That was tough

Interesting night. I spoke at the church today, that was a different experience. I have spoke in public many times; but, have never given a talk at church. I haven't had a chance to really figure out how it went. There were only about 14 people there, a parking problem had prevented some others from coming. Like I said, it was just going to be a small gathering.

A slew of small things kept my Pastor friend busy so he barely got to hear me. That is kind of a bummer because I wanted to hear what he thought. One young lady, that shared dinner with us later, told me that it got her to think about things in a new way, that felt really good, she also said she was coming next week. Well, that's one.

A friend from work came, I really appreciated that as I know he has a church. He recently was told he would be preaching. One lady asked me for the address of my blog, I gave it to her. Her, her husband and their family are in my heart and prayers.

Now comes the anxiety, how many will show up again and how many will not because of what I have said. That is very worrisome. I think people enjoyed my approach, very conversational and people seemed to find it amusing. I like public speaking, I especially like it when I am talking about something that I am passionate about. When I can see in people's eyes that they get what I am saying and it has meaning to them, sometimes laughter is that recognition that we all got it.

Tonight was unlike any other talk I have given in public. Tonight it mattered, tonight was about souls, about people's hearts. I sure hop I did well.

DEXTER

Okay, I watch 12 hours of television a year. I watch Dexter. The day I left my house, the day I told my ex-wife that I was losing it and she told me it was my problem, I went to a friends apartment, that was the same day that Dexter put on it's first show. I didn't know where I was or what was going on and my friend sat me down in his living room in Santa Monica and put on the television, it was Dexter.

The show was amazing, no idea what was going to happen. The best writing on television and it distracted me, I have watched every show since. The show starts again on October 2nd, I am actually looking forward to watching it, always surprising.

Today I am giving a sermon, it will not be about Dexter. I don't know what it will be about. Pastor Daniels is on my mind, she drove every Sunday to a town far away on the chance that someone might show up. That is how I feel today, yet, I know there will be at least a few people there, she had a mighty faith and will be my inspiration today, I hope she knows that.

Your Best Hope For Us

So here is an easy question, what is the best we can do? Everyone wants to justify their actions, nobody wants to reach for what is best. What are we capable of? What is the best we can be? Find me an atheist that believes in the best we can do, not okay, not right, the best we can do. If you cannot then the best an atheist can do is take care of themselves. You live and you die, that is the best for them, a meaningless life, they might be nice but are incapable of greatness.