Do you ever wonder how others see you. I never did until I got older, didn't really care how they saw me, just found it interesting that people would have an opinion. I was surprised to find such a wide variety of perspectives about me. I once met a woman, we went to dinner in Palm Springs. She was very intelligent, well mannered and attractive. She told me she had never met anyone quite like me, I still wonder what she meant.
What is the old saying, no matter where you go, there YOU are. We are all works in progress; but, I only ever wanted to be me. I like title of my blog, "The truth is inside you". Your truth is inside you, the truth of who you want to be, what you become, not what you can have, your choices that define who you really are. You can justify the bad ones; but, for that moment, that was who you were.
Define yourself with your best rather than the cookies that the world throws at you. England seems to be redefining itself. 250,000 people protested in England. They were protesting the budget cuts. They feel too controlled and will fight for the last cookie. Be well.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Hi Friends
I have had an amazing week. I have not been able to post and it may be a few days before I can go back to posting regular. I will say that yesterday I had an adventure. I was stranded in the snow on top of a mountain. I was in a white out and stranded a mile high. I will tell you about it later; but, it was a true adventure. Be well.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Change of Plans
I was supposed to go somewhere today; but, as I was getting ready to leave had a visit from Fed Ex. They had the papers needed to return my house to the mortgage company. It also said that I had one week to get the papers in or it would be a foreclosure rather than a deed in lieu.
In order to get the documents ready I had to meet with my ex-wife. I thought she would be difficult again and wasn't too excited about the whole thing. My eldest made the arrangements, I met with the ex, everything was civil and I congratulated her on graduating school.
With these documents it is finally over. It has taken more than three years to put this horrible experience behind me. The notary we used was surprised that my ex had kept my last name. I just shook my head when she asked me because I don't understand. It doesn't really matter to me, the important thing is that we are no longer contractually connected except for some credit cards I have to pay off; but, she doesn't use them anymore. Well she also gets half my retirement so I guess we are contractually bound by my giving her money for the rest of my life; but, I don't have to actually do anything, my employer will send her the money when it is time and I won't even notice.
Basically my point was that it is over. When it began I was shocked then sad then angry and now it is in the past. I am not sure I have an emotion about it anymore. I don't know how to explain that. I can't say I am joyous and I can't say I am sad. I am more relieved than anything else, relieved that I can now make plans for myself. The house was the last thing tying me down to anything. I don't mean that I don't have connections and people that matter to me, I mean I can move around and live wherever I want. It feels good.
End games are always the most interesting. New games are fun; but, they are work, back to basics. What do I believe, what do I believe I should do and what do I need to do it. I am looking for a new victim, any takers? LMAO. I used to have so little time to think about solving problems and now I have all the time in the world. I need a challenge and it needs to be big.
When I saw my ex, I didn't feel anything other than dreading a problem. She looked okay, we didn't have any cross words and I just wanted to get it over with. It wasn't bad like going to the dentist, I just wanted to do what we had to do and return to my life. I don't hate her, she is just someone I knew now. I feel I can now maybe begin to think about having a serious relationship again; but, I don't feel a need to do anything about it. Right now it just feels good to be free.
I don't regret my choices. I don't regret that I married had kids or spent all of my efforts on them. I did what I believed in and still do. Still, I have never lived without being responsible for others. I don't mind responsibility, it is just nice to not have as much for awhile.
I got to see my ex-assistant and always friend this week. Actually, I had a big week I got to spend time with two of my friends. My ex-assistant is kicking some major rear end in his new job and I was very proud of how much he learned, it wasn't easy for him to work for me, how could it be? He came to work for me when it all began and will always be there.
Closing doors, we should always check ourselves when a door closes, make sure you brought your keys and your wallet. Make sure you have everything you need to go to the new place. I am good to go, I just need to pick a destination. I lost everything so I only have to bring my dog, my computer, a phone and some clothes. I can pick up the rest on the way. I travel light; but, I only travel by my rules.
Trips are better when we have a good traveling companion, I don't have one right now; but, I will. I will find someone who wants to go to where I am going, we will have to share that in common. A common purpose. Life is a journey and it is good to have an appropriate traveling partner. I wish everyone, including my ex-wife, to find the traveling partner that is best for both of them, it ain't me.
I lost a day. I can still do what I need to do this week; but, I lost a day. I didn't really lose it, it just wasn't what I had planned. I can now approach my week feeling that I have resolved some lingering issues and can move forward. I guess I lost a day and I gained my freedom. Be well.
In order to get the documents ready I had to meet with my ex-wife. I thought she would be difficult again and wasn't too excited about the whole thing. My eldest made the arrangements, I met with the ex, everything was civil and I congratulated her on graduating school.
