You have to see this

Grand Rapids, Michigan. Many towns are taking a beating, Michigan has been particularly hard hit. A number of residents of Grand Rapids wanted to promote their town and let people know they still have a lot to give and haven't given up on themselves, a link to the article. I highly recommend you watch the whole video.

Happy Smiley Face

Regular readers know that I got divorced and ended up with most of the debt. Well, I got a substantial tax return and was able to pay off two credit cards and now will be cancelling them. I also am paying off my final bill to my lovely attorney. That makes this guy feel fantastic. I had no intention of filing bankruptcy.

I may be broke again at the moment; but, I will have my car and the last credit cards all paid off within a year and a half. I am also free of the house that the court left me with. It feels nice to have less problems to deal with. I feel as if I am finally getting some control over my life again. For the past few years it was always about other people's problems and trying to surf through mine.

Lets do a Pimpernel checkup. Health, much better. Finances, on track. Living situation, priceless. Mental health, still crazy after all these years and loving it. Relationship, taking a break and relaxing. Writing skills, you decide. Work, I get to retire in three years. Future, God always gives me what I need. I would say my life has vastly improved, not all at once; but, bit by bit to a point where I feel calm. Friends, the best in the world.

Now what fools thought I wouldn't get back up, that I had finally been done in, that prepared to celebrate my demise and destruction. They always underestimate the Pimpernel. They seek him here, they seek him there, that darned elusive Pimpernel. Still standing and still annoying and still calling it the way I see it. I am still me, they couldn't take that away.

Oh, still dangerous also. Some people would be well advised to stop lying to the press, Pimpernel might just speak up; but, I have been told there is no need, those who lie are already hanging themselves because someone else has proof and they told me so. Naughty, naughty, somebody is going to get spanked and then have to go away, no retirement for them I guess.

The Future of Marriage

Here is an article about seven celebrities who believe marriage is outdated. This type of justification is becoming more and more common, the belief that people are incapable of remaining faithful. It is garbage, I was never unfaithful. We are not animals, we are humans and history has proven that we can remain faithful, many choose not to; it is a conscious decision on their part.

People do lots of selfish things, they steal, they lie, they kill one another. Does that mean that we accept the justifications that they use after getting caught? People will say that marriage is outdated, I didn't know it came with an expiration date. They talk as if we have advanced past commitment, that fidelity is unrealistic. It is garbage, what they are really saying is that they don't want to be in a committed relationship, that they are too selfish to commit to another. Fine, just say that there is no need to justify their actions. It is like when criminals say they are just like any other businessmen, they are not.

Divorce is expensive, hurtful and takes an emotional toll. It is even worse when people have young children. There are times when we may be unevenly yolked; but, that doesn't justify adultery. We are telling people that their contracts, agreements are meaningless, not just marriage, debt also. We will not improve this country or world by making meaningless agreements, we will trust each other less.

An Eye for a Free Pass

Its a cookie or a stick, which would you prefer. Wait, that cookies is just a smaller stick, it only looks like a cookie because you hit me with a bigger stick already.

An Eye opening article.


As you get groped and scanned this holiday weekend, flying wherever to celebrate the people who died for our freedoms, wait, you will have your freedom violated to celebrate those who died for our freedom, something seems wrong here. Nobody likes being groped and scanned; but, they have gone along with it mostly. Now they are telling you that there is an easier way; but, they won't use it because of privacy concerns, they want your eyes biometrics, eye scanners.

We won't grab your child's privates if you let us scan their eye and put it in a national database, um actually an international database. Will you trade the grope for the eye scan? Once implemented as a choice, it will eventually become mandatory. See they will bring the scanners here because people will prefer, frequent travelers will for sure.

Don't jump to how you feel about it, it doesn't matter and that is not good thinking. Think about the consequences of having eye scanners at airports. Think about how the database will be used for other things.

Now lets talk about Revelations. In the book of Revelations it says that one day a mark will be required of everyone to buy and sell. People assume that everything is fine up until that point, that is not logical. Before people would take a mark, they would have already given up their privacy. The mark just seals the deal (lol, get it, seals).

Biometrics (being identified by your unique physical characteristics) will be the "new nomal". It will mean that you don't need an rfid chip. You didn't really want the chip anyways and they knew that. Rattle up the sheep, let them think they found a way around it. Nope, the solution that was wanted in the first place.

A few of the readers of this blog know me in person, some are business associates. One, reads it and I didn't know they still did. I did post here about how Google was going into the utilities field and then they did. I do understand how things work and how to move people.

I got an e-mail from facebook today. I have an account with no information and I have never used it, one friend and I decline all other requests. The e-mail said that I had friends on facebook that I hadn't added. It had six of them, I did know one of them. I dated her two and a half years ago, we dated 13 times in one year, never even kissed, it was more someone to have a nice dinner with. I have not seen here in a year and a half and we never communicated on facebook. I don't know how many people are on facebook; but, I know it is a lot. How did they pick her? Makes me wonder. Wait, I met her on Match.com, actually she contacted me. Only person I ever met on Match, I quit it long ago. Actually right after I met her. Lovely and intelligent lady; but, I could never figure out what she was looking for and I don't think I knew what I was looking for, nice companion for dinner and that is all either of us were ready for, didn't know it at the time. I should mention that I never dated more than one person at a time.

Anyways, I have to conclude that facebook may have data mined Match.com and other sites. How would you like all the women you dated to have your facebook page? Maybe you don't care, as the head of facebook said, privacy is outdated and overrated.

Well, I guess the eyes have it and I think this post is about done. Sorry, I didn't sleep much last night, got up early and had to take my youngest to the airport. The flight was cancelled, oh well, maybe they can bring in the eye scanner and it will make it easier tomorrow. They rescheduled her flight. We went to breakfast at a famous local place. The waitress (about my age) was a very pleasant and cute Asian lady, she seemed to have taken a shine to me, kept trying to touch me and engage me in more conversation. Clearly she had forgotten her glasses at home and did not get the laser surgery to correct her vision. I would hate to be a single lady at my age.

There are plenty of beautiful, intelligent and well employed single young ladies out there that want a normal relationship with a stable and calm man. Stable is debatable; but, calm and quiet in person very much describes me. I have been told that the pickings are rather thin for women over 40, most never marry again. I think that is a shame, I only dated women over 40 because they have so much more to give, nice and experienced in life, holding their own opinions. Here is to women over 40, you go girl. LOL.

Someone Posted a Comment Tonight

It was their first time anywhere. I am so glad that they did, glad they said what they thought. I don't think I know the person, don't know if they know me (don't think so) and don't know how long they have been reading the blog; but, they spoke up.

I want to say something, I don't care if a comment is smart or dumb or proven or unproven, I have restrictions; but, this is not a spelling test. That is not what matters. I write a lot, very confident in my writing and style. I don't spell or grammar check, don't care that much. I will correct mistakes if I see them. Not everyone has written as much as me and I know that, this is not a English test, it is a blog and I don't want to think people cannot post if they are not great writers. Please don't put that on yourselves.

Was exchanging with a woman in Mexico on a chat site tonight (not a lover, a loved one). I understand her, her English is not perfect; but, it is really good and I know what she means. I was always shy; but, not about expressing my opinions. We shouldn't be shy about that. Be well.

The Human Mind

A new study into babies thinking is amazing people. Infant minds. Of course babies understand that things are real and don't pop in and out of reality. We are born fully sentient, fully self aware, it is one of the evidences that consciousness exists apart from matter.

Odd

Blogger is not showing any followers to this site. We had 9, somehow I don't believe everyone stopped reading at the same time. I wonder if this means that those who were logged in as followers will not get updates when I do post?

Anonymous Comments Welcomed

Just a quick note. This blog allows anonymous comments, you don't have to sign in, you don't have to identify yourself and you don't have to be on the list of followers, anyone can leave a comment. All comments are moderated by me so I feel you have used inappropriate language or have said something attacking a group wrongfully, I will not post it; but, I will comment on why I have not posted a comment. I have not had a problem with this, I want to encourage others to comment by explaining that they don't have to identify themselves to me or anyone else. Having said that, feel free to comment.

She was right

A friend of mine had read this blog and noted that it appeared my libido was kicking in and then I had a dream where I rejected such a thing. She was right, it is kicking in again and I don't want it to.

Four of us went to a bar/restaurant today to chat. The very attractive bartender that had appeared to flirt with me, yeah, she came all the way over from the other side and gave me a big smile, wave and chatted me up. It was apparent to all that she liked me. Ouch, she is very, very pretty and not too young, about 40; but, could pass for much younger.

