No News, Just Personal Stuff

I do not know what I am doing right or I would keep doing it; but, I have had women flirting with me for the last four days, complete strangers. I am a fairly average looking man, nothing special. I think I am fairly polite, generally considered amusing and fairly intelligent. In the area that I live, I only shop or eat at places where I like the people. Okay, I will eat at a place if the food is really good and the people are not. When I go to my places, the people working there often know me and check on me. It is one of the best parts of my life to know that my cashiers think I am wonderful. LOL. I cannot imagine standing behind in a line at one of my places and watching how I am treated. A couple of the women who flirted with me were in exactly that situation. But, something interesting happened today that has not happened in a long time, someone flirted with me that actually got me wondering.

I was at work (won't say what I do or where) and noticed a lady who was waiting to talk to someone. I was pretty sure why she was there because I know about our work. I asked her if she had been helped, even though it is not my job; but, just good customer service, and she told me she had not. I told her I would find someone and instead found that nobody that could help her was in the office. I returned to her and told her that I would come back in a couple of minutes and look again as they were probably all in some sort of a meeting (turned out that they were). I was in the middle of a couple different projects and ended up being approached by co-workers for direction from me, she would have seen all of this. I had to take care of something, walked away for a short meeting and returned to see if she had been helped. By that time, she told me she had. A short conversation ensued and it turned out that this lovely lady grew up in the same area as me, graduated the same time as me and knew people I had gone to school with even though I did not know them.

In case you are wondering, this story does not end with me asking her out, you don't do that at work. So, we were talking and she got my attention. She was quite lovely, very pleasant, well mannered and intelligent. I like intelligent women. She had aged quite well and had a lovely figure, very curvacious. As I said, I have had a lot of women flirt with me lately; but, this one did something else. She took hand in one of those two hand holds, two of her hands on either side of my hand and she thanked me for having helped her. I have not explained this well; but, I will try. It was one of those times when someone holds your hand with a certain tenderness, very soft and gentle. She said some very kind things and I had to run off.

My friend that had dinner with this week and wrote about it, he reads this blog and has been with me when women have approached me. I am usually distant to say the least. I lived with a friend for a bit in a beach town and he complained that I was rude because I would not respond to women who attempted to catch my eye. I am not looking for a new relationship, I am enjoying my peace and quiet. This woman made me pause and that doesn't happen often. After we separated as I had things to do, I kept thinking about her and that never happens in this way, I wondered what she was like.

Pretty is never going to be my downfall, it is just not enough. I like pretty; but, understand it is nothing more than skin deep. This woman was pretty for someone her age; but, what caught me was her personality, she was so very friendly and intelligent. The fact that she was my age was equally attractive. I am not lonely, I am not desperately in need of affection and I am enjoying my peace; but, this woman got me to think about her and want to know her better. That doesn't happen often to me, less than a handful of times.

Sorry for the ending, my friends won't like it. Even this woman cannot do it for me. The mistake I made in my life was giving up on love because I had it once and she is dead. If I were going to date again, it would have been this woman and I didn't and won't. I am done with the thought of dating. Done. It is sort of freeing, knowing that it doesn't matter who I meet. I know who I should have been with and she is dead. I can now decide how I want to spend my life with one less issue to deal with and I like that.