Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Companionship Maybe

Still nothing in the news worthy of discussion. Let's talk about companionship. As my readers know, I am divorced. I dated for about two years and then decided I needed some quiet time, that I wasn't ready. I enjoyed dating, I enjoyed spending time with very nice and accomplished ladies. I wonder when I will be ready for a relationship again, intimacy (and no I mean true intimacy, openness).

There are a couple of younger ladies near where I live that seem to enjoy my company; but, I hide, I am not ready. Perhaps I shall never be ready, how do you know when you are? I cannot say that I am lonely or ever alone, I am always around friends and no longer face the horrible pressures that I once did, okay, that I did for decades. Life winds down in so many ways.

People say that in the Rat Race, it the rats that win; but, they do not. All of the stuff of this world is like trash waiting to happen. Love, companionship and relationship matter, defining ourselves matters, the toys and trinkets are just junk and never satisfy.

What does satisfy in this life? That is the question. What does winning look like? What is the best life we can have? We are here to define ourselves and learn; but, learn what? How do you know when you have passed the test? How do you know when you have failed?

How do you know when you are really ready?