I think since I moved and don't have the nightmarish commute, I have let my guard down, I have allowed myself to re-engage and move on. Four years is a long time and some intimate female companionship would certainly be appreciated; but, I am not ready. It would be insincere on my part and I would feel horrible afterwards, http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gifI would feel I had used another and I just can't do that.

I would not respect myself if I acted like Swarzenegger, that is not me nor is it who I wish to be. That doesn't mean I don't have the same urges or drives, I do and they haven't been met in quite awhile. They will continue to not be met till I am ready and with a person who will be my partner for life.

Today there was an article about a new reality show, it is going to be called "Bedroom Community" and is about swingers. Couples that have sex with other couples or with random people in groups. I know someone who is involved in such activities; but, he is single.

I don't watch television so it doesn't impact me directly, I do however find it disgusting and another reason why our culture is dying. I am not talking about the activity, I am talking about putting it on television as acceptable, promoting it to young adults. People's sex life is none of my business and I am not the morality police, I do however think we are teaching children that we don't have to manage our urges.

It would be nice if we taught children that they can grow up into adults and manage their emotions and urges. That would be a good thing and we can. Dear friendly readers, there is something I hope, I hope when I find that special lady that she appreciates that I have waited for her and only her. I met some very amazing women any of which a man would be very happy and proud to be with. Never had a bad date, never dated a woman that didn't deserve my respect. They were all fantastic. The lady that gets me, she is going to have to be even more amazing, she is going to have to be my soul mate, my partner in crime and ready to go wherever the world takes US, we will be in sinc for our priorities. Be well.

The Unconstitutional Patriot Act

Because we have elected cowards and cookie chasers as our leaders we have the disgustingly unconstitutional Patriot Act. What is even more disturbing is that it is being reauthorized and people in the government have their own interpretatiohttp of what it means that you wouldn't believe if you read the law.

Blackstone Group

The Blackstone Group is an investment group. You may recall reading about them and Elliot Broidy, the man who plead guilty to bribing members of the New York pension board who used to work for them. Well apparently the company is being hired byhttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif Martha Stewart, hey didn't she go to jail for insider trading? Maybe I am remembering wrong.

Anyways, I was reading about it and decided to run Blackstone and Mr. Broidy, I found an interesting article. Apparently one of Blackstone's Vice Presidents, or so it is reported, said that government pension funds were overly generous. Isn't that fascinating. I guess they believe the world hasn't been generous enough with Martha Stewart even after she used insider trading, that is okay, not an honest days dollar for an honest days work.

Let me see if I understand this correctly. Blackstone gets government union's money to invest, bribes officials and then says that the government unions didn't need all that money in the first place because they are too generous. Now lets be clear, Blackstone invests money for CalPers (the California State Pension) and LACERS (the City of Los Angeles Pension) and many other government pension plans. They have also lost money for many of them and they believe that the plans were too generous in the first place.

If you look at what these scum bags make then I guess they are the one's that are compensated overly generously by the public pension plans. Now why would any public pension plan continue to utilize the services of these scum bags (notice I did not use profanity; but, if there was ever a case where I did want to it is right now). If you want to see the real arrogance and problem, it is not government pension plans, it is not the employees, it is those who siphon off from the plans who have never contributed to them, the politicians who take their contributions and the union leadership that allows this to go on in order to have influence over the politicians when the time for raises come.

NO PUBLIC PENSION FUND should ever give one penny to Blackstone again. I am happy to repeat that but you can read the sentence twice and save me the effort, wait, writing this was more effort than just writing it twice, heck, I could have just cut and pasted. Drat.

Now, I know a certain union steward who reads this blog and I do hope he will pass this on to the union workers and other stewards and then they can address the union on the issue of their pension working with this company.

Article 1

Article 2

Now if you read earlier articles you will see that I linked to articles regarding how incredibly well paid Blackstone and others were paid as "placement agents" while losing on their investments. Time for all things to be revealed and time for some to pay for their sins. Do you see it coming, it all around you, wealthy and powerful that think they deserve your money because they think they are better than you.

I do hope that readers understand this is an issue that I will continue to bring up as it develops. My overly generous pension will be 25% of what I am currently paid. Can you live on 25%, the other 25% goes to the ex as a reward for infidelity. Otherwise I still would only get 50%. No bonuses here, never had one, no merit pay, nobody wants to pay me what I saved my organization, that alone would cause it's bankruptcy. But, as little as I care about my situation, it is time to eliminate the use of insiders who only seek to line their own pockets.

Amusing Things

Someone said something very publicly that was a lie. The lie remotely implicated Pimpernel, Pimpernel did not like it and intended to respond in a very harsh Pimpernel manner. Pimpernel already began making plans and was ready to implement them. Today Pimpernel figured something else out, somebody already has the response and is waiting to explain it themselves and that is why they choose not to speak to me directly.

I checked and I was right, I would hate to be the one who lied, something wicked this way comes and if I arrive with it then this game is going to get very interesting because I will be heard and have nothing nice to say. It also creates an additional problem for the one that knows the truth, if they don't say it in public then they get taken out for not having talked to me, for avoiding the truth, no wiggle room to not bring it up and I just get to watch. I will buy a lounge chair for the event.

Oh, on a side note, did you read how Google has now invested a total of $400 million in green technology being part owners in a solar farm and a wind farm in southern California. LMAO. I know I talked about these things before they occurred. Why do I find it so hard to get people to bet me?

One last thing, the FBI arrested two Building and Safety inspectors in Los Angeles. A blogger on a site called "Mayor Sam, Sister City to LA Politics" stated that he has reason to believe that in addition to the other 11 inspectors under investigation, certain elected officials are also under investigation. Hmmm, could this lead back to the ex-General Manager of Building and Safety and to the pension money being used to convert commercial buildings into residential lofts downtown? Nah, I was probably way off base when I discussed that a year ago. We shall see, maybe I got lucky.

Always More Questions

As any of you who know me in the real world know, the title of this blog sums it up for me, the truth is inside of you, not me, not anyone. You are unique and only you can experience God to your extent. I don't tell people the truth on this blog, I don't know it except partially for we are limited in nature, that is God's design not mine; but, he usually has good ideas.

I don't like absolutes in answers, it means we are unwilling to continue looking, to continue growing. My blog will continue to ask questions and continue to struggle with the answers because we should struggle and not be 100% convinced that we have the absolute truth, answers are hard to come by and we have to work out our choices to get to them.

I met some truly nice and loving people and got to exchange some conversations with them, I do not believe we are of a like mind and I do believe people should believe as they will. My blog summarizes some of what I believe, not false, the truth as I understand it and belief without understanding is give up our free will, my beliefs are arrived at by understanding, mine not someone else's.

I believe we arrive at understanding by a give and take, discussions. This blog is not a discussion, it is my thoughts as they develop. I have discussions in person and on the phone. I have many friends of all beliefs and we are told to have a reason for our faith, I do and when asked I say exactly what it is, I don't tend to pull punches on that. If we do hide from stating our beliefs then we hide our light and we are told to not do that.

By the way, I ordered dinner in, it was a new place and it was real mediocre for the price. My housemate asked me how I liked it and I told him I thought it was overpriced; but, I am still learning the area. I am just enjoying trying new stuff and new places, I like the surprises, I don't want all the answers, searching for them ourselves is the answer until we discover it for ourselves. My opinion and I am allowed one on my blog.

Pimpernel, for good or bad, is his own person and I hope you are your own person. It is good to be ourselves, the best we that we can be. One of my readers (a dear friend) and former co-worker told me that he could never be me (because of my years of experience and approach to problems), I told him that he shouldn't even try, he has skills and abilities that I do not and he should take what I taught him and push his abilities to their limit, not try and imitate me.

Are there people that I can learn from, yep, everyone; but, not by being trained. I believe teaching is the art of showing things, asking people what they believe and questioning their consistency. That is the Socratic method, to teach to think for oneself. It is a slow process and takes years; but, then the answers are your own even if we agree on most things.

Everyday I read the news looking for things to bring to your attention because I read enough that I read things most people never catch. We are too focused on the things that directly affect use. That is why we have blind spots. I may lose a reader who I really enjoyed knowing because of this post and that is okay, my words are my own and they will remain my own. I like meeting new people and exchanging ideas; but, I do say what I think and will continue to.

I promote people creating their own blogs or in this case meeting rooms, we should be allowed to share thoughts that are not universal, that is we should be allowed to exchange in private with like minded people and there are not a lot with a mind like mine (that was a joke). This blog started with a simple post and I will repeat some of the themes.

