants a job groping people? Not me. It is a trick and we are being herded but we still choose. It is our choices that define us, not our so called "beliefs". Faith is belief which leads to action. Be well and love one another.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

For a dear friend

My life was fairly stable for a very long time. Go to work, come home, be with the family. It was a simple life and didn't appear complicated. Unknown to me were many things that came out later; but, prior to their coming out it sure seemed normal. Then one day my father had a stroke. Everything changed.

I was blessed in that I was able to care for my father in my home. He was quite aware but couldn't remember yesterday. He couldn't remember where places were. He was still a great guy to be around.

Yesterday a dear friend's father had the same thing happen. My prayers and thoughts are with him. I had to take my father's car keys from him. He could not be allowed to drive. It is the worst feeling in the world to take your father's keys away knowing he will never get them back. It is not just about the driving, it is being forced to limit your father's freedom to protect him and others. It has to be done sometimes and it makes you feel like garbage if you love your father and are proud of him.

I looked up to my father and owe him so much. The same is true for my mother but she died in an instant and I was not there. I don't know what to say to my friend except I am sorry that he will have to go through the same damn thing. His father was like my father, a man who take care of whatever life through at him and did it damn well.

I want to tell my friend what I learned so I can help him. I didn't learn anything except that it feels terrible. My friend is a good man and he will do what needs to be done, his father will be proud of him. His father will get to see him do whatever needs to be done and knowing that he raised a man with integrity, one that does not whine or carry on, a real man. It's tough to be a real man.

I debated writing this, my friend reads the blog. I do not feel it would be right to call him as he has much to deal with at present. It may be a few days before he reads this. He will read it in his time.

These type of events happen in life, we age and things stop working. The strongest of us can need care and assistance. Some of us are unaccustomed to being helped, I was. When my father got sick I needed help from others and had to learn to accept it. It felt great to be unafraid and not need anyone's help. It feels good to be unafraid of this world and this life, to be independent.

A few years back I had a severe depression or something. This young man helped me come back to being me and helped me to get healthy again. I cannot thank him enough and have already seen the kind of man he is. Having met his father I know his father will be proud of him and will give him a hard time. He will be proud of his father for giving him a hard time.

I have no words of wisdom. I have been through it and have nothing to share that will make it easier, it isn't easy. After my dad's stroke I would take him to Vegas each month because he liked it. He was still my dad, he just couldn't drive or remember yesterday. He still enjoyed my cooking and the company of our family. There was never a thought of my dad being put in an institution he was going to be with me or my brother or sister. It was that simple.

I have never regretted caring for my father, it was an honor. It was an honor to return something back to him for all that he had done for me. Honors are earned and my friend has earned the right to decide what is best for his father because his father knows he raised a man who can make the right decisions. He did.

When I had my breakdown or whatever, I told my wife that I feared I was losing my mind, she it was my problem and to deal with it. No sympathy, no love, no care. You never know how people will react to problems. A young man I know was in a horrifying accident a couple months back, he should have been dead. He had a girl friend, she had told him previously that if he was ever seriously injured she would leave. She did not, she has stayed by his side as he slowly recovers. People can even surprise themselves.

I have attended more than 15 funerals in the last three years, many more, I lost count. I have spoken at most of the funerals. You would think I would be good at it by now. Nope, sucks each time. What do you say when people are going through these types of events, you tell the truth, it sucks and I am sorry that you must go through this.

I write what I would say to my friend, it sucks, you will handle it well and do what is right because you are your father's son and I am proud of you and sorry that you and your family must deal with this.

Happy Sunday

Perhaps I will post later.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Worth Watching

This video is long and very worthwhile. I beg you to watch the whole thing. It tells you who/what really owns this country. I had previously shown how government pensions own Harrah's casinos.

The truth is that public enterprise organizations and public pensions control the corporations by owning the stock. The Wall Street crash and the federal "bailout" took the stock away from the state and local funds and federalized them. That is why the Federal government now owns GM, Chrysler, the banks...

The issue that this man discusses is about taxes not being necessary. People will like that; but, the bigger issue is the ownership and control of the corporations. The public retirement funds are used to achieve political ends.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Marriage

I was going to bed but got sick. My stomach has been all over the place recently. We change as we age and can no longer eat as we once did. So, I decided to post an article that I had read. Marriage no longer considered relevant.

I want to ask a question. What made marriage relevant in the first place? It has been around a very long time, pair bonding is human nature. Some people will attempt to say that marriage existed because it promoted this or that outcome. Nonsense. Pair bonding has always been human. Love is human.

