Wednesday, March 9, 2011

More Dead Fish

So millions of fish died in Redondo Beach from suffication. The guess is that there was too many fish in one place at one time and they used up all the oxygen. That is what they are claiming. That is ridiculous, simply irrational. If the oxygen in the ocean had dropped you would see a complete variety of fish. Lets also consider how this is going on all over the world at the same time.

What do you bet that we see more of this? I ask again, what is going on and how come we don't know the truth? There was also a 7.2 earthquake in Japan and no damage, how does that occur?

For the past couple of days I have sort of just been pondering, not really focused on anything. I read the news and it is more of the same. There was one story about how lakes in Australia were glowing green at night with pictures. That was kind of funny.

Are we living in the new normal, a normal where the impossible happens on a daily basis? We are entering an era where people are not surprised by anything and accept everything. The "alternative media" is just as predictable as the traditional media. Alex Jones, David Icke, Above Top Secret... all say the same thing, heck, they post the same reposts. They have nothing new to offer, most are just twisting things that Bill Cooper exposed years ago.

What insanity can I post that exceeds the insanity of the normal news? If I post it nobody will believe it; but, if the same thing is posted on Alex Jones then millions will believe it, how is that different than the traditional media.

Today is ash Wednesday. Lets talk about that for a second. Ash Wednesday is the first day of lent. It is supposed to be the day that Jesus spent 40 days fasting in the desert and that then he was tempted by Satan. Tradition teaches that we are to fast and repent, not so sure I agree with tradition. While I only eat one meal a day and that qualifies as fasting to most of the churches, I am not intentionally doing it, I just don't get that hungry anymore, I am guessing my metabolism is slow. If I don't fast by intent then it is not a fast. As for repentance, I did that long ago, I am not new to Christianity.

But, lets look beyond the tradition to what it is remembering. Jesus spent 40 days in the desert before beginning his public ministry. Why? Why did he need to be alone in the desert before going public, maybe he needed some time to himself before he would be surrounded by people, maybe (being human also) he needed a rest before the real work began, that would be a very human thing.

While in the desert it says the Devil tempted him, people so misunderstand that. The temptation was the offer, it does not mean that the choice was even remotely difficult for Jesus. When I lived in Santa Monica after separating from my wife, I had women hit me up on a daily basis and they were very attractive (don't ask me why, I have no idea, you would have to ask them). I never felt tempted as I was attempting to reconcile. By Satan attempting to "tempt" Jesus, he just showed that he wasn't that smart. He didn't understand humans or the nature of God, no individual sentient being could and that is the message.

If you are tempted then abstinence is a good way to show yourself that you can control your urges and I support you. If you have a problem with overeating then the blessing of this time is that you can prove to yourself that you can control your eating, if you have a problem with anything then this is a good time to see that you can avoid your urges and that is empowering. You have to know what you are capable of before you can know who you want to be. Wow, that is a mind blower.

If you haven't tested yourself, how can you know what you are capable of. That is my problem with this world of people who wish to be pampered, to live in excess, to only have ease. They need to fast and abstain, it might teach them something about themselves. If you already know and have done it then I don't think you need to fast from the same thing every year. When you have lost everything you get the freedom to know yourself. Security is an illusion, control is an illusion and death is an illusion. You can see that when you have lost everything and lived it.

Losing is even more important that winning in terms of learning. Charlie Sheen chants, "winning" and believes that is the end all and be all, what you get versus what you learn, having versus being, growing versus having it all. What would you choose, so many people want to win the lottery and think that will make them happy and so few are when they do. Happiness is an unending series of growth that allows you to see the world in a grain of sand.

We cannot give everyone everything; but, we can create a virtual world where they can feel empowered and that will be enough for most. There was a "Twilight Zone" (not Twilight the movie) where a petty criminal is killed. He arrives at a place he believes to be Heaven, in this place he gets everything he wants, women, money, the finest penthouse, everything he ever wanted. When he gambles he only wins. After a while he wants variety because there is no challenge, nothing to work for, nothing to attain and therefore no reason to learn. He is told by his "angel" that he is not in heaven, he is in hell. Close to the truth.