All we know is that we exist, that we are self aware. Not I think therefore I am, I experience therefore I am, that is the beginning of all, self awareness. In the bible it says in the begging was the word and his name is "I am". That is the beginning of all knowledge, knowing that you are. You are unique. This experience we live is either real, a representation or false. The difference between false and a representation is that a representation is merely a way of viewing the truth. As they say in quantum physics, a projection.

Some people are blind and some deaf, they still experience this universe; but, in their own way understanding their unique filters. I am autistic and understand through mine.

We can believe we are the only being in the universe having multiple experiences at the same time or we can be eternally evolving sentient beings. One grows and the other merely experiences. There is a movie, "50 first dates", I happen to like the film. In the film there is a young lady that starts each morning as if all the others over two years had never occurred, a type of amnesia by time. She is trapped in starting from the same place each day; but, in the end of the film we discover that a very small part remembers something, she remember love. That is the most important thing, to remember love.

Love is not something we feel, that is joy, love is something we live, something we do for others, it is service to others, that is the consequence of love. We do it because our hearts know it is the right thing. Love is also found in how we respect others to seek their own path and let them choose what they listen to. I believe in that and support that for others.

The Cloud is so Beautiful

In the computer world there is a lot of talk going on about "the cloud". So what is "the cloud"? People I ask say that it means your data and programs reside on the internet rather than on your computer, that allows for tablet computers. But,http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif the software actually exists somewhere, it resides on the internet. Do you remember me explaining that the "internet" is 13 US government owned computers as the backbone?

In other words, your information will be stored in a system that is controlled by the government. It will indeed, everything transmitted goes through those sixteen. Your computer will be nothing more than a fancy browser, that is it. You will love it because you wont have to upgrade your computer as often. Lots of money will be saved because you wont have to buy expensive hardware.

We are being sold on the cloud in business already. Here is a nice article.clouds in the air

Software update on my computer today and it is messing with how I use blogger. Anyways, when the change comes (and ever since Windows Vista, your computer is already virtualized), you won't even notice the difference, it will look the same on your little tablet. What it means is that you will not be able to compute except when connected to the web. If the net goes down you wont be a be able to use your computer for anything.

This cloud could bring some pretty big thunderstorms if it goes down. It will shut down businesses. It will shut down just about everything. Considering what happened in Japan, is this really a good idea? It is not if, it is when will the net go down, not even why.

Look, the Japanese have had tsunamis and earthquakes for a very long, yet, they built the power plant next to the sea. Well, shouldn't they have made it tsunami proof? Why didn't they? Because they needed to be next to water or it would cost a lot more to move it inward. An idea can sound find and be pulled off with cost saving methods and that is the choice people usually make. The reliance on the internet is the same thing.

The New Phone Books Here

I sent my request to the FBI and got the following letter

Dear Mr. (Pimpernel),

"Ths responds to your Freedom of Information/Privacy Acts (FOIPA) request.

Based on the information you provided, we conducted a search of the indices to our Central Records System. We were unable to identify responsive main file records. If you have additional information pertaining to the subject that you believe was of investigative interest to the Bureau, please provide us the details and we will conduct an additional search."

Now, the next paragraph said that if I was on a watch list then they would not have to provide me any information or explanation. Excuse me kids, lmao. Now I can list out all the reasons why they do have a file, all my family had secret or top secret, my ex brother in law has a very active file because of his job, I dated a woman with a top secret cleanarnce and over 20 years ago the FBI had to admit that they had tapped our phone for 5 years rather than 3 (the law, not an investigation into wrongdoing by my family).

Hmmm, now what shall we do next. Perhaps the reader thinks Pimpernel does not know how to play the game; but, he does. He knows how to do a Freedom of Information request regarding events that their files would have mentioned him in. Rather than request my file, I can request an events file that includes a discussion of me. They then would have provided information proving I must be in a file of my own, now which event shall I choose. There are time limits on events under the FOIA. Something borrowed, something blue.

Dear friends, Pimpernel belongs to no organziations, has stolen nothing, is a pacifist and lives the quiet life I have previously described. Why would a meaningless person like me be on a watch list? That makes no sense, well, depends on why and which list. There are lists for all kinds of reasons, even ones that you are on where they dont have a problem with you.

A friend of mine who worked in the intelligence community had said that he was surprised he was not able to see my file previously, they told him no and he had a very nice clearance. He couldn't figure out why, that is why I asked for the file. Now, Pimpernel is confused too. I will have to ponder this for a bit and how I wish to proceed.

I am so silly, I don't need to do any of that, I have my father's writings, he died in my arms. No telling what might be in those, perhaps others would be interested in knowing. That is not quite fair either, I don't really have any of his writings, I do not have the space to keep such things.

End Times and a Time For Love

We all know about the end of the world not happening on May 21st, wasn't going to happen. Bad logic was behind the call and poor bible scholarship. Bigger question for me is who cares when our world changes, what does it matter on an individual basis, everybody dies, didn't you get the memo?

Now, this is going to be a planning exercise. If you believed that a major catastrophic event were going to occur (for the purpose of this post lets say a giant asteroid would hit the earth and cut the amount of sunshine the earth received thereby reducing the food supply). If you were in charge and believed such a thing, what sort of planning would you do?

For my part, I would want to protect as many as possible. In government they have what is known as "continuity of government". In the United States we have an extensive "continuity of operations plan". You can read the differant executive directives based on the links. Nothing ominous, planning and pubic information not fear mongering.

What would you save and how? Seeds and people and an infratructure to rebuild, obviously. What of all histories human endeavors would you save, what about the writings of Jane Austen, it would be a sad place without it. Space might require that we save only electronic copies of most things. What would you leave out, would you leave out Maplethorpes art? Would you try and purge history of the things that you did not believe were good (child pornography for example). How would you decide what to keep and what to lose and how would you justify it?

The Catholic Church has one of the most amazing libraries in the world, they have collected writings and art worldwide, much is not displaye; but, even heresey was saved because it is all part of our historical experience. How would you protect the greatest art being held in the Louve? I would make copies and hide the real stuff in vaults, same for the Smithsonian Museum. But, if you did too many would know something was going on, so you have to be very picky about the originals you kept.

I don't know a lot about the plans that were made except the obvious. I do however wonder about who would be allowed in underground basis. I wonder how I would choose. I wonder how you would keep people's spirits up, how joy would be ensured for the survivors. I would hire the best psychologists in the world to find ways to give people a individual virtual experience, tailored to them, one that could adjust and provide opportunity to fell that you had some control and could work towards goals. I don't know exactly I would do that; but, virtual worlds that provided a place to experience teamwork and community.

I would also prepare on replacing what we as humanity have achieved over the years. I look at the recent tornadoes and hope and believe that some planner has a plan for rebuilding, Joplin has a lot of history. What has happened there is devestating, we don't even know how many have been killed or injured and our hearts go out to them. When we have finished grieving for what and who have been lost, it will be time to cleanup and rebuild.

If you want to understand why the government builds survivalbe infrastructure, it is because natural disasters and man made ones have and will continue to occur. Because we know this, we have people who dedicate their lives to preparing for things that nobody wants to ever see occur.

Will there be more earthquakes and tornadoes, yes there will. Will we see a major quake on the New Madrid fault, we will one day and it will be horrific. Will we see a supervolcano, someday we will. Will asteroids hit the earth again, they have for billions of years.

How do you prepare people so that they would mentally survive such a horrible earth changing event? So much so that they would want to rebuild and not disparage any more than was necessary? That would be one of the biggest challenges, finding people who psychologically could get back up on their feet and plan for the future and work towards it rather than giving up.

I lost most of what I spent a lifetime building. It knocks you down for more than a hot second; but, getting up again is the best part. The people of Joplin will get up again and I think we need to offer them the moral support when the worst is revealed and it is time to rebuild. May God show them comfort during this very sad time.

Little Sick

Hello all, was feeling a little sick today so I slept in. Nothing serious, just my stomach. I did find out why my oven was acting weird, it is plugged into a switch that is turned on and off at the wall. LOL. Now I know what the wall switch does.

I saw the pictures of the tornadoes that happened yesterday, amazing. Joplin Missouri is basically gone if what I read is correct. That is an old town that has been around and seen a lot.

Yesterday a friend told me that they couldn't be with me anymore, long story, we did not seperate on bad terms, it was time for them to learn from someone new and that is how it should be. We did not grow apart, they grew up. That is what teachers like to see, now they can go and discover on their own.

I am very satisfied that they will do so well in the future, they will excel in an area that few have even heard of yet. I had considered ending this blog; but, I think I shall continue for other reasons now. Not everyone apparently likes what I write, that is more than okay with me.