Two bible statements. First, God condemned adultery, it is one of the ten commandments. He stated that once bonded people should not be separated. He also said something else, he said in the last days marriage would be outlawed.

There are many people who will say that we live longer and that it is unreasonable to think that people can stay together for life in the modern days. Okay, how long can people be expected to be together? I think the odds would go up if people got to know each other before sleeping together.

I don't know

I read the news and so much of it is just garbage. I don't believe half of it anymore. I am stunned by the acceptance of dishonesty. I am even more amazed by the lack of shame. People do things and have absolutely no shame.

I am too tired to write. Be well.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Boring News Day

Maybe I am just distracted but I haven't found anything interesting in the news. I am working on my foreclosure and just can't seem to get my head straight. Have a great night.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Sunday, November 14, 2010

How Strange Can the World Be?

Someone wrote an article questioning our ability to handle meeting aliens. It is a valid question that he raises and one that I had raised in a previous post. A separate article discusses Biocentrism. This is the theory that we are part of the evolutionary equation because we are sentient. I have also posted my thoughts on this matter although it had no name or proponents at the time. Heck, the title of my blog sums it up, you matter.

The problem I have with both of the articles, and I do think you should read them, has to do with their perspective that you are not unique or special. You are, you matter, every sentient being is unique and matters. Without sentience there is no truth, the truth truly is inside you. We may lie to ourselves about many things; but, only inside us can we find the real truth.

There are those who believe that life is nothing but a dream or a hologram (as scientists are increasingly believing). Life is neither, it is very real even if objects are not as they appear, that is not life. Life is what goes on inside our minds and our souls. Your life is your experience, that is pretty real.

I Miss My Dog

I have just returned from Nevada. I went to look at a house for a relative. A four hour drive isn't much for a guy that travels two hours to work and two hours back on a daily basis. Still, the Nevada ride seems more rushed and I am a bit tired. While in Nevada I visited my sister and left my dog with her. She has two dogs and my little puppy needs to learn to be with others.

My dog is a one and a half year old Chihuahua. He is male and he is not going to be fixed. He is also not going to be chipped. He is the bravest little idiot in the world, nothing scares this dog. Everyday when I leave for work he cries, he actually sobs. When I return he pounces on my legs to drive me up to my bedroom and he does not calm down until I take my shoes off and he knows I am staying.

My little dog sleeps with me, he loves to snuggle against my legs. When I am on the computer he lays under my chair, happy just to be with me. It is good that I do not know who had abused him, I would not like them. My problem is that he does not like other people, he doesn't trust them. He tolerates some. He does like my sister, we picked him up together and brought him calm. He likes calm, he is the perfect dog for me and I miss him. I will have him back in a week or two; but, I am lonely without him.

Sometimes we have to be apart to grow closer together. Sometimes we need to learn to be with others to be with our other. Growth requires separation. If my dog can cry when I go to work, I can certainly shed a tear when we are apart for weeks. If we do not feel the pain of separation, it is because we have failed to love.

A Nice Little Video and Song


Not long ago I read a post about a man who lost his dog, it was old and passed away. The man was very sad and this is very understandable. Dogs are just animals; but, they love us like nothing else. They love us more than they love their own kind. That is a lot of love. We need to learn to love like that. Dogs love us more than the cookies of this world, we are their cookie.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

NASA Announcement Monday - 2010

Nasa has announced they have found something exceptional and will have an international media event on Monday to discuss it. The three experts who will answer questions are all astrophysicists who work on gamma rays. Should be interesting.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Stuff to do today

I have to take care of some things today, I may not post. Having said that, there is a great article on a town being attacked by turkeys. I love animal stories.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Houses

I have to look at a house for someone. There is serious talk in Washington about getting rid of the deduction for owning a house. If this occurs housing prices will drop. We are moving into a paradigm where home ownership, ownership of anything is a disadvantage. I fact, my mortgage processor told me that they have a program where they take back your house and rent it to you.

During the "Great Depression" the Rockefellers bought homes, took over the loans, and rented to the previous owners. I guess this depression isn't great but it is following the same pattern. People need to learn from history.

The next thing to go will be the tax deduction that is given to married people. I don't find that many people who believe in marriage anymore. By the way, I still do. Gotta go see a house, have a great day.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

A Lovely Comment

I had posted to someone else's blog. A simple thing. I posted anonymously. They thanked me. It can matter. I had worried that my words did not fit my feelings, that they might be misread. They were not. Often my words are. I don't talk like other people, I talk like me.