Perhaps this earth, this reality, is here to challenge us, to see how much we can take, how much we are committed to being us, how good we can be and how bad we can be, after that we could define ourselves, our urges, our beliefs, our intent; but, we could do it knowing our limitations. Informed consent. Life is short but choosing who we are is eternity. Remember my first post on the first version of this blog, we are sentient beings and that is all that we know exists.

We should be challenged; but, the challenges need not crush us or be too simple, we should be challenged as we are ready to be challenged. That is the goal of life. Not the easy life, the life that lets us know the most about us. The goal of life is to have the decision making power over who we will be in our eternity. This life was not a challenge for Jesus, it is a challenge for us. He showed us what we could be, we decide what we will be. How far do you wish to push yourself and how much do you want comfort?

Humility is a funny thing, we should all be humble; but, we should all be bold about being ourselves. That is the Charlie Sheen enigma. He is all about having everything he wants and believes that defines him, the stuff he has. We are not defining ourselves by what we have. That defines what we are willing to give up to get stuff. He wasn't this bold when he was coming up. The person that impresses me is the person who has nothing and is bold about their limitations and boundaries. The one who is willing to have nothing in exchange for having everything, themselves, self-determination.

People whine and cry that life is hard, they should celebrate it. Every challenge is the chance to define your true self. I have heard people tell me how bold they are and then when challenged I have watched them fold like paper cups. Here is a question for my readers, if you were being tested by Satan in the desert and he offered you to be king of the earth, to have everything if you worshiped him, would you do it. Only you know the answer; but, did you pause and consider it? If you did define yourself then this was an easy question. Now lets look at what Satan offered to Jesus, the world. Jesus had already defined himself and it wasn't even an issue.

Jesus is the best we could possibly be, a goal; but, we are only human and must work to even be close. If we seek easy then we never even know what we can be. Be all that you can and chose to be. Be well.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Short Post on Todays News

Everything is fine in the world, the things I discuss are just anomalies. Really, how about millions of dead fish in Los Angeles, read the article and look at the pictures, tell me this is normal. I don't know what is causing all the strange animal deaths and attacks; but, it is NOT normal and if you tell yourself it is then you are just lying to yourself, good luck with that, it is not going to stop and it is not global warming.

As for my comments regarding the sheep taking over because the corruption is no longer sustainable, here is a nice article from England. Guess what, sheep cannot manage anything and when they take over, things only get worse and it is pretty bad already. Sheep don't have answers. You have to earn freedom by being righteous yourself rather than greedy.

You want to read about who believes in the "New World Order", how about Iran.

Oh, my take on Charlie Sheen's continued presence in the media. It is a message to not be such a douche bag. I can admire a no quit attitude; but, not when it is just about you, that is a selfish scumbag attitude. Life is not about you winning, it is about US winning and he only cares about himself. What if the a-hole was actually committed to helping others rather than getting all he can get for himself, same question to everyone else on the planet.

Just reading the news today, have fun.

Monday, March 7, 2011

My Friend and My Dinner

I am one of the most blessed people ever, I have the best friends that one could ask for. I got to spend time with one of them tonight. I treasure the time I get to spend with my friends, they have kept me going when my wife and children were not there for me. I don't blame my ex or kids, I just appreciate the people who were there for me.

I got off work and decided to cruise the boulevard, I really just wanted to think. I stopped at a restaurant and got out, I sent a text to my housemate saying I was going to get dinner, then, my friend called, he invited me to dinner at a place that I love. I immediately agreed, heck, I figured he would probably pay anyways and I am broke.

We ate and then we went and got coffee. I spoke to his wife on the phone, she had been such a blessing to me and is the love of his life and he, hers. I hope he has her read this, she is shy when I tell her how special she is; but, she is very special to me because of her loving and giving heart. She gives me hope, hope that I can have such a love someday. That is one of the things about my friends, they prove that one can have a loving and committed relationship. Hope.

My dear friend stayed up so late talking to me, he knew I was a little sad. I cannot ever explain how well my friends held me up when I had nothing left, I was broken and lost, I had lost something integral to me, my purpose. I have never been without purpose and when I lost my passion I knew I had to find it again. My therapist reads this sometimes and knows what I am saying. Yes, I have a therapist and I like him as a person and enjoy talking to him about what a whack job I am. God brought him to me, same as he does for everyone in our lives.