Now a little question and I do like to question things rather than just think about how things effect me. We all know that there are odd things going on in the environment, hurricanes, earthquakes, animal deaths. A climate scientist is saying that it is do to climate change, that could explain certain things. What it cannot explain are the earthquakes, volcanoes and earth changes that are not related to the climate. Here is the article. It also does not explain the magnetic pole moving.

We were told that the earthquake in Chili is said to have moved the wobble of the earth, Japan's is said to have shifted the ocean floor 79 feet. That is a backwards explanation, the wobble caused the earthquake in Chili and the shifting of the ocean floor caused the earthquake in Japan, what caused these shifts is what we should be asking. I believe it is the movement of the magnetic pole.

I think it would be good for people to learn to look at things differantly. We have a tendency to ask how this or that effects us and then ignore things that we dont think will impact us. Be well.

Have a great week

Gots to go to bed, way too busy this weekend

Hard Weekend

shhhhhh

Friday

I have had a wonderful night, very nice. I had the chance to talk to two people, a Canadian and a Mexican on-line and we really seemed to hit it off. Very nice and loving people. I gave the address to this blog.

We talked about so many things. We joked, listened to music and expressed joy to one another, it was a special time. I have not used chat functions much (two times). Tomorrow will be even better as a special friend is coming by. I cannot wait.

How nice to spend time with a dear friend. I am lucky, I have a few. I look at my life now and know how lucky I am and blessed, never felt that way in my life, I do now. It is as if I have seen the worst of it and now it only gets better. There will always be challenges, but, support changes how we adjust to it.

Be well and have a great weekend.

Why Promote Immorality

There has been quite a lot in the media about Arnold Schwarzenegger's adulterous affair while he was married to Maria Shriver. The news has focues on how it might affect his career, how well Maria is handling it, how it is hard on his kids and whether or not he may have used his job as Governor to assist his mistress. There have been others who have chosen to justify adultery. Yep.

An article in the LA Weekly basically says that men cheat and biologically must spread the wealth. There is another article in a differant publication that says that monogamy is unreasonable.

The LA Weekly article says that "Powerful Men Screw Around", it then proceeds to say that Arnold's real failing was not keeping his campaign promises. The author states that this is not so in Europe. We all know about the former head of the International Monetary Fund being arrested for attempted rape, it turns out tha the proudly was known as a adulterer, it is more accepted in Europe and Latin America we are told. Accepted, by whom, not the wives, tolerated.

Do the husbands accept their wives cheating on them, would Arnold accept Maria cheating on him and having kids for him to take care of that were not his? I don't think so. Adulterers never accept being cheated on, they have a double standard, they want to have their cake and eat it too; but, that is not the point of this post, noooooooo.

I was talking to a Union Steward and complaining that the unions should not give contributions to politicians because if they take it then they are compromised and you should never vote for someone who would take it. Arnold is a liar, he lied to his wife, to his children and the public, the fact that it was about his cheating changes nothing, liars are liars. If he is corrupt to that degree then he is corrupt in other areas. We are not talking about his telling his wife that she doesn't look fat in that dress (and she of course does not look fat in anything, just an example). No, he is corrupt, not mistaken, not confused, corrupt. He knew exactly what he was doing and kept doing it.

Bill Clinton was the same way except people accepted it. They liked how the economy was doing; but, he was no more trustworthy. If you vote for people who you know lack morals then you get immoral politicians. They are open to blackmail and corruption. People complain about Obama or Bush; but, we knew they were liars, some people thought they would be truthful in other arenas.

When you say that you understand that a Politician has to lie to get elected then you have said he can lie AFTER he is elected, he doesn't have to keep his campaign promises because you knew he was a liar. Vote for integrity and you will get it, vote for anything else and you will get corruption. Politicians by and large try to give the cookie that will get them re-elected, we know this. If we vote for them for the cookie and ignore all else, they will ignore all else also.

People in aerospace will vote for conservatives because they believe they will spend more on the military and planes and satellites. That is the wrong reason.

Brain Not Working

I had a thought, or at least I thought I did; but, perhaps I was wrong. I saw that the Catholic Church is now telling it's leadership that they should fully cooperate with the police when they believe one of their own has molested a child. I applaud this and believe it is a good first step. It is about time that believers stopped hiding our mistakes and start correcting them and not worry about what non-believers think.

The head of the International Monetary Fund was arrested in New York for forcing sex on a worker at a hotel. Arrogance is no longer being rewarded in the same way. The man was married and prided himself on being a ladies man. Pride goeth before a fall.

On another note, Mr. Stephen Hawkins spouted out that he thought God was a "fairy tale" believed by people who were afraid of death. I told you he is a douchbag and nothing has changed. Who cares what he thinks God is, I didn't know he had special knowledge. He will, he will know when he dies and we all die. He is an arrogant, vile, little man. Genius doesn't make you right or nice.

He discounts the importance of you. That is not what I say on this blog. YOU MATTER. He says because there is no God and no afterlife that therefore we don't matter. He said our lives our meaningless, his may be, yours and mine are not. YOU MATTER. If you speak to God and are wrong, you are just a series of mechanical experiences deluding itself that it matters. Guess what, you are still right, you exist right now and you feel and you matter. Math is a lie, you exist. Bees fly. You matter and your feelings matter and your experience matters because YOU FEEL IT. Stephen Hawkings is still a douchebag. He believes math is more important that people.

A Note to All Readers

I have to clarify something and I wrote about this long ago. This is my blog and I will write about what I. want, this blog will not be hijacked by anyone. I am solely responsible for what I write and the comments that allow. I choose the subject matter, it is not a forum, it is a blog and it is mine.

If people have issues that they wish to present to the world, this is not the place, they need to use a Forum on something like Above Top Secret or start their own blogs, I highly recommend both; but, the direction, tone and tenor of this blog is mine.

I allow anonymous comments and have only refused a few, I have explained why to the audiance each time. I edit my words and the words of others, it is not a right to post comments, it is a privledge as this is a blog. I have a friend who is an ex-professional poker player, he was upset when the poker sites went down. I showed him how to get on Blogger and create his own, his place to raise his issues. This is a place for me to raise mine.

I have a friend who owns a website, I was kicked off the site for not following the rules and the rule was, it was her site and she made the rules. We are still friends and I think the world of her. I never went back and have not tried to, I know and told her that I would break the rules again and I know which rule I would break. I find it annoying when people attempt to use my bully pulpit as there own, it is not.

Is It Really Wednesday

Hi dear reader. I do believe I have wasted my gut and given my truth for the moment.

Lots of Nonsense at Once

Oops, I destroyed the original post. Oh my. Changed my mind. I had a lovely dinner with an old assistant, he just keeps proving that he was the right one and what a lovely bride he has, very sweet and always asks about me.

I want to talk about being blessed. God blesses who he will with what they can handle, there is a price tag for every blessing. People don't like that, they want the blessing; but, not to earn it. People want to be as brilliant as the mega nerds; but, they don't want to be treated as differant growing up. A choice, free will. The human heart wants all the cookies and none of the pain, give that to the other guy, that is why selfishness is bad, it is cruel.

Let us consider Arnold Shwarzenegger, the wanted to be a family man and sleep around at will, the could afford it; but, it was cruel and selfish. To sleep around meant that he risked hurting others and guarenteed that he had to lie to his wife and children, that distanced him from them in his mind. I wonder how he would feel if he found out Maria had done the same and one of the kids was not truly his, I bet he wouldn't like it as much and the kids even less. What would it feel like to know that the man who you thought was your father was not? Not too good. My stepdaughter knew that I was not her biological father; but, she knew I took being her father as a privledge and seriously. I am sure that she had questions for her biological father; but, she never got to ask them, I wish she could have. I cannot answer for him, only myself.

If I discoverd that one of my biological daughters was not mine, wouldn't change a thing, I love all three equally and for differant reasons, because they are unique, we all are, we just need to accept that and stop trying to get others to be like us completely. Conformity is disgusting.

In a couple of weeks I am going to give this blog address to someone who is currently working on something that could hurt my organization. Hmmm, why? Because they are a Christian and they want to see things. Long story and only they will know when they read this. LMAO. Information once said exists for eternity. Hmmm, that Pimpernel is being wierd tonight, as if there was a night when I wasn't. Be well.