With these documents it is finally over. It has taken more than three years to put this horrible experience behind me. The notary we used was surprised that my ex had kept my last name. I just shook my head when she asked me because I don't understand. It doesn't really matter to me, the important thing is that we are no longer contractually connected except for some credit cards I have to pay off; but, she doesn't use them anymore. Well she also gets half my retirement so I guess we are contractually bound by my giving her money for the rest of my life; but, I don't have to actually do anything, my employer will send her the money when it is time and I won't even notice.
Basically my point was that it is over. When it began I was shocked then sad then angry and now it is in the past. I am not sure I have an emotion about it anymore. I don't know how to explain that. I can't say I am joyous and I can't say I am sad. I am more relieved than anything else, relieved that I can now make plans for myself. The house was the last thing tying me down to anything. I don't mean that I don't have connections and people that matter to me, I mean I can move around and live wherever I want. It feels good.
End games are always the most interesting. New games are fun; but, they are work, back to basics. What do I believe, what do I believe I should do and what do I need to do it. I am looking for a new victim, any takers? LMAO. I used to have so little time to think about solving problems and now I have all the time in the world. I need a challenge and it needs to be big.
When I saw my ex, I didn't feel anything other than dreading a problem. She looked okay, we didn't have any cross words and I just wanted to get it over with. It wasn't bad like going to the dentist, I just wanted to do what we had to do and return to my life. I don't hate her, she is just someone I knew now. I feel I can now maybe begin to think about having a serious relationship again; but, I don't feel a need to do anything about it. Right now it just feels good to be free.
I don't regret my choices. I don't regret that I married had kids or spent all of my efforts on them. I did what I believed in and still do. Still, I have never lived without being responsible for others. I don't mind responsibility, it is just nice to not have as much for awhile.
I got to see my ex-assistant and always friend this week. Actually, I had a big week I got to spend time with two of my friends. My ex-assistant is kicking some major rear end in his new job and I was very proud of how much he learned, it wasn't easy for him to work for me, how could it be? He came to work for me when it all began and will always be there.
Closing doors, we should always check ourselves when a door closes, make sure you brought your keys and your wallet. Make sure you have everything you need to go to the new place. I am good to go, I just need to pick a destination. I lost everything so I only have to bring my dog, my computer, a phone and some clothes. I can pick up the rest on the way. I travel light; but, I only travel by my rules.
Trips are better when we have a good traveling companion, I don't have one right now; but, I will. I will find someone who wants to go to where I am going, we will have to share that in common. A common purpose. Life is a journey and it is good to have an appropriate traveling partner. I wish everyone, including my ex-wife, to find the traveling partner that is best for both of them, it ain't me.
I lost a day. I can still do what I need to do this week; but, I lost a day. I didn't really lose it, it just wasn't what I had planned. I can now approach my week feeling that I have resolved some lingering issues and can move forward. I guess I lost a day and I gained my freedom. Be well.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
I Dont Like This Post
Not long ago I posted about the FCC's plan to take over control of local public easements. When I first read about it, I was ticked. Too much federal control already. If done properly it could be a good thing. If it were done through regional transportation authorities, it keeps control local; but, reduce costs, give lots of money to cities, reduce their costs and improve the roads, something no city has done.
Most importantly to me, it would give millions of people jobs. If the fed takes the control they have to hire millions to do the work. The roads will be better, the cities will be better and it will be cheaper. I don't like giving up local control of anything, I am possessive. The roads are in terrible condition and will fail in the next 30 years if we don't do something now.
I had expected the fed to take over control of roads for awhile; but, I didn't see them using the FCC, that was brilliant, nobody even noticed what is going on. If they do take the control it will be a year before the court cases settle it and the pricing. This is too funny, the time it takes to prepare.
I have an affinity for streets. It is on streets that we meet each other, it is where we have the opportunity to travel, to go as we please. Tree lined streets are the best even if trees hurt sidewalks. The modern street system is the single greatest construction of all times. The pyramids are a joke compared to the street systems, gigantic paperweights, a testament to engineering, not usefulness. The great wall of China couldn't even do it's job, another testament to engineering. The street systems are what gets you fed and delivers your toys.
What is unique about the street system is that it's maintenance is not coordinated. Its construction wasn't even coordinated, people built the roads they needed and eventually the systems all got connected. It is the single greatest construction project in history nothing else can even compete. Take the total number of roads worldwide, the amount of materials and labor that went into it and how it effects every part of your life. It has such a great effect that we don't even think about it.
Most importantly to me, it would give millions of people jobs. If the fed takes the control they have to hire millions to do the work. The roads will be better, the cities will be better and it will be cheaper. I don't like giving up local control of anything, I am possessive. The roads are in terrible condition and will fail in the next 30 years if we don't do something now.
