Wednesday, May 15, 2013

how do you find truth inside

I regularly check the stats on this blog, everytime I post, I check the stats. I don't fixate on it, I just look to see what people are searching and which posts are being read. I am always fascinated to find that people from other countries read it, it amazes me that Russians are the second most common group. Often I check to see which searches led people to my site. Today, I found the following search "how do you find truth inside" and it stopped me.

This blog is called "The Truth is Inside You" and someone wanted to know how to find the truth inside themselves and were led here. I think I want to answer their question, at least to the best of my ability. Who knows, maybe someone else will come here with the same question someday.

I called this blog, "The Truth is Inside You" because I believe it. The one thing that we can know is that we are, that we exist. It is an absolute truth and the only one that can be known absolutely. The nature of our existence is open to discussion, the fact of our existence is not. I began this blog (first iteration, since destroyed) by talking about the philosophical meaning of existence. Yes, the first iteration of this blog was very deep into philosophy and God. The second iteration was more about how the world system works. I destroyed that one too. Yet, for all this time the issue was about the truths that we can know and can assume and the deceit regarding what is true.

So, to the question. How do you find truth inside you? How does one find oneself? Whoever you are is your truth, not who I think you are and whoever you are is as important as any other person because we all have to live our own lives. We seek pleasure because this physical world is tough and has lots of unpleasurable things in it. Who we are is the collection of choices we make. The ones where we are selfless define us, the ones where we are selfish also define us and once we pass on, we are whoever we chose to be in making our choices.

To find the truth inside, you merely have to admit who you are. The challenge of life is to choose who you want to be and it doesn't have to be the same as who you are today. Babies are born completely selfish; but, they learn. The Peter Pan syndrome is all about not wanting to grow up, it is about wanting to remain forever selfish, a child.

The truth is not the mistakes you made (though it is part of it), the truth is not who want to be (though that is also part of it), the truth is who you choose to be and which battles you choose to fight and why. I've been called a lot of things in my life and many of them were and are true; but, it is only part of the story. I am everything I have thought, everything I have done and everything I have chose not to do.

I went to the store today, there was someone collecting money for the homeless shelter. I didn't know what was in my wallet, I thought I had a 5. Turned out I had two ones and an 20. I wanted to give five; but, had to make a choice. Should I give the two ones or the 20. I gave the 20, I made a choice and also decided to make sure I had 10s and 5s on me in the future. I give money to charity every day, just about literally everyday.

I had a friend, I loved him very much. He was one of the most sincere, dedicated and loving people I have ever known. I still miss him, he was older and passed away. The Pimpernel has been and is blessed with some of the best friends a man could ever wish for. I used to tell my friend that I was always where I was supposed to be when I supposed to be there. He understood it about me, he liked that about me. He was also a spiritual person. He understood what I meant. I don't choose who I am around very much, I let them choose me or not. I do not wish to fake who I am and don't want others to fake who they are. I don't want to control who others are; but, I don't want to be too long around people that are only negative. That is who I am partly, who knows who I will become; but, the choices I make will define who I am more than they could possibly define who others are. I cannot define others for themselves, I cannot define their choices or their reasons, they do that.

You don't find the truth inside you, you admit it. You are you and you make choices based on what you have faith in. Belief is a non-sense word, it just really is used to mean something you want to think is true. Faith means that you act on your belief. If you have faith that the moon is made of gold then you will spend all the money you can to go there and mine gold. If your beliefs do not effect your actions then you are lying to yourself about what you really believe.

We want to believe that we are good people. Most people lie to themselves about who they are. They tell themselves that they think others are just as important as they are and then vote to end food stamps or whatever might help someone else in need because it will hurt their pocketbook and someone else should be helping. At some point in time, who should help becomes irrelevant and who does help is all that the person in need knows.

How do you find the truth inside you, it is simple, stop lying to yourself about who you are and focus on who you want to be rather than focusing on who you want others to be. Create the you that you want to be and know that you will be imperfect, I haven't met a perfect person yet. I read that there is none good but God. The rest of us are all works in progress at least we hope we progress.