I want my readers to consider the question. What if I both love integrity and calm while feeling a need for emotion and joy? Which would be the best for me to be with, given the choice. Do we not seek out what we lack? Do we not seek to bridge the gaps in our being? I don't know if I can handle that. I don't know if I could handle being with someone with strong emotions and no buffer to their expressions. This post is not about the beautiful and enchanting Italian woman that I met, it is about choices.
I had a nice night. I found out that there were still some women that found me attractive, there are still women my age with bad eyesight and they can still find warmth in their hearts. That feels nice.