Why don't we have a best friends day? We have Valentine's day. Why can't we have a day where we celebrate our closest friends? Because we have all kind of friends and we can't rate them. If we did, I couldn't rate my friends, they are all great and important to me. I wouldn't want them to rate their friends either, what is the point of rating love? You cannot rate love, it is or it is not.

My friend and I talked for hours, I had the freedom to discuss the things in my life that made the least amount of sense, the things in my life that made no sense and the things in my life that scared me. I could discuss these things without fear of laughter or ridicule, there is nothing but true concern in his heart. That is freedom, freedom to hear your own words and decide for yourself if you are losing it or off track because he would call me on it rather than ask how it impacted him. That friends is love.

When most people talk about love, they are talking about sex, not love. Love is a concern for other people that leads us to give up our own comfort for them, that is love. It is a concern for others that leads us to ignore our prejudices and be more concerned for others. That concern leads us to give up things we want in exchange for having a relationship with them. Love is never judgemental, it is giving and puts up with a heck of a lot.

I have other friends, I have two brothers who I consider like family also. I am living in their apartment building. One of them reads this and knows who he is. DON'T COMMENT ON THIS POST. I have many special friends. I don't know why they would put up with me, I am not every one's "cup of tea". The friend I saw tonight gave me a pretty good answer to that question and as I love him, how could disagree with the truth?

We all screw up, regularly. We also all make some good decisions, friends look at your good decisions, friends root for your success, friends hope you get better, friends hope you are happy, friends know who you are, good and bad. Friends are friends.

I cherish my time with friends and family that care about how I feel rather than if I make mistakes (I do). I cherish the time I get to spend with people who I can tell what I really think, while I am still working out the alternatives. I cherish the time I have with friends where I can do the same for them, it is never a burden, it is a blessing. I cherish my friends and family.

My friend, who took me to dinner, asked me a question about dating and love. He wanted to see me happy and dating again, searching so that I could find love and heal. I had to tell him that I was not going to date, that I was going to wait until the love of my life appeared. That is where I am at, I can no longer accept anything less than the one that completes me, that helps me to define me, not by them; but, by there support of defining me and the one that I can support in their definition of them. That requires that we agree on what we are and what we want to become.

I am going to plug a restaurant and get nothing in return, nor do I want anything. If you are ever in Los Angeles, go to Brent's Delicatessen, you will not be disappointed. I don't think being my friend is the best thing in the world, it is not the funnest; but, I do believe that the best people in the world are my friends and that is pretty awesome.

I heard about a television show tonight, It is called something like "Spartacus, gods of the arena". I read up about it, it sounds like pornography to me. It is a show that allows watchers to see even worse than the Romans saw at the Coliseum, it shows sex and the worse violence and gore that can be shown. This is why I don't watch television. I don't want to see people being harmed, it is not exciting to me even if it is just a movie.

By the way young man, it is coming for me and it is close and that is why I am anxious. I don't know what to say when it does, I am afraid of the yes more than the no and am very confused. I am scared because it means I was right again and I still don't particularly like the answers. I am scared, not for me; but, for what it all means, the answers. Sorry kids, some of this is for everyone and some is just for him.

What scares me is "what if I am right?" What do I do then? It sucks when you would rather be wrong than right, that is a hard pill to take. Still, the game must proceed and we must give what we have or we are sheep. I am not a very good sheep, I have opinions and I have decisions and will make them and play them to the river if I think I am right. That is who and what I am, that is not negotiable; but, I still get tired sometimes. I can live with that, I give myself better than 50/50 and would bet much worse odds for a chance at a win.

With that inane post I end tonight. Be well, you matter and life can be interesting if we allow ourselves the chance to be true to be true to ourselves, be you, be true to your beliefs and heart, be you. Have a great week and day.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Sorry

I was getting better at posting, I have had nothing but phone calls tonight and don't have a thought in my head. I could talk about Charlie Sheen and his moral compass, lets do that. What do you think of Charlie Sheen, what is his life choice.