Beauty and Hiding

One of my co-workers read my blog and had an interesting comment. But, first, I had a dream last night. In the dream I was feeling amorous and as if I wanted to have sex and there was a woman next to me and it was my ex-wife. He body was pretty much the way I remembered it and I was getting very excited and before anything could happen I completely rejected letting anything happen and wanted to get away. I did. Now the comment (and this was made before I told her of my dream), she said that she read my previous post and thought I might be getting ready to transition back into a relationship. I think that may be so; but, I think I am not ready yet and that was the dream.

I think the dream reflected that I am over the ex; but, am afraid of being with someone. I think that as I began looking at women again, my mind sought to protect me. I think I may have stopped seeing women as physically attractive so that I wouldn't seek to find pleasure in another at this point. I think I was looking for reasons not to be with anyone right now. Kinda wild. I am not that ready to be intimate again, date, maybe; but, not intimate.

I don't want to meet someone and seek to have them fullfill all of my needs, I want to meet someone and get to know them and know that they will be a good partner in life. I believe that takes some time. So, I have posted a picture of a woman (Jane Seymour) who I always thought was beautiful and yes, she still is.

So where am I, confused. I am in need of time and need to let my body and mind and emotions find their new place. Together for 27, apart for 4. I don't want to heal quickly, I want to know when I have healed at my pace. I don't want what I had and may not be ready to start over, just some time for myself.

Age of Consent

One of the readers sent a rather long comment regarding the "Circumsision Party", it is a little graphic by my terms on this blog; but, I am still considering publishing it. In his comments he raised the issue of the age of consent and questioned people believing that circumsizing should be a passage to manhood. He suggested that the age of consent should be 16.

There was a time when young ladies were not allowed to get their ears piercd until they were 16 (practice not the law) and I believe it is illegal to have your child tattoed. In certain Polynesian cultures you were not accepted as a man until you had a lengthy a painful tattoo; but, the person chose when they got it, not by age.

So what should the age of consent be? How old should you be to choose to drink alcahol, smoke cigarettes, have sex, get a tattoo, get a body piercing, drive, be allowed to leave your parents, date, drive a car...

Next question is who gets to decide? There was a woman who gave her daughter botox recently and many are calling for her to be put in jail. When should the government get to decide rather than the parents. My father joined the Marines at 15 by lying and saying he was 16. There are three groups involved, parents, children and the government. What about where 2 of the 3 are in agreement? A 15 year old wants a tattoo and the parent agrees; but, it is illegal.

I always found it amusing that people could join the military at 18; but, not have a beer. That is government hypocricy, we will let you kill and die; but, not drink. I know which one has a bigger impact on people. How much of it depends on the culture you grew up in? Just some questions.

Officially a Rant

Okay, some things about the ex still anger me, silly things. She insists upon keeping my last name. I find it both offensive and obscene. You don't get to cheat on me, take men to hotels and register in MY name. She divorced me and kept my name, use your own, you are not mine and I want nothing to do with you you Adultress.

I read an article about women having to worry about whether or not they take their husbands last name, here is the article. . Heck, if I remarry I wouldn't expect the woman to take my surname, we could blend it, I don't care. I can't say I am for hyphenating it, that gets ridiculous over time, it just keeps growing.

How about we decide with coin tosses? That would be confusing to the grandchildren. The purpose behind taking the other person's name is to identify with other family members. For whatever reason, historically it has been the man's name. I don't think we can change history. I can't.

So when you divorce someone you cease being part of their family (beyond the children if there are any). That is why my ex needs to lose my family name, she chose not to be family with me and mine.

A Surprise

Me and a friend went out today. We decided to get a nice dinner and just relax. Dinner was fantastic, great waiter and great food. I saw a young couple on a date and told my waiter to buy them desert and not let them know it was from me. They apparently were too full and did not wish the desert.

After dinner my friend and I went a played pool for an hour or so. It was nice to just go out and be able to not be tied to a clock. I never really lived the single life, never had that pleasure.

We returned home and decided to go to this Karaoke bar, have two drinks and listen to people sing badly. I never really spent much time at bars, when I was drinking heavy I did it at home, trying to drown out the pain, failed miserably after a while you just can't drink enough, the truth is still there. Stopped drinking heavy when the ex finally moved out.

Well, we were laughing and joking and a very pretty lady sat next to me. Now, in person Pimpernel can be charming. I know you say it isn't possible, not Pimpernel. Yes, in fact I can be quite amusing and love intelligent conversation on any topic. For some reason the lady next to me kept looking at me and wanted to flirt. I thought she was maybe 34; but, my young friend later told me she was probably in her early 40s. She was smoking hot. I did not flirt back; but, I was polite and friendly.

I have been looking at women differently lately. I used to look and think about how pretty they are. Seems kind of shallow. I used to love the curve of a woman's posterior, now it looks like a rearend. I used to enjoy looking at the shape of a woman's breast, now it is just a large chest. Don't get me wrong, I don't find men attractive at all, that is not what divorce left me with. I just am not as turned on by physicality anymore for periods of time.

I know a lady that after he ex stole all their money, abused her and left. She didn't trust men again for a long time and didn't even like their smell. That is not where I am coming from. I still like women and love talking with intelligent ones. No, it is more about reconsidering looks. I am not sure I know what pretty means, I know what I like (Jane Seymore, Rachel Weisz, Jacklyn Smith, Genevieve Bujold, Natalie Portman, Suzanne Pleshett, Salma Hyeck are my type of look); but, I am not captivated by their beauty anymore.

It has been four years and guess what, I could live the rest of my life without sex, don't want to; but, I absolutely could. When we left the bar, my friend pointed out that the woman seemed to want to engage me more (I won't use his exact words). It just isn't worth that much trouble. Not sex anyways.

I don't even know how I would feel having sex with a woman again. I kind of like my freedom, never had that before. I like my peace and my time to think. I like the fact that I don't have to negotiate everything. I could go back to being a hermit, studying and maybe actually write one of the books that I have been asked to write. But, I need time to myself without drama, had enough of that.

I don't know where I am at in some ways, maybe I am still healing. The woman in the bar was very pretty and shapely and willing, it didn't do a thing for me; but, make me feel uncomfortable. I didn't want to be hit on. Funny thing is, when we were playing pool I was joking with the pretty young waitress. I liked watching her laugh. I can be charming and amusing and women seem to like that. While my friend was gone I told her that he was abusing the elderly (me) and that she should tell him what a jerk he was. When he came back, he did just that. I try and make people's day just a little more surprising and amusing, it doesn't cost a thing except concern.

I don't hurt anymore from what happened, I just don't hurt. I did and that took a bit of time; but, I don't anymore. I try and learn from it; but, it continues to distance itself from my new reality and I like my new reality. It is very humble and simple, just like me on a good day. Not weak and stupid, I am not that. My new reality is what I have always enjoyed. I can see people, have fun with them and then go home and have time alone to talk to you good people.

The most a woman ever effected me was not because of beauty, she was beautiful; but, it was because of a look, a look of concern for my heart. If I could remember one moment in my life for eternity, it would be that moment. My wife never looked at me like that, she never looked in my eyes like I was the person that mattered the most to her, I was a meal ticket. I know the look is not the same.

Someone looked in my eyes once as if they couldn't stand the idea of me feeling bad. It melted me and my heart. To be loved is a strange thing, to know that someone thinks your feelings are as important as theirs, that is love. I have seen concern in other peoples eyes, I have seen that in my friends and family. Not obligation, true concern. I appreciate it everytime I see it.

I try and remember that look, I saw it once for a fleeting moment, it was seared into my mind and when I tried to retrieve it, it began to flow away. I am not surprised that people are selfish, I am surprised when they actually care about others and give of themselves. That is what I want to know again, that I matter that much to someone. Breasts are nice, rear ends are nice, legs are hot; but, in the end the mind is the sexiest part, tenderness and concern melt my heart. The woman I dated that came in number one cared about me, I loved her heart; but, it would have never worked because I am me and our goals were differant. I certainly am not going to jump into a relationship with anyone who is less caring, loving or decent. I can't do that.

The girl that wanted to flirt with me tonight was beautiful; but, she didn't know me, she just wanted to be appreciated. I appreciated her beauty; but, I want more, I want concern and love. Is that too much to ask, I think not. Be well and good night.

Saturday, May 14th

Hi all. Hope all is well with you. Just chillin, as they say. I don't know what today will bring; but, I anticipate some surprise, everyday holds a surprise. If there is no interesting news then tonight I shall discuss whatever surprise today held for me.

Russians and Bunkers

A number of Russian millionaires are buying underground bunkers to survive what they perceive to be a coming apocalypse. The Russian bunkers. I find it interesting that atheists are believing in a coming awakening and the apocalypse; but, still reject the idea of God.

