Failing Hands

I have arthritis in my hands for about 35 years. About 25 years ago my doctor predicted that I would need to have my knuckles replaced in ten years, he expected that my knuckles would need to be removed within the last 15 years, I have exceeded expectations. During that time my hands have continued to deteriorate; but, I have found that the pain has less and less meaning. It may be that the delay has caused some nerve damage, I cannot say. I chose to wait to have the operation and that was my choice. 

The problem now is that my hands are now failing in worse ways. I have kept my hands busy by typing all of my own work and of course this blog also. I can still type; but, I find my hands seizing up in the last month. I thought it might just be the weather; but, it is getting worse. I am now faced with the question again of having my knuckles removed and replaced with plastic. I am quite sure the technology has improved in the last 25 years. My health provider has my history and x-rays of my hands, they documented the problem and would pay for the treatment. I can afford the time needed to heal as I am retired.

Let us consider the risks and rewards of having my knuckles replaced. A mistake might leave me unable to use my hands at all. Success would be no more constant pain and who knows, possibly even the ability to draw again or write legibly. There is another thing to consider, I don't want to have body parts that are not mine. My knuckles and I have been through a lot and they have allowed me to be an artist, a cabinet maker, a writer and fix plumbing. I respect my body, it has always done what I needed it to do.

I think I shall keep my knuckles unless the pain requires constant medication and I cannot use them at all. I have also refused to get laser eye surgery or use contact lenses. I feel no need to change myself at this time; but, I am willing to use items to assist me such as glasses. These things are personal choices. As for the blog, if I can no longer type, I will get a voice program that will type for me. Hope you all have a great weekend.