It was nice to be recognized for my comment. It was nice to know that it helped. I did not leave my blogs address, I never do. My blog is not publicized, not monetized, not anything. At best it is a restroom stop in the desert. How nice. I have restroom named after me. I do. It has a plaque that only five people will see. Be well.

It's a Bird

So today we have all sorts of silly explanations regarding the missile that left California. One article says that a blogger has figured out that it was a plane and even says which plane it was. Problem is that the plane he mentions was flying to Los Angeles from Asia. Problem is that the trail isn't headed to LAX.

Oh, another problem. Both NORAD and the local radar stations were asked what it was and both denied ANYTHING being in the area. Wouldn't they have noticed a regularly scheduled plane, why did it take two days?

Now take a peak at this article on San Nicolas Island. It is in the right location and has experience sending off missiles.

Also consider that the media talked to a famous scientist who said that missiles leave straight trails. Yet, here is a picture of what was seen next to a photo of a missile launch. Neither is straight.

I really didn't want to right about the missile, I am more interested in the lie. This is like the garbage about the Norway spiral, we were told that was a missile. I grew up around aerospace, I live next to Skunk Works and Edwards Air Force Base, my family has worked in aerospace and some still do. I watched rockets being tested as a child.

I don't care why a missile or rocket was launched. I am more surprised by the lies. We are supposed to believe that a helicopter pilot doesn't know what a frickin plane contrail looks like. The Norway spiral occurred just before Obama got the peace prize in Norway. This missile goes off on the eve of the G20 in KOREA. An old political science teaching, diplomacy is war by other means.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I Don't Like to Post on the Obvious

On Monday a missile, a rocket took off from California. CBS posted a video of the rocket taking off. The United States Government says it is not one of ours; but, NORAD said it was nothing to be worried about though they claimed not to know what it was. Huh?

A fricking rocket took off from the California coast and NORAD says they don't know what it is; but, they are sure it is not a problem. Does anybody believe that? Consider this, the Chinese and the Russians know it was, they have satellites too. The only people who don't know what we sent up is our own citizens. Is this a good thing?

Area 51 is real, I know people that have worked there. You can go there, well almost. The Russians, English, French, Chinese and others have satellites, they know it is there. Our government refuses to admit it exists TO US. Isn't that odd? Why can't we know what our enemies know? Just a question.

Two Items

Firstly, someone has posted a comment and I have not approved. Nothing wrong with the comment; but, I don't use people's real names including my own. I do not wish anyone to know who my ex is, some of the readers do; but, they also know what happened.

Second item. I read a post on someone else's blog. The person had just lost their dog and was upset with their ex-wife who wouldn't give them the dog's records nor showed any sympathy. I regret to say that these things happen. I recommended that the person not look to their ex-wife for emotional support.

We lose people in different ways. Some die and some leave. Once divorced, we have to get used to the new routine, it can take awhile. There are times when something happens and my reaction is to call one of my parents; but, they are gone.

I saw a woman today, she looked like my ex-wife. I couldn't be sure if it was her. It is a strange feeling, to not be sure. In the end it didn't really matter, I just didn't care that much. If it had been her I would not have anything to say, there is nothing left to say. That part of my life, that relationship is over.

It takes awhile to stop old habits but it happens. I would be stunned if my ex-wife looked to me for emotional support. I wouldn't know how to provide it to her anymore. The best I could wish her is that she could find someone who could provide it to her. She wasn't there for me and I have nothing left to give her. That is what happens when you divorce.

Funny thing, my ex-wife honestly believed that someday we could be friends. Friends don't cheat on each other. She thought someday we could sit around, have coffee together and discuss whatever. I have nothing to say to her now and probably never will. Moving on means sharing our experiences with people who do care and are involved in the outcome. It mean sound cold, to not talk to an ex partner about an animal that the two of you shared; but, it's just the way it is.

Monday, November 8, 2010

A Thought About Hell

Please consider this as a possibility. Imagine an eternity of solitary confinement, imagine that to be hell. Sounds pretty gruesome. Imagine being alone forever. Imagine only having your own thoughts. Got it.

Okay, now we are going to play a game. How bad is this earth? Is it worse than hell? See, that may be the trick. The big bang. Anything is better than eternal solitary confinement. No matter how bad your life has been, has it been better than eternal solitary confinement, I bet it has. I never want to hear someone ask me why God does bad things to "good" people. Why don't we only have bad things happen to us? Science would be good with that.

Monday

Not my fun day. In the news I recommend you read about how a company is asking to sell pills with microchips in them. The chips will send real time data about your health to your cell phone and it will send it to the company. No thanks.