There is a lot of bunker construction going on around the world, I have mentioned this before. During the 50s and 60s people built them out of fear of a nuclear war, heck, my mother wanted to build a communal one for the people on our block (Cuban missile crisis). I am not afraid of the apocalypse and have told others not to be. Everybody dies, doesn't matter if it is a million or one, it is always individual and we all die.

So, I just watched this "Conspiracy Theory" show with Jesse Ventura on YouTube. He talks about 2012 and the possibility of solar activity wiping out the earth. He states that there are underground bunkers being built and that you and I don't get in, only the "elite". Lets consider this. If you were the President and you believed that the world was going to go through a trememendous solar flair and that most would die, what would you do, who would you pick to save? Would you pick the "elite", that answer would not work and you would not get support for it by the people that needed to build the facilities. So how would you choose who survived?

If you could only save 1,000,000 people, how would you choose who survived? Would you pick the best and brighters, the most physically fit, the most beautiful, the richest? You would pick a diverse crowd, you would pick across all races, intelligence, healthy and hopefully keep some pretty ones. Now, would you want to be chosen? Would you want to be one of the ones living in a cave for years? Not me.

What would you do in the meantime? Hmmm, I think that because they would not know for sure how bad it is going to get that you would let people know something was up in dribbles, survival of the fittest thinking. You would also let people party; but, keep things going on the same as if there wasn't such a threat. If there is such a threat then you don't want to panic people when there is nothing that can be done about it.

Personally, I don't think I would want to live like that and I am surely not afraid of dying. I definately would not like to live in a world with only others like myself, I like me; but, I prefer to be around those who are differant. How would you keep people occupied down there, a virtual reality for them to ride out the storm. That sounds to much like the alegory of the cave, can't live that way.

Bloggger is Back Up

Blogger has been down for the past few days so I wasn't able to write. I will attempt to add some comment tonight. While I would much prefer having a dinner with a lovely lady at a nice restaurant, I think I will microwave my dinner and read and write.

I Post Therefore I Am

So this site, the squalor example of insanity has regular readers from all over the world. I am old and feeble and will one day die. Heck, I look at it as a reward. Stupid doctors keep telling me I should be dead; but, they seem incapable of achieving their goal. They even accidently poisoned me once and still couldn't get it right.

What happens when they finally do? Will someone takeover this blog for me? Our little piece of insanity on the web? Could they, I mean I could give someone the access; but, my readers would know that it was not me writing. I believe that. I guess I don't know what this blog means to people. I mean, it is not theme orientated, I talk about all kinds of stuff.

Will you miss me when Pimpernel is gone? For now, I am just glad that we all get to meet and exchange what we will. Be well.

Had to Think About Some Things

I like the simple life, I like my peace and quiet. I have never cared much for groups, I prefer one on one. I have had some amazing experiences in my life and have been privy to many amazing facts and people. I have known a Billionaire on a first name basis, have met more than a few people in power and have met some of the oddest charachters to ever walk the earth. I don't think I appreciated it.

To me, my life just seemed noraml, it was for me. I am torn between seeing my life as "normal" and recognizing that I have been involved in and witnessed some amazing things. Oh, I sent my formal request with all the appropriate documents to the FBI requesting to see my file, I still haven't gotten it. I will keep requesting it until I get a response.

I have never had a listed phone number in my life. My Facebook and Twitter accounts have never been used and are blank. I don't even "friend" people. I knew a couple of years ago that I would need to become more social and I try. I like people, I don't like crowds, I can't hear them all, too much input. I know, you will tell me, you focus on one or two, that is not how autism works.

My form of autism is pretty common, we are always paying attention and it wears. For low achieving autistics, it is too much to process. For high achieving, we learn to process it and try and drown out the excess. I think I can handle it better now then I could when I was young. I still like my quiet time, time to contemplate and write. I absolutely detest large, loud nightclubs. Too much noise, too many people and no conversation that can be heard.

I think the last few years have helped me get over that, complete sensory bombardment, we adjust too. I can handle crowds better now and am beginning to appreciate all of my experiences for where they helped me to go. Just took me awhile.

Giving Permission

The head of the Navy Chaplains has said that Chritian chaplians can give gay marriages in states that allow it. Why would a homosexual want a church wedding when the New Testament says homosexuality is a sin? I have said many times that I am a sinner, sinned a bunch today, I was very lustful. I don't ask that it not be a sin and I don't want to be with someone who denies it is a sin.

I have said before, I don't care if gays marry, I don't care if gsys do whatever they do, that is none of my busines. Now I do care about what people claiming to be Christians do and if any "Christian" chaplain conducts such a serimony that he is scum and not a Christian.

I know many gay men and respect them even after the mistakes (not their being gay) that they have made. I love them as other souls trying to figure this all out, I don't condemn any to hell, I want to see them in heaven. If you will marry gays then adulterers are also free and child molestors, where does it end and when do you follow the word? If you don't believe the word then "do as thou wilt"; but don't say you believe the world and then pervert it.

A Follow Up

Two things I found interesting today. One is an article out of "The Telegraph" which talks about how climate change could impact wi-fi and impact the power supply, this is utter non-sense. The English paper quoted their Climate Secretary regarding this and she said that extreme heat (105%) could do this. Well, I lived in the desert for over 20 years and it aint so. She is attempting to justify spending billions to protect their electrical grid and wireless communications from heat, Las Vegas gets a lot hotter than England and my cell phone works quite well there.

The second article was about how firemen were training for major earthquakes in the midwest. The midwest is not known for earthquakes and they should be training for tornadoes which they do get frequently. They have been training for earthquakes and crowd control for sometime now in the midwest and southeast.

The last bit is also disturbing, an asteroid the size of an aircraft carrier will approach the earth in the fall of this year, it will get closer to the earth than the moon is. In astronomical terms that is generally consider too close; but, we are being told that astronomers are excited by the chance to observe it.

I have said many times that I don't believe the earth is going to cease being. What I do see are a lot of fishy stories and odd preparations. If you want to know what someone is going to do or what they think is going to happen in the future look at the infrastructure that they are putting in place. It is always a dead giveaway.

I Am Just Writing Alot Today

I have eight posts for the day including this one. I don't think I have ever posted that many in one day. We also have over 60 hits by 3 o'clock.

LMAO, I just went to check on my tri-tip, it came out marvelously; but, the oven broke. The display for the oven, the clock, all of it just stopped working. I checked the breakers and they are on, I checked the stove top (it has an electrical pilot) worked; but, the oven display that controls the tempeture and has the clock, it is not working. I had unplug it and finish the tri-tip in the microwave.

What is interesting is that the tri-tip came out wonderful, I guess I haven't lost my touch for cooking. I will call the oven manufacturer and let them walk me through troubleshooting, if it is truly broke, it is only a day old and I am sure it is under warranty. I don't want my landlord to feel bad when he reads this, stuff happens, I find it amusing and had a great meal.

Hope you all had a great day.

Homelessness

A reader sent me a link to a blog about how to live homeless. It is by a person who lived homeless, now having allowed more than one homeless person to live with me I thought it might just be useful to someone who finds themselves in that situation.

How to be Homeless

Hope none of my readers ever needs this information; but, if you do I hope it helps.

Circumsision in the News

Because I try to provide content of interest to the readers I felt a need to make this post for the one who is interested in circumsision. Apparently in the Phillipines boys generally get circumsised when school is in recess. The Phillipines are a poor nation and it is not always done by professionals. In order to help, some doctors gave free circumsisions to boys over 9 age at a circumsision party. One of the boys exclaimed that now he was a man.

Circumsision Party in the Phillipines

I have no idea how Phillipinoes view circumsision. I find it interesting that the boys had to all be over 9 years old, they knew what they were getting into. They apparently view it as a right of passage. Don't know how I feel about that, not really into social pressure for rights of passages.

On a side note, I decided to make tri-tip as my first oven cooked meal in my new apartment. I made a rub and a marinade from what I had lying around. My life continues to find it's new normal, I don't know if that is good or bad. I think for the moment it is good, I need to have my quiet time.

Oh, the picture. I searched for "beautiful" and it came up, the title is beautiful eyes, no idea who it is or who took the picture. Just thought I would post it.

Listening to a little Paul Simon, slip sliding away.

Cheating on Your Spouse

I was reading on Shine (part of Yahoo) and there was an article about how the day after Mother's Day was the second most popular day for women to cheat on their husbands. Anyways, it got me thinking and I began reading personal stories about cheating from all sides. One article was about people who didn't regret what they did, another asked why the "other person" saw the innocent spouse as the bad one and the adulterer as the good one.