He was born to a famous actor, became an actor and made lots of money. He used the money to have it "all", sex, drugs, rock and roll, travel, blah, blah, blah. As he publishes his promotion of "winning", having it all, does anyone remember the movie "Wall Street" where the person he ends up fighting against, the one that said, "Greed is good". I guess in real life, Charlie agrees with him. He is the opposite of the good guy he thinks he is and portrayed in the movie, that is the lie of a lifetime.

Charlie's message is "win", get what you want, have it all, nothing matters but you, you are the greatest, you are a rock star, you matter more than anyone else (everyone else is a "troll"). The man has no moral compass whatsoever, it is all about him and people are supporting him because they feel the same way.

There is a part of the bible I never understood until just now. In Revelations it says that Jesus will reign on earth for 1,000 years and that some will revolt along with Satan. I wondered how, if living under Jesus' rule, people could possibly revolt, when life is fair. The answer is that many of us do not want fair, we want more and don't care about how it impacts others, that is the mother of all lies.

The concept of deserving, is the lie, it is the concept that you deserve more than someone else and the world is built upon it. Nobody wants what they deserve, you are not perfect so you deserve less than perfection. Try that one on. Charlie Sheen believes that because he made others money that he should be allowed to do anything he wants. Kids, I made more money for others than he did and I don't feel that way. He has not made over $2 billion for others, check the costs for what he made, $2 billion is not profit, mine was.

What is more important, to do the right thing for the right reason or to achieve whatever you believe winning is? What do you want to be, the person who "wins" or the person who gets nothing except to know that they did the right thing? That is just about the last question I have for this blog. It is pretty close. Be well.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

On a side note

Crusing the web and reading the news I came across this article. It talks about a professor who allowed two students to get naked and the man then pleasured his partner with a sex toy in front of 100 students. The professor does not understand why people might find this offensive. That is what we have devolved to in regards to privacy and sexuality.

I don't know about you but I wouldn't send my kid to college to watch people have sex in public, I send them to learn a skill. The funny part is that the professor can't understand how someone might find this offensive, he just doesn't get it, he apparently has no boundries, at least not where it comes to other people.

Need I Say More

Last night I posted about the stories on multiple suns in the sky and asked what would surprise you. How bout this coming out today. I like how they ignore the other occurrances that have happened in the last month. I bet nobody other than the scientists are surprised.

On a completely different note. Lets talk about home loans. I have opined that even though the nation is threatened with millions of foreclosures, the truth is, they don't want people to leave their houses. In one of the previous versions of this blog I spoke about the HOPE loan which basically cuts your principal in half. This means that your payment is equivalent to what you had been paying with an interest only payment, that means most people could keep their homes, not me, I got divorced.

Today an article came out which talked about this in a different way. There is a company called MERS, it apparently controls 50% of all home loans and was created by Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac (which are both owned by the federal government, I guess this means that MERS is owned by the fed). I want you to read this linked article. Rather than asking how it effects you or how you can use the information, ask yourself what it means to the nation.

Friday, March 4, 2011

What Would Surprise You?

I think anyone who has read my blog knows that I think there are too many anomalies happening in this current age. In my opinion much of what we are seeing does not make apparent sense. The "scientists" and "experts" give tortured explanations that even average people know don't sound right. Still, we just sit there and wait for the next lie. So here is my question, what would surprise you, what could happen that you would say, "Well that doesn't make any sense?"

Today I watched a video of two suns in Russia, a week or so ago I saw a video with three suns in the sky (I think it was from China) and then not long ago I posted the article about the scientist who say we may have two suns in our sky like from Star Wars if Beetlejuice supernovas. We will add to this the articles about how the sun didn't have any sun spots for two years and then had a tremendous blast a couple of weeks ago that missed the earth. These solar events we are told are perfectly normal and everyone just accepts that.

How bout earth events? All these earthquakes, volcanoes and the shifting of the magnetic poles. These seem like everyday occurances. Oh, I forgot and the earth got bigger. The multiple stories of bird and fish deaths seem normal don't they. When the first two occurred we were told these things happen on occassion; but, what about now where dozens and dozens of these things have occurred, still seem normal, maybe the new normal.