I had expected the fed to take over control of roads for awhile; but, I didn't see them using the FCC, that was brilliant, nobody even noticed what is going on. If they do take the control it will be a year before the court cases settle it and the pricing. This is too funny, the time it takes to prepare.
I have an affinity for streets. It is on streets that we meet each other, it is where we have the opportunity to travel, to go as we please. Tree lined streets are the best even if trees hurt sidewalks. The modern street system is the single greatest construction of all times. The pyramids are a joke compared to the street systems, gigantic paperweights, a testament to engineering, not usefulness. The great wall of China couldn't even do it's job, another testament to engineering. The street systems are what gets you fed and delivers your toys.
What is unique about the street system is that it's maintenance is not coordinated. Its construction wasn't even coordinated, people built the roads they needed and eventually the systems all got connected. It is the single greatest construction project in history nothing else can even compete. Take the total number of roads worldwide, the amount of materials and labor that went into it and how it effects every part of your life. It has such a great effect that we don't even think about it.
Odd Odds and Ends
I thought I might post links to some of the odder things out there. Consider this a "did you know that people believe this" type of thing. I am not advocating any of it just documenting.
The Hollow Earth
The Reptilian Agenda
Fish falling from the sky alive in an Australian desert
Ann Coutler believes high doses of radiation are good for you (huh?)
Nibiru, the tenth planet
Thought you might enjoy these sites. Have a great night.
The Hollow Earth
The Reptilian Agenda
Fish falling from the sky alive in an Australian desert
Ann Coutler believes high doses of radiation are good for you (huh?)
Nibiru, the tenth planet
Thought you might enjoy these sites. Have a great night.
Lets talk about Pornography
No we are going to be filthy, I want to talk about porn in a different way and for a different reason. Get your minds out of the gutter, this is Pimpernel not Hugh Hefner.
ICANN is the organization that determines domain names. They are the ones who give you a way to find something on the internet. They are controlled and paid for by the federal government. They rarely come up in the news so when they did I thought I might point it out.
ICANN has given a new designation to sites that have porn, the designation is xxx. This means that sites which have porn will have a separate designation making them easier to find and easier to block. I am not necessarily against this. Question is how it will be used and whether or not it is a blueprint for designating other types of sites, for instance controversial sites or mean sites (like the Nazis).
Will the use of the xxx be mandatory for adult sites and how will what is porn be determined? I said was coming a couple of years ago and was told I was paranoid, I am paranoid and it did happen. I am paranoid because people do plan and do regulate and it follows a pattern. It starts vague, attempts to "protect" children and then regulates small. After that it just increases in the regulations.
So what is pornography? It is not naked people according to many, There are many painting and sculptures of naked people that are considered art. What is the difference between a painting of a naked women and a movie of naked women? One justice of the supreme court said that porn may not be definable but he knew it when he saw it.
Are stories pornography? What about how to books? Is a book about how to have sex pornography? There are people who like to dress up like cute animals and have sex, they are called furries, would their websites be porn or comedy (not making fun of them but it is sort of amusing)? If I take a picture of my naked baby, is that porn? What if I send it to someone who finds it sexually arousing, the picture didn't change?
Once I grew up a little, enough to understand that boys and girls were different, the first naked breast I saw was of an African tribes woman. I could see that in school; but, I couldn't see it an American woman's breast in school because that was deemed inappropriate.
Perhaps the base question is wrong. The question should not be what is pornography but what should children be exposed to. Seeing breasts doesn't seem to have hurt people in the Amazon or the tribes people of Africa. What is different here?
I don't want to see people go to the bathroom, I want to be able to avoid seeing that on the internet. Is it pornography, I am not convinced it is; but, I don't want to see it. I think the issue for me is how can avoid seeing it.
If you search for images of certain things you are bound to find porn even when you are not looking for it. I used Yahoo to search for "breast", it returned 405,000,000 hits. Some were on breast cancer, some were on breast feeding and some were just pictures of breasts. I assume that if there were a xxx designation for websites I could block the ones that are "porn"; but, who would decide which pictures were obscene and which were okay. I mean the breast is going to look the same.
How bout this. Are feet pornographic? What about a site about foot fetishes, the foot didn't change. It is still just a foot and we can show those in public. Not long ago, and I wrote about it at the time, a professor had two students perform a naked sex act in his college room. Was that right or wrong.
I haven't seen many porno films and I don't frequent strip joints. Not my thing. In college they showed "Deep Throat". I had never seen a porno film and went with some people I knew. I found it boring and stupid. It was hailed as the first mainstream porn film, I thought that was just an excuse and still do.
There was a video of a guy who was captured by terrorists and had his head cut off and filmed. It was all over the internet, I haven't and don't intend to watch it. I don't need to see that, I understood what happened. Reading about it was bad enough, I didn't need to see it. I found that to be pornography.