I then went to a few forums on relationships and read the breath of issues people were facing in their relationships and it had all kinds of issues, most were sexual; but, that was far from the limit. I remembered hearing about a website that helped people to cheat and decided to look at it. I do not provide a link. It is a free site where married people can find others to sleep with just for sex.

I read somewhere that over 90% of adulterous affairs end and the couple (can I call them that) never marry or become serious. People risk everything to cheat and then don't become a couple. So it is not about relationship, it is about temporary pleasure. It is more common for couples to stay together after infidelity than it is for the adulterers to become a couple, I find that strange and yet, it makes sense.

I have not been sexual with another person for four years. I like sex; but, it is not the focus of my life. It is a benefit that we get to share with a partner. The thrill of meeting someone new can be very intense, it is filled with possibilities. The adrenaline that one must experience while cheating must be intense. I believe that the intensity is why people fool themselves into thinking they are in love.

The question about the "other person" is interesting. If you sleep with a married person, how can you respect or trust them? How can they trust you knowing that you are okay with cheating? Even more is how can a cheating spouse ever complain about someone cheating on them? The minute you justify cheating, you justify your being cheated on.

When I met my ex, she told me she was divorced, I later found out she was in the process of being divorced. She had moved out and was living alone with her daughter and waiting for the court to finalize the divorce. My divorce has been finalized for well over a year, it took three years. I have no idea how many people my ex slept with while we were waiting for the court to finalize things, it was zero for me. I dated a few times; but, it was more for companionship. Even Pimpernel gets lonely sometimes, not too often; but, sometimes.

As my ex-wife never discussed what she did with me or express any regrets at all, I cannot imagine how it effected her view of herself. The ex seemed rather proud of what she did; but, when her sister decided to do the same she told her that it wasn't all it was cracked up to be. Who knows the reason why, I certainly don't. I doubt the "other person" regretted it; but, I haven't discussed it with him.

When I meet others who have been cheated on and divorce, I always tell them that it just keeps getting better and it does for us, we don't have the guilt and we haven't justified others cheating on us. I forgave the ex and the "other person" a long time ago, I don't agree with what happened; but, time does heal all wounds.

I assume that for a cheating spouse to move on and trust in a relationship again they must first accept that what they did was wrong. This would seem to be necessary in order to not feel someone else was justified on cheating on them in the future. I very much doubt my ex has gotten that far in her thinking; but, who knows.

I don't have a visual picture of my ex anymore, not in my mind. Not an accurate one. I can only imagine what it will be like in another ten years. Perhaps that is the answer to quantum physics and the spooky effect, it is when two beings cease effecting one another, when what happens to one has no direct effect on the other and the further apart they are, the less it matters. Perhaps the real spooky effect is how we can live on this earth and not feel the others. The real question is not why there is quantum entanglement; but, why it is not more common.

See I got it back to quantum physics. I like quantum physics.

Mothers Day, Bin Laden and My New Oven

Just some rambling notes on a Sunday. I am sitting in my apartment reading the news and about to get some more coffee. I have no idea how I am going to spend this day; but, for the moment I am just relaxing and waking up.

Today is Mother's Day so I send a Happy Mother's Day out there to any mothers who may read this blog. Hope you enjoy the day and get to spend it with your children. Heck, I even wish my ex a happy Mother's Day.

Someone asked if I thought my God rejoiced in Osama Bin Laden's death. I found it an odd question. Everybody dies, if you believe in god then he built us to all die and move on in our journey. If God had wished to prevent Bin Laden's death than he would have. I know this one way too well. If God had wanted him dead sooner, then he would have died sooner. I believe that God rejoices in our choosing to be better rather than our death and I have no idea what Bin Laden's last thoughts were.

I think the real question is should Christians rejoice at Bin Laden's death and the answer is no. I don't rejoice in anyone's evil or anyone's death, I rejoice in their doing good. I do not believe Bin Laden good; but, I do believe that all nations do evil even our own. I don't rejoice in that. When the twin towers collapsed some people in Arabia rejoiced. If we only rejoice when we kill "terrorists" and they only rejoice when they kill us, it means we only rejoice in death.

Bin Laden is dead, the wars continue and more people will die. Not much to rejoice about there. In Egypt the muslims are burning down coptic churches. I will rejoice when we find a way to end these wars.

My new oven arrived yesterday. I like cooking and need to figure out what to cook tonight, I am considering tri-tip. Any thoughts on the matter are welcome.

Like I said, not much on my mind, just random thoughts. I think I will get some coffee.

For A Commentor

I do not think it is simply about complimenting one another, I think we must challenge one another while supporting one another, sort of fighting the battle together to grow from challenge. On a side note, the lady singing the song looks like my ex-wife did when we met. She was not my soulmate; but, I found her pretty.

Before we can find a soulmate, we would have to define ourselves, not for what we can get out of the world; but, for what we choose to be, which morals we will live by, our no point, our decision point with no promise of reward. Who knows who can do that, I don't.


Old Souls

To be fair, the woman I believe could have been the love of my life looked a lot like the one above. Same figure, similar faces. I do hope that readers can appreciate my attraction to both women. I cannot say which is prettier, I cannot judge beauty pageants of the face or figure, I am bald, grey and have a pudgey belly. I have plenty of wrinkles. I can know who cares about my heart, who doesn't want me hurt more than they wish to take care of themselves and that is the true beauty and when we feel the same way then I think we have found our soulmate and I have no idea how long that takes.

I looked at the post, the women in the picture looks like the woman I think may be soulmate, the one on the link to the song is what the ex-wife looked like when I met her.

The Rockefeller Commission and What is Going On

A few years ago I was doing some research and came across a report from the Rockefeller Commission. It was titled "Population and the American Future". I think it is worth a read.

Growing up in the late 60s and early 70s there was a lot of talk about population control, later renamed population stabilization. The focus was on using reverse natural selection of a sort. Birth control and free sex, promiscuous sex were promoted and still are today. Our birth rates are down as I previously posted on. Young westerners neither wish to marry or have children and those who do usually wait until later in life.

Serious conversations regarding having one currency and a world government has been around and openly promoted by many since the end of World War I. Going green and making less of a negative impact on the environment was big in the 60s, it was what caused DDT to be taken off the shelves and the outlawing of flourocarbons in spray cans.

When we mix these issues too closely with other real events we can get a skewed picture. What we need to remain focused on are the real events in the natural world that should not be occurring. I am coming to believe that people knew the magnetic poles were going to shift and were preparing in advance. That would make sense. Not long ago the Russians drilled the deepest hole in history to study something, from that depth they would have monitored the magnetic shift long before it was noticed.

Please follow the link are read the article. Cataclysmic Pole Shift Hypothesis.

It says a couple of things that I find of interest. Charles Hapgood hypothesized that the pole shifts occurred over 5,000 years and that then nothing else for 20 to 30 thousand years. Didn't the Mayans talk about 25,000 year periods? The end of the article is good, it claims that the shift effects the ice at the poles and causes earthquakes and volcanoes (shifting mantle).

Lets try and reconcile some things that are very real. Increased volcanic activity, increased earthquake activity, the ice at the poles changing, mass animal deaths (primarilly sea and air creature), an increase in animal attacks by all kinds of animals. These are very real things going on in the natural world. Now let's look at what our government, the Russians and the Chinese are all doing.

I have previously reported on the rush to build underground living facilities over the next couple of years, we have discussed the government stockpiling of prescription drugs, coffins and food. We have created seed banks for animals and food and people. We are seeing the Russians and Chinese spending more on military preparedness. So are we. We have purchased processing areas for FEMA and upgraded them.

Now, we don't know what happened the last time the poles shifted and we have no way of knowing what will happen if it occurs again; but, if you were not sure, wouldn't you make preparations? Now if you are a Christian and believe in the book of "Revelations" then our take should be differant.

It says that there will be wars and famine and earthquakes; but, it does not say that these things end the world. Instead it says these things are a precursor to other changes in our government and currency. Now if you are not a Christian I bet you still know about the book of Revelations, how can you see things in it come true and not have some questions? Perhaps because there is a natural explanation. God works through nature.

Revelations talks about these things being "birth pangs", when they stop then the birth is over, not the world. And what is born from it, a completely changed government structure. The bible does not predict a one world government, it predicts that everyone will be required to take a mark to buy and trade. The bible says that nation will attack nation, not that there will be one government. There are those who want that; but, I see it as highly unlikely. There is international law and some of it is good and some of it is a sell out of our personal freedoms.