In other news follow the attacks on the Federal Reserve now that people finally understand it is not part of the government. Also keep an eye on the G20 meeting in Korea, they are going to discuss the future of the Dollar as the world reserve currency. Be well. You have your assignments, we expect a full report in the morning.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Happy Sunday

Hope everyone is having a nice day. I am using today as a day of rest. Very soon I will be storing some of my stuff while I wait to leave my house for good. As I look towards disposing of my thing, too many to take, I don't look forward to going through all of the stuff. Many memories will be jarred.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Electronic Democracy

Go back and see that I have written about direct democracy and coalition governments. This article talks about "direct democracy" in Russia. In England people are talking about taking back their government; but, they have gone to proportional representation and will not be able to gain consensus. In the United States we have "kicked out the Democrats" who were making us socialist; but, we are looking at four years of gridlock and nothing will change.

In other government news, George W. Bush admits to ordering waterboarding. The ex-president admitted to ordering torture. Peoples response was to say it was a good thing. We have become like our enemies. Our ex president admitted to violating the constitution and international treaties.

Oh, lets not forget the people who lied about the presidents ordering waterboarding. Your government lied to you, the people you voted for lied to you. Is that okay? What about the military officers and the CIA who knew, is it okay that they lied to. Friends, that is conduct unbecoming and officer and a gentleman. That is a violation of the military code of justice. They can and should be court marshaled.

Now if you want to read something really crazy, here is an article about a legislator in Parliament who says that a secretive organization wants to give 5 billion pounds to help England out. It starts about 2/3rds of the page down. I read about it on a couple of news sources. I don't know what I think about it. It is Guy Fawkes day. Look it up. The Lord also admitted to having laundered billions for terrorists. It's a joke. It is just a very odd joke. It didn't make a headline on the London Times. I am assuming that each year on Guy Fawkes day someone in their Parliament makes an outrageous statement or something along those lines.

What about the volcano in Indonesia that they say could be the biggest explosion of a volcano in ten thousand years. That is not a good thing. When Krakatoa blew it sent a shockwave three times around the world. This would be louder. If it blows as they fear, kids that is a game changer. It will be colder on earth, fast. I don't even want to think about the tidal wave that it would send up. Katrina and the Haiti disasters will quickly be forgotten. This is a possible earth changing event. The national debt and your personal debt will matter little. Growing food will matter. People need to watch this one.

We had a spike in readership yesterday, 20 views in a day. Today someone read about Pastor Carol Daniels. The post on her is one of my most read. Comments are always welcome, even on old stuff. It is good to know that people are searching about her on the internet. The case needs to be solved.

I don't know how my readers feel about me leaving little parts of a story at the end of some of my posts. Just a literary thing I wanted to try.

I have something I want to say; but, I can't get it. A feeling. I feel like I should talk about tomorrow; but, I can't remember why. Oh well. It is November of 2010. Heck, I remember watching "2001 a Space Odyssey" in 1969 and thinking that I would never see the day. Now it is 2010 (the date of the sequel). I am living in my own science fiction. It was science fiction when I saw the movie.

The oldest person in the world died, I think she was 116. She was 20 when World War I was going on. She saw people use planes for the first time and then saw us land a man on the moon. She was living in science fiction land. How do you handle that, seeing those changes? How much science fiction could you handle seeing and living? Be well.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

A little saddened

I had to finally face my finances. I collected a year of bills and started going through them in preparation for my foreclosure. The court, in it's infinite wisdom, left me with $300,000 in debt and my ex, about $2,000. A far cry from four years ago when I had no debt, over $100,000 in the bank and $250,000 in equity on my house.

I was going through my expenses trying to figure out how I will afford any apartment. Dear readers please understand I will do just fine, I know how to budget and require little, that is not the point or what is on my mind. I worked for 38 years, 23 for the same employer. I rose very high and make six figures; but, I only keep 2 of every 5 dollars I make.

Funny thing is, I can't say I care that much. On one level I see the unfairness, on another, I feel free. I worked my way up from $4 an hour to $70. Not bad. Now I have something to work towards again. I will complete my foreclosure, consolidate my debt, pay it down and move on. I waited three years to look at my financial future because there was no point while the divorce proceeded. I didn't know how much I would pay in attorney fees or alimony so I couldn't plan. Now I can and I am a decent planner.

For those who stood by me and watched me lose everything, thanks for being there. For those who took and did not stand by me, have a great life. There is nothing left to take and clearly many did not appreciate what they did take. They miss out on the joy of gratitude.