In general what is pornography seems to be linked to the society one is in. Each society finds something obscene and there is no agreement. It would be hard to define porn in America anymore with what is shown on television and at the movies. Children who watch MTV reality shows see endless images of people making out and having sex.
We have had "porn" for as long as there have been people. It must meet some need. I like looking at women, I find them attractive. I like women's legs. I wrote about one woman's legs. Women look different then men and we like the way they look. I don't want to see my daughters naked, no thank you very much, they are grown women. Is this inconsistent, not for me.
I have seen many babies naked, it is cute. Their little baby butts; but, I don't find it cute when they are older. I have changed many diapers, once they are out of diapers I believe they should learn to keep some things private. How can we promote this in our children if we are watching porn?
Lots of questions and few answers. These questions have been in and out of the supreme court and their answers keep changing. I don't think ICANN will find the answers any easier than the supreme court has.
ICANN is the organization that determines domain names. They are the ones who give you a way to find something on the internet. They are controlled and paid for by the federal government. They rarely come up in the news so when they did I thought I might point it out.
ICANN has given a new designation to sites that have porn, the designation is xxx. This means that sites which have porn will have a separate designation making them easier to find and easier to block. I am not necessarily against this. Question is how it will be used and whether or not it is a blueprint for designating other types of sites, for instance controversial sites or mean sites (like the Nazis).
Will the use of the xxx be mandatory for adult sites and how will what is porn be determined? I said was coming a couple of years ago and was told I was paranoid, I am paranoid and it did happen. I am paranoid because people do plan and do regulate and it follows a pattern. It starts vague, attempts to "protect" children and then regulates small. After that it just increases in the regulations.
So what is pornography? It is not naked people according to many, There are many painting and sculptures of naked people that are considered art. What is the difference between a painting of a naked women and a movie of naked women? One justice of the supreme court said that porn may not be definable but he knew it when he saw it.
Are stories pornography? What about how to books? Is a book about how to have sex pornography? There are people who like to dress up like cute animals and have sex, they are called furries, would their websites be porn or comedy (not making fun of them but it is sort of amusing)? If I take a picture of my naked baby, is that porn? What if I send it to someone who finds it sexually arousing, the picture didn't change?
Once I grew up a little, enough to understand that boys and girls were different, the first naked breast I saw was of an African tribes woman. I could see that in school; but, I couldn't see it an American woman's breast in school because that was deemed inappropriate.
Perhaps the base question is wrong. The question should not be what is pornography but what should children be exposed to. Seeing breasts doesn't seem to have hurt people in the Amazon or the tribes people of Africa. What is different here?
I don't want to see people go to the bathroom, I want to be able to avoid seeing that on the internet. Is it pornography, I am not convinced it is; but, I don't want to see it. I think the issue for me is how can avoid seeing it.
If you search for images of certain things you are bound to find porn even when you are not looking for it. I used Yahoo to search for "breast", it returned 405,000,000 hits. Some were on breast cancer, some were on breast feeding and some were just pictures of breasts. I assume that if there were a xxx designation for websites I could block the ones that are "porn"; but, who would decide which pictures were obscene and which were okay. I mean the breast is going to look the same.
How bout this. Are feet pornographic? What about a site about foot fetishes, the foot didn't change. It is still just a foot and we can show those in public. Not long ago, and I wrote about it at the time, a professor had two students perform a naked sex act in his college room. Was that right or wrong.
I haven't seen many porno films and I don't frequent strip joints. Not my thing. In college they showed "Deep Throat". I had never seen a porno film and went with some people I knew. I found it boring and stupid. It was hailed as the first mainstream porn film, I thought that was just an excuse and still do.
There was a video of a guy who was captured by terrorists and had his head cut off and filmed. It was all over the internet, I haven't and don't intend to watch it. I don't need to see that, I understood what happened. Reading about it was bad enough, I didn't need to see it. I found that to be pornography.
In general what is pornography seems to be linked to the society one is in. Each society finds something obscene and there is no agreement. It would be hard to define porn in America anymore with what is shown on television and at the movies. Children who watch MTV reality shows see endless images of people making out and having sex.
We have had "porn" for as long as there have been people. It must meet some need. I like looking at women, I find them attractive. I like women's legs. I wrote about one woman's legs. Women look different then men and we like the way they look. I don't want to see my daughters naked, no thank you very much, they are grown women. Is this inconsistent, not for me.
I have seen many babies naked, it is cute. Their little baby butts; but, I don't find it cute when they are older. I have changed many diapers, once they are out of diapers I believe they should learn to keep some things private. How can we promote this in our children if we are watching porn?
Lots of questions and few answers. These questions have been in and out of the supreme court and their answers keep changing. I don't think ICANN will find the answers any easier than the supreme court has.
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