Now, I do not know for a fact that the government is preparing for a cataclysmic disaster. We have been sold on "global warming" and that answer satisfies many. It is now of course "climate change" because it began getting colder. Could the pole shift be related to solar activity, yes that is a possible reason. I searched for "solar flares" and "pole shift" and found this video. Dr. Kaku's warning.

And a video by a astrophysicist and meteorologist who got it right.

I want you to really think about what Kaku said, he said that the physicists had all been mistaken, somehow I don't buy that and I like the guy. He also said that the sun's magnetic pole was going to shift by 2012. Now if I know anything about magnets, if two are connected and one turns, the other turns also. I think I got that right. What if it happened in October of 2012?

I am not saying that I know the answer, just looking at pieces of a very strang puzzle and knowing that there are planners in the world. And please remember I don't believe in the end of the world, the bible says one day Satan's rule over this place will end and that is the end times. Whether you believe in God or not, the facts are interesting and worthy of consideration. Something is going on and rather than believe everything we are told we should continue to test what we are told.

There is a lot of anxiety in the world because of all the changes going on that people don't understand; but, they never understood why things are the way they are in the first place. There are people who actually believe that there are 13 families that want to kill everyone in the world and completely control the rest. Let me be clear, there are people who want to kill everyone and control everyone; but, they are not the people running the show. There is greed and selfishness and many of them do run the world; but, they certainly don't want to end the world, they like being in charge.

Oh, I forgot, the Russians have invented inexpensive survival community domes that can float or be on the ground, they are self sustaining. There it is again, sustainability, what does it really mean. Well, a number of years ago they build a toatlly self enclosed environment in Russia to see if it could be designed to be sustained apart from the rest of the world. I actually knew a Russian scientist that worked on it, nice man.

About 20 years ago we built a "Ecosphere" in America. It was on a much larger scale and one of my exes relatives worked on it. Why do I keep knowing people that worked on these things? Crazy. Anyways, the science for making these self sustaining cities appears real. Now, what happens when the world does not end this month or even in 2012, does that mean that everything is okay. Nope, it means that we will be relieved. What happens when we are not all chipped and killed, does it mean everything is okay, nope.

Let me ask another question, I like my questions. What if in January of 2013, the President announced that we had prepared, along with other countries for these solar flares and a possible pole shift and that the worst had passed and we were going to be okay. What if he then explained how we had prepared and that "many fine and dedicated people had worked in secret to protect as many as possible". Wouldn't you be happy to return to your normal life? No Armageddon, just preparation.

You have to pay constant attention to the world around you, it is a tricky place and the sheep like stability and calm more than they like the truth. I prefer the truth; but, I like some peace and quiet also. If, my possible explanation is true then we can expect the following. More strong quakes, more shifting of the earth, more volcanic eruptions, more animal deaths and more bizarre weather. This would all taper off after 2012 if Dr Kaku's timetable is correct.

Quantum Entanglement and Marriage

I like my post's title, makes absolutely no sense unless you read the post. LOL.

I have often discussed aspects on quantum physics on this blog. I happened upon a post by Quasimanga regarding quantum entanglement and I think he explained it well enough. He said the Chinese have a theory regarding soulmates, that they are destined to meet. That is a very human explanation for what happens.

When you split an atom certain particles will be seperated by vast distances (realtive to size). Some of these particles react in an way that cannot be understood, if you touch one, the other reacts in unison; but, they do it faster thant the speed of light. According to Einstein this is impossible, problem is that it happens and we have tested it, it happens a lot.

Now you don't have to be a scientist to understand what I just said and the scientists cannot explain it either. We have a limited number of possibilities for why this occurs. First choice is that they are not reacting to the same stimuli; but, are instead of the same nature and therefore doing the same thing at the same time. There is a number of problems with this primarilly because the environments are different for each particle and therefore they should be responding independently.

The second possibility is that all things are connected. This is the string theory. Problem with this one is that we cannot find any connection or evidence for such connections. Second problem is that it still cannot occur faster than the speed of light.

The third possibility is a modified string theory which states that there are alternate universes in which these same particles exist and that they are responding to something going on in the alternate univers. There is absolutely NO evidence or proof for this and that is because it cannot be proven unless we could see that alternate univers and prove it first.

Pick whichever answer you like. Oh, the fourth is the fractal universe theory. This is the concept that all we see in the real world is merely a projection of the subatomic and reality only exists on the subatomic level. No explanation for why it would project has been forth so I don't think it deserves to be called science.

My personal choice is that it is because God made things to have relationship and some things are part of one another on a level we cannot understand. I guess I like the Chinese theory of the red band connecting people. What if the Chinese were right, what if we can be destined to be somehow attached to another? How would that make you look at sex and marriage and life?

What if everyone on earth had a soulmate; but, they had to achieve a certain amount of seperateness to be ready to be with each other. When they were making the first nuclear bombs they used to "tickle the dragon's tail", they would move two blocks of uranium together and let them begin to chain react in order to know how much uranium was needed for the bomb. Some people died doing this little trick.

Lets get back to the question of marriage. If you knew that you had a soulmate, that everyone did; but, that you had to be ready to be together, would you wait? We are a very promiscuous society, would you wait? Would it effect how you chose how you lived your life?

Lets take it a little further. It is Saturday and I have done all of my chores so I am just listening to music and reading articles. By the way, do yo want me to start adding more pictures or keep it textual?

So lets say that you met your soulmate, seperated and came together again later, you were truly meant to be a couple. How would that effect your relationship? If you harmed one another you would have harmed a part of you. Clearly my ex was not my soulmate, so this is not about her, it is a question, a morality question.

In every relationship you negotiate compromise, how do you negotiate with your soulmate, do you just give them what they want? Perhaps the question is silly, perhaps because they are your soulmate you will be in total agreement; but, I don't buy that.

Now, if one has a soulmate, what does that make everyone else in the world? We are attracted to people on many levels; but, that doesn't mean everyone is qualified to be our soulmate or even mate. I don't have a quantum explanation for this except to say that not all particles experience the "spooky effect" of quantum entanglement.

One last question. If you got to choose to have a soulmate, to only have one person that you are perfect for and new it would mean waiting, would you want to have a soulmate? The alternative would be to live as we live.

Well it is Friday

I have a new oven coming tomorrow. My fault it took so long, just too much going on. I like gas stoves, I like them better than electric. I also like to cook. I look forward to making braised ribs, just fun to make and everybody loves them when I do. I don't do the baking thing, I don't bake cakes or that sort of thing. I prefer cooking.

I have made a lot of money for others, I mean a lot, more than you can imagine. I could make myself a lot of money and don't. This confuses a lot of people, it confused the heck out of a Russian woman I dated. I don't understand why it confuses people. I mean I sort of do; but, not fully. People who say they are not all about money get confused when I don't bother making it for myself.

Losing materialism is wonderful. We need money; but, we really don't need toys. We spend too much time with toys and too little with each other. I don't want to own much anymore, I don't want to ever own another house. I would consider renting one; but, I don't want to own. I don't want to acquire more stuff, replace things I need for sure; but, I have enough.

I don't buy lottery tickets, I don't want to win the lottery. I do play poker; but, it is about the game more than the money, it is a passtime, I just happen to be fairly good at it. Too much money requires too much time, it is a burden on those I have known tha that have or had it and they can't let go of it once they have it.

We seek the wrong things, we seek pleasure rather than satisfaction. I am satisfied, I wasn't before because I was busy working to please my family, to provide for them. I am free of that, kids are grown and ex is ex. I no longer feel a need to make as much as I did. I don't care about the trinkets of this world and really prefer my peace, to read and to write. It is not very expensive to do the things I like.

There is nowhere in the world I am willing to work for just to see for one week. I am okay with the United States and love my new town. I understand that others wish to experience excitement and thrills and what the world has to offer. Enjoy it, I don't want it. I do like having purpose and don't real feel directed right now, I think that is okay for the moment.

There is nothing wrong with enjoying the fruits of our labor or the toys and things that we create, I like art. It is not enjoying things that is the problem, it is the need to own and control them. It is the need, not the want. I think the same may be true for relationships. I don't need to own or control anyone. I do however wish to influence, to have my thoughts listened to and understood. Agreement is not required; but, don't expect me to hold my tongue.

So, with my new over that works, what should I make first. I believe it should be something from the oven rather than the stove. I could make beer can chicken, or 40 clove chicken, or braised ribs or lamb (I make a wonderful mustard and parmesean crusted lamb). Hmmmm, problem is, nobody to cook for tomorrow, so, I probably won't. I will soon enough, when others can enjoy it with me.

It is bedtime and I have to be ready for my new oven. Be well.