To those who know me best, of course I have a plan, always did, just had to wait until the dust settled to get busy. I awake from my dream and am ready to get busy. Only one delay and that will not last long, three months at most. With excess baggage removed from my life and I can be a very effective individual. I just need a target and I can see clearer what I want. Didn't know what I wanted for the past few years, I was too busy dealing with the mess.

If my salary is reduced any further there will be no point in my working as I will not be able to afford to get to work. Everybody will lose except me. That is the world we have created. The guilty are rewarded and the innocent punished for the crimes of others. Rewarding people for adultery or for bankrupting companies or for corruption in government is wrong; but, apparently it is lawful. What message does this send our children. Accepting these things as okay still sends the wrong message.

I need no pity and I need no money. I am quite satisfied with my days now. My days are filled with nice conversation, cooking and work. I laugh a lot now, I laugh daily and many people enjoy laughing with me. I have an inner peace that I have not known since I was single. I have my dog, he is laying at my feet and seems quite satisfied to do so.

We made a wrong turn when we stopped considering guilt and responsibility. We made a wrong turn when we began focusing on how much one acquires rather than what one contributes, we started sending the wrong message. It was unsustainable. Life is not about things or experiences, it is about how we impact one another.

On a side note. I had spent all day and night with my best friend enjoying Disneyland. The morning was coming and we sat on the curb, exhausted, waiting for the bus to come and get us. I looked up between two buses and saw. I hoped I was not noticed. After it passed I sort of limped. I reconciled myself to what my life was and where I now lived. Saddened, I wished her well in my mind.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

New England

A couple of days after I arrived it snowed three feet in one day. It was one of the worst blizzards in their history. A great introduction to my new home. Stuck in a hotel, not knowing what was around or a person in the area. I was hating life.

For almost three months I had nothing but anguish. I finally had an address. I wrote a letter, it ended with; "It's okay if you don't write me back". No response was given.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

A Small Request

Okay, this blog is read by about 20 people a day including foreign countries. I would deeply appreciate it if everyone who has read this blog posts one comment to this request. Be well.

Sick again

Yeah, barely made it through yesterday. Dinner was half a bowl of cream of chicken soup. Feeling better today, slept a ton. Today is election day, talk about being sick.

Jon Stewart and his stupid attempt to ridicule people who think this country is going socialist is a good example of the arrogance that surrounds us. I am not into tea parties. I don't care for the republican party or the democratic party. Both are lies.

Our government has changed and our opinion was not asked. The TARP bill was passed without our representatives even reading it. Same was true for the Patriot Act and the Stimulus Bill and the Healthcare bill. Mr. Stewart seems to think these things don't matter.

Our politicians are not doing their jobs. Then again, who is? Most people feel the world is too complicated for them to understand and they want things simplified. That is why Obama could run on the silly phrase, "Change". People side with images and gut reactions. This is a problem.

Mr. Stewart and his friend Mr. Colbert think we all need to take things less seriously. I disagree, we need to investigate and understand what is happening. The discussion regarding changes to the healthcare law was short and nothing was agreed upon; but, the law was passed anyways. It doesn't matter if you are for or against these bills, what matters is that we have an active national discussion.

If we wish to have a responsive government, we must insist upon knowing what is being voted on. We must be informed, we must investigate. The "tea party" movement was hijacked before it began. It was a way to let people vent.

I would like to remind people about the "town hall" meetings. They were a joke. The meetings were held with congressmen who did not want to attend. So why did they go, there is law requiring them to. Who made them go? How? Why were they called "town hall" meetings, who decided that?

We have become a socialist nation (good, bad or indifferent) in violation of the Constitution and without a true national debate. There was no Constitutional Conference. The Constitution was just ignored. For those who care, by the way, I am sucking down all the water I can. I will even try and eat something solid tonight.

We should be asking the question, why is the government system failing. We should be looking at the system and not just the lame personalities. We need to eliminate term limits, we need to vote for people who are neither cowards nor idiots.

Mr. Stewart said that these were not end times, just hard times. I disagree. At a minimum we have seen the end of being a Constitutional democracy. We are seeing the end of capitalism, we are seeing the end of privacy. We are seeing the end of home ownership, we are seeing the end of the middle class, these things apparently escaped Mr. Stewart's attention. His answer seems to not be so upset by it.

If every illegal alien left the country, it wouldn't effect the laws that have been put in place. You would not have more privacy or undo the healthcare bill. Our economy will not untangle from globalism, it's just not going to happen. Because we have been divided over our biases, we cannot come to agreement on what needs to be changed.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Elections

Don't care anymore.