What about politics, is that normal? Naah, it is not normal. Revolution everywhere at the same time. Government attempting to track your every activity. And yes, 9-11 was an inside job, that should be obvious to anyone who watched Bldg 7 collapse or even attempts to look at what happened at the pentagon. Is that normal?

We could also talk about the economic realities that are emerging, a whole new monetary system is coming, heck it is almost here and we will have a new reserve currency. We could also look at all the strange new animals that were discovered in the past two years or the myriad of strange animal attacks. None of this is normal and it all happening at the same time is definately against the odds.

Now rather than believe that things will go back to normal, I want to know what could happen that would be the final straw for you believing that we are not living in very strange times? If an alien landed would you find that sufficiently bizaree or would you just accept that there are other life forms in the universe? Okay, not bizarre enough, what if they said they were from an alternate universe or were from the future, would that be weird enough? Probably not, huh, you would demand that it was inevitable because we have been told it is a possibility; but that is nonsense.

Here is the point, the vast majority of people have been trained to believe that anything is possible. What does that mean, it means we will accept any explanation of reality so long as an expert tells us. We have a society that is skeptical of everything and believes everything at the same time. How did we get here?

Do we have core beliefs anymore? What would they be and do we agree on them? Do we agree on anything anymore, is there anything that we "Americans" agree on? I don't think so, not anymore. We can't even agree on what we want the world of tomorrow to look like.

There are even people who believe that our world leaders are reptilian aliens spirits that are controlling humans. I kid you not. While ten years ago almost nobody took the Illuminati seriously, how many people believe it today? A bunch and a whole lot of people think they are out to kill most of us, it just isn't going to happen, I promise.

I am going to say something contradictory. I believe in paranoia, paranoia is your friend. Having said that, I think you need to still use good logic in evaluating threats and their likelihood. That is the problem with the current world, what we are seeing is too unlikely to happen all at the same, so people will accept anything as being reasonable, don't do that. Don't get caught in that trap.

My advice, no matter what you perceive, no matter what you experience, no matter what you believe, no matter what the experts tell you, go through the logic and probability check list. Lets discuss the checklist.

All experience is subjective. That is to say the only thing we can "know" is that we exist. We perceive and experience, a world, others, our perception and knowledge of these others is limited. Our ability to perceive is limited. Therefore the first question when we are evaluating anything is how much do we trust our senses in regards to understanding a perceived event or truth.

If we do not trust our senses (poor eyesight, poor hearing...) that might cause us to be more skeptical or our ability to know the answer. If we trust our senses and sanity then the next step is to ask how much confirming evidence we have for our belief. For most of us, most of what we believe is based on spoken testimony by others; but, we know others lie. Still, if everybody agrees then most will believe the same. That means they stopped investigating and are sheep.

The next step is to look at totality, look at all the information you know, not just the stuff related to the question, look at nature. Does the answer conform to how nature works? It is really a good question, unnatural things require more evidence. They require unnatural evidence and that is what we have a surplus of at the moment. That is the widget that does not fit, too much unnatural evidence and facts at the same time are required to explain the world we are in. That is just not right.

Tell me I am wrong. We get many visitors each day, any of you willing to say things are right? My guess is not or you wouldn't be reading this. I am not telling people that things make sense, I am telling them that things do not make sense. If you don't like that answer, you are probably better off not reading this blog, I have no quotas, I jsut say what I think.

Everybody sees the world through a filter, my current filter says nothing makes sense and we are at the end of this game, don't forget I am a Christian. Only a retard that claimed to be a Christian could say that things don't line up with the Bible. NonChristians can believe what they want. Still, the move towards a one world government and currency probably makes them pause and reconsider their position.

I have thousands of hits on this site, I have a couple dousin a day, tell me, any of you that you believe that nothing is going on that is unusal. Tell me that you have read the bible and don't at least wonder why the world if fitting a pattern. Tell me. Tell me that things are normal. I want to hear it and if you can't then we have a problem, things are not the way they should be. Now, how do we make sense of that?

It is very late and I am getting tired; but, things are still ridiculous in this world, tell me they are not, tell me things make sense, if you cannot then we need to come up with a new paradigm, pick one. LOL.